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[sk8punk]

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He's gonna be 2. I actually like video games, have a Xbox 360 so dad will be right next to him playing! Have a good night Rebirth.

Our feet aren't the only things that grew heh?-Umm I don't think I want to know what else grew RC. LOL.

[rebirth]

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Just a quick LAST message!

I was in Chicago once DG.
SK8 your friday routine sounded just like mine.I would start as soon as work finished and I was usually totally wasted by 10. I would have found my way to some takeaway, get home somehow, eat my food as well as spill alot of it on the floor and would be in bed by 11. Massive hangover the next day garanteed and feeling like s...t! Every weekend for many many years...Looking at it that way...no I dont miss the drink.
Nite! This time for real!

[Ringing Cedars]

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My brazen brain or buxom beauticiousness! lol

[rebirth]

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sk8punk;907564 wrote: Our feet aren't the only things that grew heh?-Umm I don't think I want to know what else grew RC. LOL.

I do! :H
Good night for the last time and I really mean it. Thanks for the company:thanks:

[sk8punk]

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Ringing Cedars;907569 wrote: My brazen brain or buxom beauticiousness! lol

Well that goes without saying RC. You never can be to careful on this thread.

Don't know why I never posted this picture of Aaron before. Proud poppa moment here. I didn't put him on it. He always grabs my boards and does this. This is also before his first haircut. This is from April. I was 3 days sober at this time. Weird how i remember stuff now.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Well honestly, when Oney posted that arse pic, I asked her where she got my picture!

That could have been me six months ago. I wish I could have given Oney the growth in the last 6 months! lol

We'd both be quite pleased with ourselves!:H

[Ringing Cedars]

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What a priceless look on his adorable little mug. He's like saying well I'm on it. I might not make it go like you pop. But I ain't getting off of it either. Kinda what I see anyways. Wow the week flew by. Have a great day with him Sk8r!!

[sk8punk]

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I actually think he was barking like a dog when i took that pic. LOL. Yep thats my son alright. Stand on a skateboard and bark like a dog.

Thanks RC I defenitaly will. I actually texted my GF today to tell her how stoked I was to see him tomorrow. I think that caught her off guard. She usually has to bug her ex husband to see if he wants to see his boys. Other than this alcohol problem I developed I'm sure I'm many a girls dream guy!


hahahahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahhaha.....sorry I couldn't keep a straight face either!

[mary in atlanta]

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All the emotions come up

I know for me when I stopped drinking, I could hardly carry on an intimate conversation, say with a friend or family member, without crying and cryihg. it was then I realized how many emotions I'd been keeping pressed down with the alcohol.
It's so great that you are allowiing the emotions to surface and you are dealing with them without alcohol.
It is probably what they call "situational" in this case , even though you've had episodes since you were much younger. and will pass as you deal with all the sadness that life is throwing at you right now. Like you, I have so much appreciation for this forum and this family. I do feel that everyone has been thru so many of the same things.
Best of luck. I truly admire your staying AF in the midst of all of this. YOu are to be commended for that along with all the other great things your doing right now. And also for making such an effort to be with your son. Hang in there . you are in the right place by being here. :goodjob:

[rebirth]

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Good morning. Struggled witht the cravings last night but it through. What a releif.
Today is busy. Got to clean my house and prepeare more party food. Got ten 6year old coming over in five hours. I am very excited.

Sk8 you little boy is sooooo precious! Makes me reidculously broody. I would love another one but feel I am getting on. Other women have had children in their late 30's but I am still unsure.
I thought I would send you a picture of my son. Hope the attachment works:

[rebirth]

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oh. That didnt work...
How do you attach pictures?
Got to go anyways.
Later evryone. Have a great sober saturday if possible! xxx

[sk8punk]

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Good morning everyone! On my way to get Aaron. Can't wait to see him today.

Mary, thank you for your kind words. When I first got sober I would breakdown a lot too. Especially when I thought of my son. I had so many fears like he wouldn't remember who I was or that I screwed up his life along with mine. I know those aren't true know. It allows me to really enjoy the time I do have with him.
With Dysthymia it is possible to have that depression going and suffer situational depression too. Its called double depression. I may have been suffering from that. But everyday that fog lifts a little more.

Rebirth, have a great day at the bithday party. My GF got pregnant with my son at 39 and had him just after she turned 40. The docs made her go through a kinds of tests to make sure the baby was alright.

Well I'll check in later hope you all have a great day!

[sk8punk]

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Well on our way taking Aaron home. He feel asleep within 10 minutes in the car. He refused to take a nap at all today. Had another great day with him. He was doing things I do and kept sayin dada has that about things he saw. I imagine he does that at home too. I hate taken him back. Wish I could have even more time with him but its nowhere near as bad as the first time. I was a mess that day.

As soon as I get home I'm gonna go rent another movie to take my mind off things. Then tomorrow is more bday shopping. Gonna pick up some Toy Story stuff I think.

[sk8punk]

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Don't know why I always feel like a convict when we get to the house. Feels like I'm let out on Saturday to see my son then back to the hoosgow.

Honestly when I'm with him I don't have a care or worry in the world. Its the closest I feel to myself. Ah well I'm getting there. One day at a time. I am grateful for my sobrity.

[sk8punk]

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Missed my usual morning post cause I went skating early to beat the heat. Just got cleaned up and I'm getting ready to go bday shoppin. Gotta get some caffine I'm dragin ass today.

Not usre if anyone still reads this but I'm gonna keep posting to keep track of stuff.