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[OverIt2007]

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Hey Sk8!

You can take away my booze, but dont freaking mess with my coffee!!!

Enjoy shopping for Aaron. Thats always fun thing to do!

And HEY!!! I always read your thread! Still hoping things will come around with you and Aarons mom

[sk8punk]

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Hey Over! Still out and about. I hear ya booze I can live without but I need caffine in any form. Feels like I'm 16 again and I'm always hopped up. Traded one addiction for another I guess. Oh well I don't turn into a asshole on caffine at least.

Ugh what I call Sunday depression is starting to set in. Always had this even when I was with someone. Seems to set in earlier now though. This is the day of the week I wish I was dead more times than not.

Oh on a funnier side of things. A motorcycle came down the road yesterday and Aaron was all Whoa! Iasked him "you want one of those for your birthday?" He quickly answered "please". I just laughed and said maybe when you're older. I wish I had a motorcycle or at least the money to get one.

[one2many]

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Yo SK8,

Sounds like you had a great time with Aaron..

I know what you mean about Sundays, they are depressing wanky days..hate them ever since I was a child...dunno why.

The holistic fair was shite...

[OverIt2007]

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Hey Sk8!

I hear ya, I get the Sunday depression too, not sure why either.

I did go to church this morning (always makes me feel better) and the Pastor was telling a story that was so simple, but yet so true.

It went kinda like this.... It can ALWAYS be WORSE!

When your sitting in your junk car, and the guy drives up next to you in the brand new mercedes, think about the guy who is catching the bus.

When you look at your crappy house, and you wish you had that mansion on the water, think about the guy sleeping under the bridge tonight.

Well, you get the idea. Can always be worse! I definately agree with that.

[one2many]

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LOVE that story Over........thank you.

[sk8punk]

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Well at least I'm not the only one that gets down on sundays. Things could always be worse. But sometimes its hard to imagine how.

[sk8punk]

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Well I didn't really post up much here this weekend. Was kinda busy which I guess is a good thing. Still having my up and down days but like I said before sundays have always been bad for me. When I drank they were one of they days I hit the bottle (or cans) pretty hard. It was also the day I would usually start shit with my GF. Not every week but probably once every 3 or 4 months. Maybe its those ghosts that still haunt me.
Trying to throw out some positive vibes to get some back in my life but I gotta wait for the bad to stop coming in. ah yes Bummer Summer continues...........

[sk8punk]

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Heres a couple from yesterday....the glue that has helped me keep it together.

This one is from When Aaron Attacks..


and a rare one where I don't have a hat on. Its kinda blurry but you look close enough you can see where my nose was broken...but maybe thats just cause I know where to look...

[OverIt2007]

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He looks like YOU in that last picture! Cept for the blondie hair of course.

[sk8punk]

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Its funny how sometimes he looks like me then the next week he looks like mom. His personality is 100% me though. Its like I know what he's thinking just by his facial expression.

[rebirth]

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Hi sk8.
How do you attach pictures? I had a great weekend with my son..birthday party was a success and I had a lovely day at the theme park. I have been battling with the cravings during the evening though. This craving is the longest so far (5 days an counting). It wont seem to go away!! Argghh. Its turning me into a miserable cow! Was thinking of buying alcohol free wine but I know that there is a very small percentage of alcohol content ( 0.1%). Been advised that its not a good thing for someone like me who is an alcoholic.
sigh. whats your opinion on it?

[sk8punk]

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Hey Rebirth, I have a Photobucket account. I upload the photos to there. Then use the link photo button in the reply box. That's how I attach photos. Others might do it diffrently. On the wine. I wouldn't do it cause like you said there is a small amount of alcohol in it. Never had a craving last that long. Wish I had more advice for you on that. Let me think about it on my way to work and get back to you on it.

[sk8punk]

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I can't wake up today. Typical Monday. We were just talking at work about how there is nothing to do around here. No wonder everyone drinks. Its even worse around my parents house. Since I don't have money to blow I tend to wonder around stores people watching. Kinda hoping to meet someone I guess. Even boring things are more fun when your with someone. This lonliness really seems to be a real problem with me. Gonna have to bring it up in counsuling this week.

[rebirth]

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sk8 you mentioned that you wouldnt try internet dating but why dont you give it a go? At least you can go on dates and socialize rather than being alone at home? Others have tried it and had relationships. I wasnt so lucky...infact they were down right disasters. But then again i was drinking then and alot of my mistakes were because of that.

[sk8punk]

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I'm in a weird place. I'm not really looking to date anyone since I'm still hung up on my sons mom. But at the same time I hate being alone. I more or less put my life in fates hands at this point. I could tell you that honestly I wouldn't be putting in 100% if I was to be in a relationship right now. Kind of a hard situation to explain. More like damned if I do damned if I don't .