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[OverIt2007]

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Hey Sk8, did you ever do any beans? LOL, I think you know what I mean!

[one2many]

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sk8punk;898363 wrote: Hey Wanna how are you today?
No One they were tiny little pills used to call them white crosses. I think I was up to 30 or 40 a night before I quit. Well sexually they made you last forever. It was also hard to piss while taking them. Used to just drip out. LOL.
That was really the extent of my drug use. But yeah those and every cold medicine you get id'd for now because of crystal meth. At least here in Pittsburgh.

:H:H I was wondering who used to wee all over the floor!!

Yep the sex thing with those tabs was full on..I used to run to bed and lock the door and leave him to it...

[sk8punk]

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Beans? Um actually I have no idea what you're talking about. Funny I just stopped at the convience store to get some drinks (not alcohol they don't sell it in convience stores in PA). And I think a cute girl checked me out.LOL. of course I did have the green glasses my son has on in the pic. Maybe she was just staring cause I'm weird. That has always been my problem I never think people are checking me out for the right reasons.
To be honest and I think you all can tell the past few days, I'm getting tired of waiting on my GF. I've made every effort to communicate on every level and just get ignored. Yes I have days like today where I feel like saying screw it. I'll be there for my son but she's got to give a little soon.
So as you can see Wanna I'm kinda in the same place you are. I feel cast aside and not even worth attemting to make time for.

[one2many]

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What are beans Over?

Sk8. look at it as she was looking at you for the right reasons..there is no unwritten law to say you cannot keep your options open.
I think a person can only take so much rejection when the person in question begins to lose their shine.

I Know you love her a lot and I am not saying give up on her but do keep your options open, you deserve happiness too and it is always good to know that you still have it!!

[OverIt2007]

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Really Sk8? Must be a Florida thing??

At the ripe old age of early 30's somebody asked if I wanted to try some "beans". After much convincing, I said alright, because everybody at the party was doing them too and seemed to be having a blast.

Beans are Ecstasy, and I continued to do them for a couple more years, off and on. Have not done them since way before my son was born and really have no big desire to again.

[wannachange]

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Oxy's

Yeah Oney, but I will see what happens, nothing else to do at the moment anyhow but work and work and work for her and my son, get nothing for myself at the end of the month... sigh am I in a tired mood tonight gonna hit the hay.
Night lovely people.

[one2many]

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I am sorry Wanna, I meant that for SK8!

[sk8punk]

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Ecatasy oh. No never did that. I remember that whole rave scene when it was going on. Never got into it. I've always been like I am today. Actually I wasn't even that big into drinking at that time. I know people who've done ecstasy. Told me some weird stories. I never got into the drug scene. Thank god. I work with pot heads. I've know herion junkies but stayed away from it all myself.
One I think your post was in reply to me not Wanna unless I missed something. But I agree with what you're saying about leaving options open.

[OverIt2007]

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Im sure thats good that you stayed away from all that stuff... I have never done what I consider the "harder" drugs. Have never done acid either. From my experiences with Ex, I wouldnt call that a hard drug from the way it effected me. I think some of the harder drug users refer to it as candy.

Ok, I think we should stay away from the drug topics perhaps, LOL. Glad everybody is having a good day it seems!

[sk8punk]

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Looks like you got it before I posted Oney. I know I should keep my options open and in a way I am. But I've had this gut feeling since day one my GF is going to what me to come back when I am in a very happy/good time in my life. If that involves someone else that is going to really complicate things. I'm not good at hurting people. But at the same time I can't put my life on hold for someone who is treating me like shit at a very bad point in my life. Between a rock and a hard place I guess.
What I'm trying to say is I'm not out activily looking for someone else but if it happens it happens. I'm more or less putting my life in fates hands right now.
But you are spot on about only being able to take so much rejection before that star turns out to be a dim light bulb in the distance.

[sk8punk]

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Yeah probably best to stay away from that. I've just always stayed away from them cause I've seen what it does to people. Oddly I didn't put 2 and 2 together with alcohol.

[one2many]

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sk8punk;898425 wrote: Looks like you got it before I posted Oney. I know I should keep my options open and in a way I am. But I've had this gut feeling since day one my GF is going to what me to come back when I am in a very happy/good time in my life. If that involves someone else that is going to really complicate things. I'm not good at hurting people. But at the same time I can't put my life on hold for someone who is treating me like shit at a very bad point in my life. Between a rock and a hard place I guess.
What I'm trying to say is I'm not out activily looking for someone else but if it happens it happens. I'm more or less putting my life in fates hands right now.
But you are spot on about only being able to take so much rejection before that star turns out to be a dim light bulb in the distance.

With that attitude you cannot go wrong....nice one SK8...

Almost midnight here Over....my day is over!!

[mama bear]

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I agree sk8...i think i said it a few days ago.....if a man did for me what you are trying to do for her....I would know he was the one for me....

[one2many]

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Right I am off to bed now...sorry for invading the thread!!! The Army deserted me!

Catch you guys on the moro!

[mama bear]

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nite punkin