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[rebirth]

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Hey sk8. Comgratulations on 100 days!! Love the shirt too. Got one for my son the other day. Retro. Says ACDC. It's so cool. Whatever happened to the ramones anyway.
It's always the guys that drink alot that has a problem with sobriety. One of my best friends is appalled that I have quit. She hates the fact that I will see her drunk for the first time ( we are usually drunk together). She got a bit catty with me thae last time we met " God you are boring" she said.
Yeah right, whatever. It doesnt unset me SK8 because what I am doing is an IMMENSE sense of self achievemnet. THats strength! Far from boring.

[mama bear]

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congrats on 100 days sk8...thats awesome...it really is

[sk8punk]

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The Ramones...Johnny Joey and Dee Dee unforunatly died. So the Ramones are no more. I've noticed those with drinking problems are uncofortable with sober people. Maybe it makes them think about their problem. I don't find sobrity boring at all. That's like calling life boring. Alcohol just robs people like us of life. I always say it sucks I had to go through all this to finally realize things. But that's how life works. Sometimes I feel I view life a little better than people who never had a addiction.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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sk8punk;911935 wrote: Alcohol just robs people like us of life. I always say it sucks I had to go through all this to finally realize things. But that's how life works. Sometimes I feel I view life a little better than people who never had a addiction.

I agree SK. Takes some of us wayyyy too long to realise it though. But sure if we get there eventually it is all worth it.
Many congrats on reaching triple figures.

[sk8punk]

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Well it is hard to see through the alcohol fog. There was a time where all my life was was drinking. Didn't seem wrong when I was doing it. That's the trick alcohol plays on you. Once addicted its all that matters. I wouldn't eat so I could get drunk faster. Looking back I see how pathetic I was.

Now life seems so much better and peaceful. Life is only as complicated and hard as you want it to be.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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I think it is because years of drinking stifles emotional and spirtual growth, in some ways we are like selfish children when in its grip. It is all about me me me and of course my next drink and I had better get two bottles just in case. Not more than a passing thought for those around us at that stage.
Looking forward to growing up, so far it feels damn good.

[techie]

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[sk8punk]

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Techie where do find these things?

I agree with the stiffled growth. When I got to a certain point in my sobrity it felt like I woke up from a coma and was where I was before drinking. But I knew everything that had happened while I was out. Strange and hard to put into words. Now I just feel I'm learning something new about myself and the world everyday. Its a bumpy ride but its worth it.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Life is good. Ok some bits are still shit but ask me is it better faced sober or always half cut. Looking forward to learning too.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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This kinda sums it up at the moment:


TWENTY-FOUR BRAND-NEW HOURS

By Thich Nhat Hanh
Every morning, when we wake up, we have twenty-four brand-new hours to live. What a precious gift! We have the capacity to live in a way that these twenty-four hours will bring peace, joy, and happiness to ourselves and others. 
Peace is present right here and now, in ourselves and in everything we do and see. The Question is whether or not we are in touch with it. We don't have to travel far away to enjoy the blue sky. We don't have to leave our city or even our neighborhood to enjoy the eyes of a beautiful child. Even the air we breathe can be a source of joy. 
We can smile, breathe, walk, and eat our meals in a way that allows us to be in touch with the abundance of happiness that is available. We are very good at preparing to live, but not very good at living. We know how to sacrifice ten years for a diploma, and we are willing to work very hard to get a job, a car, a house, and so on. But we have difficulty remembering that we are alive at the present moment, the only moment there is for us to be alive. 
Every breath we take, every step we make, can be filled with peace, joy, and serenity. We need only to be awake, alive in the present moment. ...

[sk8punk]

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That's great KTAB. That's where I'm at now. Really its funny how easy it is to loss perspective on life. Or maybe we're to be busy to notice. The secret to happiness is in all of us. It can't be bought or sold. But its such a simple concept that I think its overlooked. Because us humans think that happiness has to be a complicated matter. Something everyone else has but is unattanable to us. Trust me I felt that way for awhile.

And yes parts of life are still shitty but through sober eyes its nothing I can't handle.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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It is where we least expect to find it. The trick is knowing where to look and what simple pleasures to take joy in. Most people, whether they realise it or not, equate happiness with material wealth, it couldnt be further from the truth.

[sk8punk]

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Yep I didn't want to say anything but most people think the latest car house or beautiful person is what would make them happy. Personally I believe you could have all the money in the world and be unhappy or be just scapping by and be happy. Its all in perspective of life. Right now I don't have any of that but I can honestly say I'm happy and I'm sober. Sure I could be happier but I'll get there one day. What's important to me is how I am today.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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It is a bit like being the loneliest person in the room yet you are in the middle of a crowd. Anyway I have to run, its been nice conversing, look after yourself.

[sk8punk]

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It was nice talkin to you to KTAB. Oddly I know the feeling of being the lonliest person in a crowded room. But that's another thing I do to myself.
Waiting to go into my session and just killin time here. I did think of another time I almost died from drinking so I'll share that later. That brings it up to 3 times now. Yet I kept doing it. Stupid and self destructive. Maybe now that's why I have such a different view of life. Finally a good view. Not all angry and bitter. I feel apart of the world whether it wants me or not. But I guess if the world didn't it would've taken me out one of those three times.