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[Chillgirl]

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Sk8 I just wanted to say congrats on 100 days AF, it wasnt long ago I reached it and although I had stopped counting days 100 anything is a lot dont you think? So well done and heres to continued sobriety

[sk8punk]

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Hey Chillgirl thanks you're right 100 of anything is alot. I don't really count either. I was bored at work and looked at the calender. Kinda curious about how many days passed since 90. Not even sure what comes after that 6 months?

Ok heres the other near death story. Not as bloody as my previous one. I was still in a band at this time too. My then girlfriend was out of town. So yes I went a little wilder drinking then I usually did at that point. I still remember it was Soporro. It was special for $1.25. God know s how many I drank. Well I woke up in the middle of the night to go answers natures call. Where I was living then the bathroom door was right next to the staircase that had a turn in it. I think you can see where this is going. So half asleep and drunk I stagger towards the bathroom or what I thought was the bathroom. I woke up afterr taking the first full step off the the top step. Went crashing down the stairs really cracking my head off the window seal near the bottom before going down the last two stairs into the kitchen. I remember lying there going what the hell with my dog standing over me looking at me like I was a idiot. So what did I do? Went upstairs, pissed and passed out in bed again. Always a great idea after cracking your head into the corner of a window seal. Good thing I didn't have a concusion huh.....Next day I had a huge black n blue egg right near my temple and rug burn.

[sk8punk]

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Ok my talk with KTAB really has me thinking. He's right on about how most people equate happiness with material things and I would add people. In fact advertisers only make that worse with their ads. I haven't turned on a TV for about 60 somedays. I rent movies but I don't watch television. the only news I hear is in the morning on the radio while I get ready for work. The news is always the same in this town. Murder, fire, road closed. big storm. I'm really tring to avoid negativity at this point of my life and thats all the news is. So yes I'm outta touch with the modern pop culture.
Back to what KTAB was saying. Most would agree stars have the best life. They are good looking, their partner is good looking, got several big houses, a job they like to do, cars, boats, planes, and lots of money. Now if they have all that then why are so many of them addicts of some type? Simple they aren't really happy. You can't buy happiness. Its in all of us you just have to figure out how to tap it. Sure things can give you temporary happiness but real happiness comes from you. Those things should only enhance the existing happiness. Not be the sole source of it. Oh you can't find happiness in a bottle either. I'm sure you already knew that though. Now go out and find your happiness cause its a new day and its yours to make it anyway you want.

[wannachange]

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wow SK8 you made it to the big 100!

WELL DONE!

I have not been around much, not intentionally, just other things taking up time in my life right now, I am very happy and very sober, I am just back from a work BBQ which cost a fiver and could eat and drink as much as I wanted, everyone of course ran for the free booze where I was content with cola and fanta orange, I had WAY more fun than anyone else did by the end of the night, people were falling over themselves, embarrassing themselves, my boss saying STUPID things to his boss getting him in trouble, its so stupid to drink, 6 months ago and I would havbe taken advantage of the free booze and not be able to type this now and would have to get a cab home where in this case I calmly and freely drove my own car home.. the freedom is unreal! Oh and I got chatting to a nice bird who doesn't drink either, ahhhh life is good!

See ya over the weekend!

P.S. Haven't been checking back but do you know if K9 has been on recently? I worry a little too much sometimes.

[sk8punk]

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Hey Wanna was wondering where you've been. Good job at the BBQ. I actually find it more fun to watch others get wasted these days. Hard to believe I was like that before. Live and learn. The freedom is awsome too. Really glad to see life is going so good for you!
I think I saw K9 on yesterday. Don't know about today.

[sk8punk]

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Just wanted to share with you all I feel great again today. This feels better than anything I ever got out of a bottle. I'm truly loving being alive. I'm already gettin stoked to see Aaron on Saturday. So all of you out there struggling hang in there it gets better and its worth the struggle!

[sk8punk]

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Happy Friday everyone! Feelin good here. I've really discovered I'm not a morning person at all. Takes me about a hour to completly wake up. Gettin ready to head out the door to get caffine then to work.

[Pride before Fall]

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Good morning, Sk8; have a good one!

[OverIt2007]

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Yes, have a good day Sk8'r. Tommorrow you get to see your boy, that will be awesome!

Congratulations on day 101!!!

[mama bear]

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mornin sk8

[sk8punk]

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Hope you're all doin good today. I really must of rounded a corner cause my whole perspective on life has changed. Each new day is great and as simple as it is once I realized I'm in control of my attitude things got a lot easier for me. For once in my life I feel really free and almost child like in how eager I am to learn. Life is good and I'm glad to be alive.

Yeah Over I was already gettin stoked last night to see my little dude. At least he gets to experience this new me and that's all that really matters.

[OverIt2007]

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YAY!!!! Your right!! That little guy gets a focused and happy Dad is really what matters the most! YAY!! The rest of the cards will fall into place, as they should be. Its just part of the journey.

Seems like alot of people are doing really great! Yay.. US!!!

[sk8punk]

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That's good so many are doing good. The best way I can explain how I feel is the feeling you get when you meet someone new and you really like them. Only I haven't met anyone. Well I guess I did I've finally met me!

[Ringing Cedars]

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Sounding great Sk8r!

[sk8punk]

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Feelin good RC. How are you doin? I wouldn't let what happened this week bug you to much. Remember everyone is never going to see eye to eye. I've learned letting people get to me or push my buttons is just negativity I no longer want in my life. Its best to know when to walk away and let others stew in their negative soup.

Yeah I know where did this positive person come from? I guess it was always there I just chose to see the bad in everything before. Plus I like who I am. If someone doesn't oh well their loss. I don't have time for people like that in my life anyway. I'm happy to see I'm still the same with the same beliefs and ideals just viewing it from a different angel. As I said before I'm not religious but I am spirital. There's a difference. To each their own.