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[papmom3]

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Have a great day SK8ter with your son!! You are doing great and we are all so proud of you!!
Happy Father's Day as well to all the other Dads that read this thread. Go Dads!!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks Papmom and Over! I could never imagine not being apart of my sons life. I know there are a lot of guys out there that are like your sons dad Over. My girlfriends ex is sorta like that. I always got the feeling he took the boys because he had to not reall because he wanted to.

It sucks that I made mistakes. Mistakes that I'm paying for in someways but learning and growing from in others. Like I said before I'm not giving up on my relationship. Something deep inside tells me not to.

[wannachange]

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Me too SK8, something deep.. can't be put to words.

Yes overit, he is 3 next month, hopefully he will forget this ordeal when we get back together, good thing is we agreed to let me have space while we work this thing out and try for reconciliation down the line, I don't know how that's going to happen but staying AF and getting the help I need is all I can do for now, we will sign a separation agreement though and get it nullified when we reconcile - seems a strange way to do it but she needs security, I hope I am not falling into a trap but nothing else I can do at the minute.

Have a wonderful day all.

[mama bear]

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Happy Fathers Day to the both of you.....I am proud of your efforts!!

[sk8punk]

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Thank you Mama. Had a great fathers day with my son. I even got a card which was unexpected. Funny how I sometimes feel so alone that a simple gesture as a card nearly brings me to tears. I really am a new person. I know you all can see that, my parents, friends at work and my counsler all see it too. Some have even commented that I even look better. All of your support really means so much to me. It helps me through hard times to know you are all pulling for my relationship to work out. Guess I'm a little emotional today.
My mom told me my girlfriend had the necklace I got her on today.

Wanna that is great news. I don't think you're falling into a trap. Its just going to take time. But at least you got hope and a goal to shoot for. Keep up the great work.

[OverIt2007]

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Hey SK8,

Just got in and catching up on here.

Oh, thats a GOOD sign if she is wearing your necklace. In fact, thats a pretty big deal because that necklace to her is not just any necklace. Its a symbol to her of how much you love her, and it means something to her. Trust me on that. Women get very symbolic with things. Im so excited to hear that she is wearing it! It means something to her for sure.

So glad you had a good fathers Day and you got a card from her too??? Things sure seem to be looking up!

[sk8punk]

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Hey Over,

I was surprised when my mom said she was wearing it! Shortly after that I got a text from her saying she liked the necklace but I shouldn't have. Another thing my dad just told me. He said she was almost in tears this morning when he was leaving with my son. I'm not sure what that was about. It's almost like she wants to communicate with me more but just isn't sure what to say to me.

Had a good fathers day. No I didn't get a card from her. It was from my son, but we know who bought and signed it. Things seem to be going in a positive direction but it going to take time. I just have to keep doing what I'm doing and be patient.

I've often thought about this. And since I'm emotional today I'll share. I'm sure some of you wonder why I just don't walk away from the relationship and just be a great dad for my son. I've wondered too. I've walked away in the past. But this time something inside me won't let me. Maybe this is the first time I've "really" been in love. Maybe she is the one. I don't know. What I do know is my feelings telling me not to give up or give in. It's so strange that I almost know what she's feeling and have later learned I've been dead on. And while I'm not so concentrated on the issue as I was it's still there.

[techie]

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Hi 8 it sounds like you had a good day. She was wearing the necklace? That's very significant! If you think she is the one, then you go with your gut instinct. Follow your heart. It will take time. You've made a tremendous amount of progress in getting your life back together. Give her space and keep working toward your goals. I see it all coming together down the road. Have a good night!

[OverIt2007]

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In the spirit of it being Fathers Day, well since I am Father too! Here is pic of me and mini me

You dont give up on her Sk8 because you love her. I never wondered why you didnt walk away, not once.

Things are moving in positive directions! Yay!!

OH!!! I LOVE THE NEW PIC!! You look so happy and at peace!

[papmom3]

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Hey Sk8ter! So glad you had a great Dad's Day! I echo Over it and Techie-She wouldn't be wearing the necklace if she didn't have any more feelings for you. You don't wear something like that to be polite. Give her some more time. She has got to be not only overwhelmed with life right now but totally confused. She dumped you because of your drinking and behavior while drinking right? It took a lot of guts and soul searching to do that and she was all set to totally forget about you except for letting you see your son once a week. She was ready to move on. Then you go and do the one thing she didn't count on: You admitted you had a problem and you took the steps necessary to change you and your life and make yourself a better person and the best dad you could be. I bet she didn't see that coming. So, give her some more time, keep doing what you're doing but do it for you, no one else. If it's meant to be it will happen.
Love the new pic-he's such the little man!! and I love your smile!!

[sk8punk]

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Hey Techie, Over and Papmom,

Thanks again! That picture is from today. Everytime he notices your taking a picture he says "cheese" don't know why but it makes me laugh everytime. Thats why I have such a big smile.

Wow Over! Thats a good picture! You sure you're still single? I don't see why guys aren't beating down your door. And your boy is very cute!

You're all right. I know its going to take time. I'm sure she didn't expect me to admit to having a problem and getting help. Especially as quick as I did. I do think my new behavior is confusing her.

[OverIt2007]

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Yep... All good things take time, or so they say?

Thanks Sk8.. Yep I am sure I am single. For years now. I told you, the guys in Florida suck!! LOL. Yes, my son is a cutie. My pride and joy like yours is your pride and joy. Blessings given from God, thats for sure.

Shes going to come around.. I just know it. Just a matter of time, but keep enjoy the journey into your soul.

Have a good night! Me and Mini me pretty tuckered out!

[sk8punk]

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Years!?!? Man its been awhile since I've been to Flordia but I'm not sure if the guys suck or are just dumb and blind.

Thats what they say. They also say anything worth having isn't easy to achieve. Or something like that. Yeah getting to know myself is really interesting. I like it so far. I do catch myself off guard once in awhile. Like today when my son gave me the card tears just filled my eyes and they weren't tears of sadness. I really do take time to enjoy the simple things in life. I'm lucky to have a second chance. Its sad I can't even remember fathers day last year. To drunk or hungover or most likely both. Well not anymore.

[sk8punk]

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Good morning everyone! I feel pretty good today. Wish I didn't have to go to work but oh well. Going to try to stay positive. Takin it one day at a time.

Hope you all had a good weekend. Talk to you later

[patrice]

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Hiya Sk8.. you're doing super as usual.. yeah i wished I didnt have to go work this morning too but did and it wasn't too bad.. and now the days over!!! yay, having a hot green tea and feeling pretty good and tired. back on that hamster wheel tomorrow in 40 degrees ... filthy conditions.. insects the size of birds.. and smoke from forest fires... see your job aint so bad!!!