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[rebirth]

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Hey Over
You never frustrate me cause we all know how hard this addiction is. I am hoping that if I ever slip in the future ( I hope not but can very easily happen) that I will still have the support from everyone here.
You will always have mine no matter what. x
Lets kill this beast!! Grrrrrrrrrr. Karate chop it!

[K9Lover]

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Hi Over! :l
Yes, we do love you just the way you are...we just want the best for you!! You sound like you are doing good, and I am glad! How is your son doing...enjoying school?
If you can do this without Antabuse that is great! I just don't think I can right now. I'm taking it every other day, and next week I will take it every 3rd day. I guess I just need the extra insurance. I wish there was an Antabuse for smoking! Although I am on day 4 AF, and don't plan on ever going back! (Lets keep our fingers crossed )
Hang in there girlfriend...we love you!!! :h:h

OOPS! I put 4 days AF and I meant 4 days NF...

[rebirth]

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K9 I use to smoke a pack a day and it took me ages to quit. I tried the nicotine patches which helped. When I became pregnant ( 7 years ago) I quit for good and then decided not to start again. I use to love to smoke!
Have you tried the patches?

[rebirth]

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I think there are even drugs that help you to quit. I remember someone mentioning a certain drug a while back.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Rebirth!
The funny thing is that I am not at all addicted to them. I have no physical withdrawals at all. Mine is 100% mental...and I only miss them first thing in the morning, and first thing when I get home from work. All I have to do is re-adjust my thinking (which I am working on) and I will be fine. The longest I've gone is 18 days (3 years ago) but this time I have made a promise to myself, my child and my HP that I will NOT smoke ever again...there's nowhere to run and hide from that promise! I'm actually feeling really good about it this time. In fact I stopped at the store this morning to buy some cream for my coffee, and the lady behind me asked for cigarettes, and I had a "superior" moment where I thought "I'm so glad I'm not addicted to anything"...LOL :H

[Chillgirl]

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Guys its a pity SK8 isnt here, its his 6 months AF today......

[K9Lover]

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I'll find him and tell him to get his 6-months-sober-butt on here!

[mama bear]

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hey guys...started aunty on tuesday and no issues whatsoever...just my stupid brain saying, darn I would love a cold beer.....but it passes
yes OI...we love and accept you just the way you are

[OverIt2007]

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You Guys are the Best Just catching up on yesterdays posts. Your posts to me made me smile! Thank you. Of course I accept you all just the way you are too!! Thats a NO brainer. I just wish I wasnt so damn stubborn sometimes. I dabble with the drinking, get sober... dabble... get sober... Well today is a new day, and I am working tonight.. so no dabbling for me today!

K-9, my son is doing great in school, thanks for asking. Now we just have to work on his attitute a bit! At 6 years old he thinks he is the man of the house, and can boss Mom around. Well, I suppose he IS man of the house in some ways. How is your daughter doing?

How are you doing Rebirth, Mama?? Rebirth, I admire you in so many ways. Your a strong woman even if you dont think so. To have achieved what you have is no small thing! Its really huge! And like I said before, how you all have done this drug free is amazing to me. You have tapped deep into some inner strength and I envy you. In a good way of course. Im thrilled at your success! Keep is going girl.

Mama... you liking the Antabuse??? And Sk8'er. Hope to see you pop back up on. Hope you dont mind us ladies using your thread a bit in your absense. You know we all care about you and hope you and Aaron are doing great!

[sk8punk]

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I don't mind at all. I haven't forgotten about any of you. Just been taking advantage of the good weather before winter sets in here. Things here are going really good. I spent my 6 month anniversary at a job interview for a really cool job. Hanging out with a girl I've been seeing for almost a month now. She to is a alcoholic with 5 years sober. And skating. Right now I'm doing laundry since I have Aaron tomorrrow. His mom wanted to take him to see his cousins today. No me and his mom are not speaking yet. In fact I got the rest of my stuff out of the house a few weeks ago and she wouldn't even look at me. Oh well. I really feel my life has turned around and I'm finally starting to see some good things happen in my life. It takes awhile for the positive energy I put out to start to return. Well I'm gonna finish my laundry and go skate again. I'll really try to pop in once I day here. Think about all of ya.

[OverIt2007]

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Yay!!! Good to hear from you Sk8!

You know these girls go crazy when they dont hear from you, LOL.

Im glad to hear things are doing good for you! Yes, the weather is heavenly so time to take full advantage of that. You have a new friend to hang out with, awesome. Sounds like shes a kind of person who can be really understanding since shes had her own struggles to deal with. I hope you have a fulfilling friendship together.

I understand about not being able to spend tons of time here. We get busy with life, but its good for the soul to pop in when time allows.

Be well!! OH... CONGRATULATIONS ON 6 MONTHS ALCOHOL FREE!!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!

[mama bear]

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yeah SK8..you do rock!!!

[Ringing Cedars]

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Good to see you Sk8'r and way to go on 6 months!!!

[sk8punk]

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Just read back a few pages...its basically a mystery to me how I just stopped one day. Much like Rebirth I hit rock bottom. Lost everything. I hate alcohol. I think this hate is what keeps me sober. And as Doggygirl said I did a lot of self discovery and growing. That alone helped a lot to keep alcohol away. I now can deal with things sober. Things I would have been using as excuses to drink in the past. If you can face and come to terms with your own demons sober. There is nothing the world can throw at you that can't be dealt with.

[ClaraBelle]

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Anxiety vs The Bottle - The final Battle

I suffer from anxiety which manifest itself in a very embarrassing hyper hidrosis - for those who are not familiar with this - excessive sweating. I mean it looks like I just got out of the shower, when I get upset.

This was triggered by my daughter`s birth - no reason for it, just happened - it ruined my life. I gained weight, lost interest in life and self medicated with alcohol.

I now take topamax - and have not had a drink in 8 days.

But it is not magic pill ....

I am angry, and all those suppressed emotions are boiling over - will this pass ?

Do I need anti depressants etc ? Already taking meds for anxiety ?