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[Rusty]

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Hi Sk8,

It's Rusty, your 49-year-old single, white, female MWO friend. I can empathize with your position....but believe me, you see couples together, but that my friend, does not mean they are HAPPY! I was in a long-term relationship that wasn't happy and I put on a lot of appearances, so don't let that throw you.

You have a new lease on life because you are sober and you have that beautiful little boy.

I know you feel alone. I have been in your shoes a few times as I have had 2 men break up with me right before 4th of July and I just wanted to die I felt like such an outcast. Everyone was barbequing, boating, sailing, etc., and I was just a reject because I had been dumped.

I am here to tell you that you are not a leper in the eyes of anyone here at MWO. Your threads, posts, thoughts and deeds are nothing but kind and thoughtful. You have helped many people here with your candor, sensitivity and honesty.

Move forward today with the fireworks of sobriety and the love of your son...which is second to none, and with the thought that without even knowing it, you continue to be a bright light of many people here at MWO.

Try to enjoy your day, and knowing you, you will perform some kind act today for someone who will reach out to you, and you will help that person (knowing you), and then you'll say, "Damn, it was worth it!"

xoxoxo

Rusty

[sk8punk]

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I fixed it Oney LoL my brain works faster than I can type! I know I'm not the only one RC. Sometimes it feels like we're all soldiers who have a bond because of this war we are in. Then in society I walk around shell shocked and not understood. What a combo! Shell shocked with a lust for life!

[one2many]

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BRAVO Rusty!!!!

[Ringing Cedars]

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Bravo Rusty!! xox

[Ringing Cedars]

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Oney you took the words right out of my mouth!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks Rusty. That was great! I do wish the world saw me like you all do here. But there's the rub huh. In order to know someone you have to talk to them. There was a quote I saw somewhere that I always thought described me. Its something like this.

"When the world doesn't treat the fool with the respect he feels he desreves that's when the seeds are sown for the angry anti social punk"

That's not it exactly but you get the point. I'm not so much that person anymore but its still there.

[Rusty]

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Ok, Sk8,

We all love ya but if you don't get off your beautiful, bony, tattoed *ss, then you will be staring at Oney, RC, Wanna, Techie, Overit, Mama Bear, K9, and everyone else on the MWO hotline. You have so much to offer ANYONE who crosses your path. We all know that!!

I'm off to enjoy my day...alone, sober and happy in my own (tattoo-less) skin!!

Sk8er, it's just a DAY. A holiday hyped up by the media and Hallmark. I know because I was a member of the media.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox


Rusty

[one2many]

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Rusty, you crack me up....xxxx

[sk8punk]

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Hahaha you are awsome Rusty. I'm still out. So i m out there. I learned in counsuling that anyone who has a problem with how I look it is there problem. Not mine. Can you believe it took a counsuler to tell me that before it sank in? Yes I have bad esteem issues that used to manifest themselves in anger and drinking. Well got my self a skate mag and rented a couple of movies for tonite. I'm having fun people watching though so I may keep doing this for awhile. I just noticed I am very tan from being outside skating and with my son.
Still wish I lived near a beach though. Id skate there, surf, people watch and go home content. Born on the wrong coast I tell ya.

[one2many]

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You have just added soemthing to my list SK8, I have te beach on my doorstep and NEVER go...

Does be poxy freezin tho..

[sk8punk]

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Well there you go. You know I've always felt I should've been born in CA even before I discovered punk and skating. That just solidified the fact that's where I belong. I've met Duane Peters and Riki Barnes when their bands were on tour here. 2 years later I was in Huntington Beach CA at a show. Who taps me on my shoulder? Riki Barnes he was like "where have you been? Jail? I've been looking for you to start a band." He knew who I was but thought I lived in CA. I don't know I just have the same vibe all those guys out there do. I don't really get people here on the east coast. They're always stressed out and in a big hurry to go nowhere.

[one2many]

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Sent to Santa Monica..LOVED it...everything was so laid back and easy going...I would buy a beach hut and live there if I could...

That was weird about meeting Riki!!

[sk8punk]

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Never been to Santa Monica only Orange County. I loved it too. I'll go back someday.

[Johnny]

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How you doing Sk8. I am single too and I know how you feel buddy. I feel like such an outsider at times and I would love to be rockin' it with some nice ladies. Unfortunately due to the fact I have just completed a couple of back to back unsuccessful relationships I know I am too vulnerable to get involved with anyone at the moment, c'est la vie. I often think to myself that it would be nice to just sleep around a bit like I did in my 20's, but all of that was done behind the mask of the drinker in me. I don't want to be him any more so I need to re learn myself and for me that means I have to stay on my own for now.

Might not be relevant, but I felt like sharing that dude!

[sk8punk]

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Hey Johnny, thanks for droppin by. Funny I just now realized today is the 4th. I usually would be three sheets to the wind by now. But I just got done watching Alice In Wonderland and I actually enjoyed it. I really like the simple things in life. Being sober ain't that bad. Lonely but not bad. Those of you that have someone and they have stuck by you through your struggle consider yourselves blessed. And those like me that have had to fight this alone...we to are blessed. I'm not sure how yet but we are.