Falling Apart

[sk8punk]

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I'm having one of my "punk" days....hate society for no reason and feel like grabbing my skate and breaking myself off in a million pieces...wonder if non alcoholic people have these days or is it just my deep seated self destructive streak...

[one2many]

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Nothing wrong with a bit of Anarchy Sk lol..

How can I be sure you're not pretender lol.

[sk8punk]

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How can you be sure....lol. You know today is 5 months sober for me...for some reason I always wake up in a shite mood on those days...It probably best I don't have a girlfriend now...I'm in total antisocial mood...just been blasting music all morning...Deep down I feel like saying feck it and get shitfaced...but I know thats the small addict portion of my brain trying to convince me I had everything I wanted when I was a drunk...not gonna work. Just puttin this up here so everyone knows that no matter how much sober time you have the demon comes scratching at the door from time to time.

[mama bear]

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wow...congrats on 5 months SK8!!! That is stupendous!!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks mama...I don't even wanna know what's going on in your avatar..

Yep 150 days sober and I had a very shitty day. Depression hit very hard. I'm such a social retard I've blown every dating opportunity I had. I'm comfortable with being by myself but I hate being alone. Confiding in you guys and girls is great but we no its no substitute for a real person. I did have bad desires to drink today but I didn't. I've been trying and fighting so long now that I'm so tired.
Gonna hit the hay and hope tomorrow is better

[sk8punk]

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The above still holds true today....I've come full circle again...falling apart. I'm alone, miserable, and sober. I give up this time...I don't have any energy to keep fighting...whats the point of changing when the world stays the same. All I have is my son...he's the reason I will remain sober. And I only see him 12 hours a week.

Take care everyone...hope your journeys are better than mine

[mama bear]

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sk*...are you still taking your anti depressants???? we all have blue days baby.....trust me I know
I changed my avatar just to be silly and found this one...it cracked me up....
we are here for you......pm me if u ever want to talk
Jan

[techie]

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sk8punk;955505 wrote: The above still holds true today....I've come full circle again...falling apart. I'm alone, miserable, and sober. I give up this time...I don't have any energy to keep fighting...whats the point of changing when the world stays the same. All I have is my son...he's the reason I will remain sober. And I only see him 12 hours a week.

Take care everyone...hope your journeys are better than mine

Sometimes I can't seem to find that energy either SK, that's when I stick here like glue. The reason for places like AA, MWO, and others are exactly for that reason. So, try and spend more time with us, get involved in some other threads. It may help. Here's to better tomorrows! John

[Ringing Cedars]

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Haha I want to know how he in the avatar is doing that.

Seriously Sk8....hang in there. Make it pass. Find something positive to focus on and don't let go. I think Techie has a good idea in his thread today AND a good idea about posting around a bit more. Spread your wings hun!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks everyone...I'll be fine just having a rough couple of days. Still sober and on my antidepressents. Think I'm just frustrated...I've done all this change for the better and my life is still the same. Guess I'm waiting for the reward lol. No I know it takes time for things to happen and they will. And trust me i'd rather be frustrated than hung over. Maybe things would be different if I didn't march to the beat of my own drummer but I wouldn't be me now would I.

[Lillypond059]

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Hi sk8punk, how are you doing, I had a couple of bad days at the start of this week, posted here, got some good sound advice, help from you too, thanks to that I'm feeling a lot better. You have done so well, over 150 days WOW I'm only on my 25th day. I cant believe I am up so early this morning, heard a cockral when I went outside before, its 5.00 am here just now, Im in Aus
Take Care
Lilly x

[sk8punk]

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In a much better mood than yesterday. Actually started feeling better late yestersay and had my counsoling session. We're trying to figure out why my anniversary dates trigger my frustraion at society.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Sk8!
Hang in there...don't make the same mistake I just made. I don't know if you've read some of the other threads, but I caved on Wednesday night. Kind of felt the same way you've been feeling lately, alone, a little depressed, etc.... Stupidly I gave in to my nagging thoughts I've had lately of drinking. It did nothing for me. NOTHING. I had a glitch, but I'm still in the game. I hope you hang in there too. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!!! :h
K9

[rebirth]

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K9 I sent you a message.
I think we are all feeling down in the dumps this week. I certainly have been. I have been battling my demon every day. Jesus it's exhausting...
But life changes right guys. What comes down must go up.

[rebirth]

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Oh and congrats Sk8 on five months!
What is this anniversary you are talking about?