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[sk8punk]

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Yeah I did miss it. Well at least you know the out come if you drink! LOL. Hope it helps you get to a point you can do it yourself.
Yeah I know I didn't mess up his life. Just hate not seeing him everyday. I am happy today. Have a good day swimmin. Catch you later

[one2many]

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Wow Skate!!

GREAT pics...reminds me of how I was 18 years ago......still love the music tho xx

[girly wirly]

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:hget a room you two....

oh lol sorry i'm just kidding.....:H

how far is florida from pittsburgh?:H

[Mrs Donovan]

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Hey just wanted to drop in and say hi and cool pics Sk8!

Overit - good luck on the Antabuse - that is a major step (please be careful!!!)

Sk8 I've just found out I have dysthymic depression too so have read a little of what you've been saying about it and it all sounds very simliar. It's explained a lot for me as I always knew something wasn't right - gonna have to spend a little longer as a hermit before I try a social event again but I'm getting there.

Good luck with your journey - your son is such a cutey!

[sk8punk]

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Hey One, Girly and Mrs. Kinda hard for me to change my look so I'm in for life I suppose. LOL. Flordia is a little to far from Pittsburgh. 2 or 3 day drive I think.
Dysthymia is no fun. Wish I would've found out I had it years ago. Are you on any meds for it? I take Paxil and it has helped with the depression and anxiety. Now I want to do stuff but there's nothing to do and no one to do anything with. Such is the story of my life.

[Mrs Donovan]

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yes wish I'd known a longer time ago as well. Don't think I would have ended up with a drink problem or anxiety. I'm on citalopram, think you guys call it celexa. It has really helped the anxiety and is helping to lift the depression....I think. Still have low, flat days but next in my plan is to start exercising! Nothing boring like gyms but dance sessions, pilates - that sort of thing.

My slip up after 45 days AF really showed me more than anything how much I want a sober happy life. You've done so well at nearly 90 days - that is a huge achievement.

[sk8punk]

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I think that's why I drank too. Originally it was the social anxiety then it was self medicating the depression. Just made it worse though. The meds do make me feel better. Still panic a little when I have down days. Still getting used to having the full spectrum of emotions. Exercise of any sort helps with the low days.

[one2many]

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LMAO SK8, I have the kids listening to The Dead Kennedys, Crass and The Exploited....The littlest one Mia aged 2 has a cool Ramones T shirt....I can still be a cool Mum at 38!

Their friends see old pics of me on Face book as tell the kids.."your Mam was a freak!

The eldest boy who is ten has decided to go goth and is robbing my eyeliner and black nail varnish...

The apple does not fall far from the tree!!

[sk8punk]

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When I still lived with my son I used to play music for him all the time. He really liked Devo The Ramones and The Dickies. He's been picking up drum sticks and beating along to music since he was one. Funny how I see so much of my personality in him even though he is with his mum all the time. I already see my daredevil traits in him. She's gonna have her hands full with him if he keeps taking after me.

[mama bear]

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I had my first major dispressive episode at 27. It scared the hell out of me. I was always upbeat and happy...and BAM......i have been on antidepressants ever since and officially diagnosed with dysthemia.....ongoing, low grade depression. Not debilitating, but can suck...i am now 48 and take effexor. I was on Paxil for years, but recently changed because i was having "breakthrough" symptoms....crying spells, low mood, etc.
After a while you just know what it is and deal with it. My chant to myself is "This too shall pass"

[mama bear]

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Oney...i would be having a heart attack if my boys got into the eyeliner!!

[mama bear]

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sk8...i lived in Columbus for years and went to Ohio State

[sk8punk]

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Mine started when I was about 13. So I went undiagnoised for half my life. Just thought that was my personality. I go through cycles it seems. Up for a few years then the littlest negative thing would happen and right down I would go and it could take years to snap out of it.
My drinking tended to follow the up and down too. While up I wouldn't drink or only have a few but when down I became self destructive with my drinking.

[one2many]

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mama bear;898162 wrote: Oney...i would be having a heart attack if my boys got into the eyeliner!!

I was kinda shocked to be honest as he is still so young but I swore to myself that when I had kids I would never try to quell their creative side in regards of how they dress...
My mother made my life a misery and went as far as to cut my mohawk as I slept. I was a good kid and never brought trouble to her door.
My reckoning is...let him experiment, see what fits and go with that. (to a certain extent anyway...)

His friends took the piss out of him but he didnt give a damn and I admire that in him, he will never be a follower lol! He honestly doesnt care what other people think.

SK8, you trained the little man well...i can imagine him drumming!!

[mama bear]

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you know what oney....you are a very wise momma
Mohawk?????? that cracks me up!!! you were a pistol!!