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[wannachange]

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Yeah I would do 12 hour shifts if I knew I was going to get 3 days off for the weekend
So SK8, as I was saying earlier, I got a letter from my wife's solicitor saying that my wife wants and expects me to be a Daddy and will eventually remove the supervision access once it is seen I am ok, also reconciliation is not ruled out but all depends on how well I do with getting better, i.e. counselling, psychotherapy, Alcohol specialists, AA, how well I am at being a Father with my son, how well I handle communication with my wife regarding my son and how well I manage the finances and decisions I make regarding the separation - it looks promising and gives incentive as its the only thing I want - a last grasp, something to hope for.
Keep up the positive flow SK8, you will make it.. its just a matter of when.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Hi guys and gals. Wanna that is remarkable news!! I am very happy for you. Sk8r glad you are still having a great day and K9 too. I am TIRED yes with a capital T! Quiet night catching up on trade mags for me.

[sk8punk]

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That is great Wanna! Keep up the great work! Should be easier now that you have a incentive. I always find I can give it that let bit extra if there is a goal in mind. And your goal is the most important goal there is.
I hope I'll get there. Hope is all I really have and its all I need right now.

[OverIt2007]

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Hello!! How sweet of you to say you missed me (K-9). Yep, just got home from working!

That is one pretty lady you have in your picture now K-9. Shes gorgeous just like her Mama!!! So cute. I often wonder what it would be like to have a little girl.

Nothing special to report over here, just a typical day! Was in a good mood most of the day, and good to see everyone else being happy with just living too! Sometimes you just have to be grateful to be alive, you know???

Sk8, as you know... I have always been a single Mom cuz my sons father bailed on us. Anyways, my joy has always come from just having my son. So just being happy being Mom has always been what I have known! Thats good enough for me! Like you told me the other day, things could always be worse, I totally agree with that.

[sk8punk]

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Must have been something in the air today that everyone was in a good mood. Mine just kind of hit me out of nowhere. I just realized I was in a good mood. I am happy being a father. Wish I has more of a "full time" dad. You know what I mean. I think the trick is being happy with what you got at this moment. Living in the now really works for me in a parts of my life.

[Justforme]

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I've just come home from a day trip in town (I live in the country) and was feeling pretty flat - stressed from an unpleasant phone call from my older daughter - but just read these last few postings and felt totally uplifted by them. I feel really happy for you all that things are starting to look up. You all sound like such nice people that I just want something nice to happen for you.

[sk8punk]

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Hey Just. Glad you got cheered up. Having kind of a downer day today. Happens from time to time. I'll snap out of it.I think its because I have to call my girlfriend to see when we can pick up my son on Saturday. For some reason I'm nervous as hell to talk to her.

I think I may be the onlt person here since the site just came back up.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Sk8!
I am here too...the site was down for a long time! Sorry you're having a "down" day today, like we said yesterday, we're human and it happens. Hopefully things will pick up for you as the day wears on. On the bright side, it's Wednesday and the weeks half over!
Hang in there...things always get better!
K9

[sk8punk]

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Hi K9!

Not really down. Just my anxiety cause I have to call my girlfriend to see about my son. Actually I just called and left a voicemail. So my anxiety is already coming down. I'm feeling better already.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Hey Sk8r and K9r! Funny how if we just face what we're avoiding asap, we could avoid ourselves a whole lot of anxiety. Me guilty too. )

[sk8punk]

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You're completly right RC. This is the first week I'm calling to find out when we can get my son. My dad was doing it since all this went down. I'm the one who said it was enough. She has to deal with me somehow. And my counsuler agreed. So really I have myself to blame for the anxiety.

[Ringing Cedars]

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That's very responsible Sk8 and anxiety under that circumstance is perfectly understandable. I hope she responds directly even if it is through email text because it will still be a step in the right direction making arrangements with you and not your parents. Baby steps remember....

[sk8punk]

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She did text to say she missed the call and to call her after work. Strange since she could've just text me the time to get him. Now I'm wondering why she wants to talk to me all the sudden.

[wannachange]

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Hello hello my wonderful American friends, I am on an UPPER today and you are on a DOWNER, it was the opposite yesterday, I suppose I am happy cause I got the first email from my wife today regarding arranging this weekend, it was just nice to get something from her after so long, and I love that wednesday is over cause I dislike wednesday - over the hump now and aiming directly for the weekend and time with my son. I also met someone from this site so it was nice to get out and socialise a bit, so yeah I am happy today.
Have a wonderful day

[sk8punk]

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That's great Wanna. You're getting out there. Wish someone from here lived near me. It always is great to hear from a loved one. Sounds like things are progressing very positively for you.
My call to my girlfriend wasn't as good as your situation. She seemed very annoyed when I called. Even though she knew I was going to call. I usually come away from our conversations confused. When I asked if my son needed anything she said "he always needs stuff". When I asked like what she wouldn't give me specifics. She then said 9:30 is the set time for me to get him unless something comes up and she'll let me know. Then a second later said "keep calling every wednsday". Huh? I can tell she is very stressed and I guess still confused. Maybe the new me is throwing her a bit. The father of her other two kids never called and asked if they needed anything. She had to call and hound him to even see the boys.
I didn't get mad. Stayed calm to whole time. I'm just going to keep doing what I am because I believe its the right thing to do. Just gonna take time.