Falling Apart

[janka]

Falling Apart

a musician

[sk8punk]

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Good morning everyone! Feelin good today. Time to take my new dose of meds. I hate when the doc changes to dosage.
Hey Girly and Oney! You are right Girly it was time to stand up for myself and on my own. Guess we'll see where the pieces fall today.
Oney why are you sad today? Just one of those days? I do the same think when I'm down. Blast music and annoy the world. LOL. Think I'll join you in blastin music on my way to work. Speaking of which I should leave. Catch you all later

[Flip Top]

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one2many;900485 wrote: 14 kids in my garden dancing and pogo-ing to this lol...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIqESwzCGg4[/video]]YouTube - Dead Kennedys - California Uber Alles


"This is cool music Adam's Mum......can you download it for us"

BONUS!

Think the video could freak the kids out lmao

[sk8punk]

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You'd be surprised. Kids seem to love punk. Don't know why. They also seem to love the way I look. Parents are always shocked when their little child says hello and I stop and give a big smile and say hello back.

[OverIt2007]

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Kids love to bounce off the walls, LOL.

I like to listen to Christian music sometimes, feels good for the soul, but when I play it my sons says "BORING!!!" He wants the rock or pop station, of course at age 6.

[sk8punk]

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I love to bounce off walls too. Don't think I've ever lost that mentality. I also sometimes like music loud. So loud you can feel it. I like feeling the kick drum hitting me in the chest. Think that comes from playing live.

[sk8punk]

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Duane Peters the original skate punk and one of my heroes posted this today....

With old Interveiws at least I get to See where I was at Kind of at the Time in Retrospect. Trust me,This one wasnt to bad,Ive Got alot of Interveiws I Regret in alot of ways and can be Filed under “REGRETS ? I GOTTA MILLION OF EM !” But it all is what it is and How the fuck ya gonna learn anything in this life if ya just hold it all in yer pockets ? Fuck man ! I gotta bleed Everything all over the Place and in Publik to even Start to Realize what life is all about even a little and The Older I get ? the less i Fucking Know ! Much Less Remember ! Hah ! Hand in the Fire,hand in the Fire ! hey ? whatta Ya Know ? that Mother fucker Really is hot ! Maybe I should Stop That ? well…… For now Anyhow ! I do Know , Never say never is True ! I Love My Life right now and Things aint Great at all ! Ive Had it much Bettter and I,ve Had it much worse ! Its another day on the Planet and I,m Breathin ! I got dreams and I got asperations Even at this Stage of The game ! Ive been off all Mind altering Substances for 8 months on July 6th which will be My son Chelsea”Chess” Dillon Peters 3rd year off the Planet Date and My first July 6th Sober Since he Died. I was 5 months Sober when He Was Trajectly killed in a car crash That was Not His fault . Some Elderly Guy pulled in Front of Him While He was ABout to Get on the Freeway and my Kid swerved to miss him and clipped the guys quarter Panel and Spun into a Light pole that took his Life instantly ! he just Got his First skateboard model and Skated every Fucking day ! he had already broken his femar and did the wheel chair Thing a few years before That and Was just out of The Wheel chair again from breaking his leg and Ankle Both times SkateBoarding and he Could not Get enough of it ! I Lasted another 4 Months Sober after he Died but the whole Fucking world seemed Like The Biggest piece of Shit To me and nothing has ever been the Same Since his death for me ! I have been completely lossed and Tried several attempts on My own life again and Have to be one of the Guys on this planet for Most failed Suicide attempts ! hah ! Fuck man ! Cant Even do that right ! Right ? Well The law Got me Back on Track and I,m not Quite so Depressed ( I do have my moments Tho) and I,m Not Quite so Angry ! There is just no describeing The Loss of A Child To anyone That hasnt Lossed one ! and Ya pretty much hang out on a very lonley Island if you do ! It is For sure the Worst thing that Can happen to anyone on this Planet ! and I will debate That untill I am dead with anyone ! well there is worse ! Loseing yer whole Family or Loseing more Than one Kid ! so i do not even Go There because i have Two other boys and its just something we ,As parents Dont even want to think about or even throw out into The Universe ! Fuck man ! everything happens for a reason ! thats what I Truly believe ! We just dont always know why untill all or Some of The Shit Unfolds as We keep on heading down the Road ! all of us with our own little movies we do called life ! Nothing is for Sure and nothing is Solid so The Moment is what i Live For and That is “RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW” Its only as Dark or Light as we Choose to make it ! Period ! Have a Super Rad Day !
Duane Peters

[Ringing Cedars]

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Dropping a hello stitch in your thread SK8! Hi to all!

Love that bass vibrating through me!

Great day to you all!

[sk8punk]

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Today is the first time in a long time that I can say I love being alive. Maybe the step yesterday is what I needed to do to free myself. Like Duane said live for the moment because that's all there is right now. Its seems the possibilites are endless right now.
Hope you are all doing good today. Enjoy now because its gone in a minute.

[one2many]

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Just dropping in for a min, doing this party with the kids, will be back on tonight.

Guess I needed to read Duanes post today, it has helped. Thank you.

Off to party with my kids xxx

Catch yis laters guys xx

[sk8punk]

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Glad it helped Oney. Duanes stuff has helped me a lot recently seems me and him are on the same level of thinking. Always nice to see your thoughts written by another. Don't feel so alone in the struggle.

Have a blast with the kids. Seems like a good party to me. Get hyper and act like a kid.

[one2many]

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Party over and I am wrecked, had a good time tho and the kids had a ball....have a load of new converts to my type of music.....I bet their mothers won't be happy tho lol.

Gonna relax on here for the evening now.

Did I miss anything...

Hi RC and Flip x
SK8 you are sounding most excellent today! COOL!

[sk8punk]

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Better to be wrecked than wasted huh. Kids gotta here good music somewhere. God knows the radio here is still playing the same shit from when I was kid. Not much going on here today at all.

[one2many]

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So much better than being wasted!

Adam has decided to leave the goth behind and go punk..Thank God it is the summer holidays and he can experiment withour getting into trouble at school.

I am feeling a bit better now, I HATE those feelings of sadness that come over me, they just come out of the blue and Rob does not understand so pointless telling him.

Enjoyed dancing with the kids today, all the neighbours were out and laughing...one of them told me never to lose my lust for life as thats why all the kids congregate at my house and it is a joy to watch....They love me coz I act like they do...

I was gobsmacked, if only she knew that I am a meloncholy little leprechaun sometimes..but it was a nice thing to say...

It sure is quiet here today....have you heard anything from GF SK8?

[sk8punk]

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I get those feelings too. But that's why I'm on antideprssents now. My GF never understood either. Son Adam is going punk huh. Well he got a good mom to show him the ropes. Lust for life that's a good way to put it. Doesn't sound so childish.
No haven't heard anything. Doubt I will. But who knows weel see.