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[OverIt2007]

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You know Sk8.... Everything in life is a Process. We go through our hard times and it takes us time to heal our wounds, and try to learn from the life lessons we go through. I honestly believe that life was not designed to be "easy" for people. Its through the challenges and obstacles and the pain that we go through in life that creates the growth that we need in order to experience the fullness of life.

If life we always easy, then how would we know the true joys of life when we experience them? Im just speaking in general terms, terms that relate to every person on earth, not just you.

Im sure every person has had a time in there life when they thought they could not go on. I've had many moments like that, alot of that due to drinking. Yet, here I am today and somehow I managed to survive that time. Yet here you are today.

You've had made some huge changes in a relatively short amount of time. I have a very strong feeling that the worst is over, and you can continue on this upward climb.

[Pie]

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Hi Sk8,

Hope you enjoy a wonderful Sunday!

Pie

[sk8punk]

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Hey everyone, checking in late today. Woke up feelin good again. So far so good. Got some reading and stuff to do for counsoling. Think I'm also gonna go out and annoy people with my presence so sohould be alright today. I'll check in later.

[one2many]

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Look at the little dude in his Ramones T shirt! He looks so cool! LOVE it!

[sk8punk]

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Yeah the new old school! Kinda sucks his mom cut his hair. He had the perfect Ramones hair going the week before. I gave him the shirt a week early cause really at that age he doesn't get to excited about clothes. But when I showed him yesterday I asked him to you like this shirt? He started going ba ba baba. Like the part from I Wanna Be Sedated. Don't know if thats what it was but it seems to strange to be a coinecidence. He was proud of the shirt too. He was showing everyone. Maybe its cause I gave it to him. Funny how I'm now seeing how much he actually loves me. He thinks I'm the coolest thing ever right now and I'm really stoked on that.
Now lets see if I ever see him in it again.

[one2many]

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sk8punk;914556 wrote: Yeah the new old school! Kinda sucks his mom cut his hair. He had the perfect Ramones hair going the week before. I gave him the shirt a week early cause really at that age he doesn't get to excited about clothes. But when I showed him yesterday I asked him to you like this shirt? He started going ba ba baba. Like the part from I Wanna Be Sedated. Don't know if thats what it was but it seems to strange to be a coinecidence. He was proud of the shirt too. He was showing everyone. Maybe its cause I gave it to him. Funny how I'm now seeing how much he actually loves me. He thinks I'm the coolest thing ever right now and I'm really stoked on that.
Now lets see if I ever see him in it again.

Awwhh thats DEADLY! Cousre he loves ya, ya can't fool kids...

I am pissin meself thinking of him singing I wanna be Sedated!

[one2many]

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Found a deadly site for kids shirts, gonna get my lot a couple of these.

TODDLER 2-6 years | Baby Wit

[sk8punk]

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I'll check that out when I get home. Also love your. Use of the word deadly. I nay have to start using that.

Started reading stuff for counsuling. Realized my self confidence isn't that bad. Its my socialization and interpersonal relationships that suck. Strangely when I get into relationships I never think I'm good emough for the girl. Honestly I don't thhink I'm good enough for any girl. Yet I love myself, who and what I am, know I'm a good person. Some reason girls through me for a loop. This should be interesting to get to the bottom of this. Jeez I feel like a mess sometimes.

[sk8punk]

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All in all today was a good Sunday for me. No down feelings. I do think the worst is over. Still got a lot to learn and sort out but the seas seem to be a bit calmer now. Been reading a book my counsler lent me. I'm enjoying it a noticed I've already been doing a lot of what's in it. So I'm not as bad off as I thought..
Earlier I posted that yesterdayi could tell my son loves me. Some of you may think that's stupid of course your son loves you. That's true. But the important part, for me at least, is I could tell. He didn't say it, I could just tell. For the first time in almost two years with my son I was clear headed, sober, and emotionally in touch wiith myself and the world that I felt it. I dint have to think it or think about it. I wasn't my usual worring about the negative. I do feel that I'm finally getting in touch with myself and the world. I'm starting to feel the positives of life not just the bad. Some of these things I think people may take for granted. Like the warmth of the sun or the feel of the grass or concrete on your skin, the smell of the air or the eratic flight of a butterfly. But now I notice all these things and I take a second to stop and pay attention.
To me my sobrity is a second chance at life.

[sk8punk]

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A few things I've noticed that I do now. Most of which seem to surprise people. When I see a couple or family together I smile at them. Smile for their what I believe to be happiness. When I see small children running and acting goofy or a new born baby I smile at the joy in their faces and what it means to me. I hold doors for people. Offer them the spot in line in front of me cause I'm not in a hurry. Yes these are simple things but things I didn't do before. Some of these are even things that used to drag me down before. But now my view off them has. Yes I know some people think my look is intimidating. It's not really the look but the attitude I had. Thats what I'm changing. For years I was at war with the world. But the war is over. I'm at peace with myself and the world.

[sk8punk]

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Thank you Cheng. I have no idea what the upstairs sayin is. Not even sure what your sellin either.

[girly wirly]

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ooh oney i like that word too. deadly. gonna use that!:thanks::H

sk8 there is nothing better than having your child look at you with love in their eyes xx

[Chillgirl]

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SK8 - I love your new attitude and its hard to imagine the old you now which I guess is a good thing.

All the things you describe are "living in awareness" which I believe is where we are all suposed to be. I had actually already been practising this way of life for a few years before I quit drinking and I believe thats why I have managed it relatively easily because I am so aware of every single feeling & experience I have. The unconsciousness we experience through AL now seems like insanity to me so instead of resentment for not being a "normal drinker" I am so grateful that I had a problem that lead me to quit otherwise I would never have reached this place of clarity.

Thanks for sharing your journey here, its great to read it.

[sk8punk]

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Hey Girly and Chill. Good morning everyone. Feeling good this morning evven though its Monday. Not gonna let that get to me just gonna stay positive.

Living in awareness huh. I'll have to look into that when I get home. I just started thinking like this on my own while doing soul searching.

[one2many]

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Morning to you SK8.

Glad you are feeling positive. Have a great day.