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Hi Clara,
I cant advise you on Topamax. I think there is a thread for this type of drug. To tell the truth I dont think there is any magic pill. Sigh. I wish there was. I was initially a very angry person when I first started out but I am alot more balanced now. It will take time Clara but its worth. It wont be an easy ride but not drinking will certainly bring more clarity and energy into your life. Wish you all the best.

Hi SK8 , Over, K9 and Mama. x

Good to hear from you again Sk8. I had a feeling you were out skating.

[techie]

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ClaraBelle;979107 wrote: I suffer from anxiety which manifest itself in a very embarrassing hyper hidrosis - for those who are not familiar with this - excessive sweating. I mean it looks like I just got out of the shower, when I get upset.

This was triggered by my daughter`s birth - no reason for it, just happened - it ruined my life. I gained weight, lost interest in life and self medicated with alcohol.

I now take topamax - and have not had a drink in 8 days.

But it is not magic pill ....

I am angry, and all those suppressed emotions are boiling over - will this pass ?

Do I need anti depressants etc ? Already taking meds for anxiety ?

Hi Clara the Topamax does make some people depressed. Perhaps better expressed it exacerbates existing depression. So yes, you may want to investigate an AD that will treat both your anxiety and depression!

[sk8punk]

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Hey everyone! Just checkin in to see how everyone is doing. Things here are going good. Still having up and down days but I've just accepted that as normal. Been having a unusually nice fall here so I've been taking advantage of that and skating as much as possible. Been seeing a girl for a little over a month now and I'm on my way to getting that new job. So things have finally seemed to turned around for the better. Hope all is well with everyone here!

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sk8 fabulous news! Whol is this girl? Is she the one you were dating before? I am really really happy for you! Stay in touch okay?

[papmom3]

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Awww Skater! It's so good to hear you are doing so well!! Belated congrats on your 6 months of Sobriety!! Your new young lady sounds fabulous and I hope this new job is everything you want and need: challenge, fulfillment and money!! You deserve it all!! Give Aaron a hug from me and the doggies and keep on skatin'!!
Can you believe how far you've come in 6 short short months???:goodjob:

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Give Aaron a hug for me too.

[K9Lover]

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Sk8er! Glad you're doing well my friend :h
Thanks for checking in...your fan club was missing you!

[sk8punk]

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Hey everyone! Checkin in again. Nearing the 7 month sober mark. I start my new job November 8th and I'm pretty stoked about that. Working with my hands and it pays really well. Having an unusually warm fall here so I've still been skating as much as possible. Sober life is going really good. I'd say I'm having mostly good days. Still have the occasional bad day. Those usually revolve around missing Aaron and or feeling guilty about not being there for him all the time. I know thats stupid but I'm dealin with it and not getting down. Hope everyone here is doing good. Until next time...

[K9Lover]

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Hi Skatey! Glad you checked in. Wow...7 months!!! You will be rolling up on a year before you know it...amazing! I'm so happy that you have a new job coming up that you are really going to like. So...I'm going to be nosy. What happened with that girl you were talking to?

I know it's hard missing Aaron, but hang in there and do the best you can. Keep in touch with us...we miss you around here!

:h K9

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Hi Sk8. Good to hear from you. Good to hear you are still living life sober. x

[sk8punk]

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Hey K9 and Rebirth! I know I can't believe its going on 7 months myself. Time flies looking back at it. I've changed a lot in that short time. I still have to work on being positive everyday but its worthh it to me. I can't ever let myself fall into that negative trap again. I'm still talking and hanging out with the girl I met. I'm just taking everything in my life a day at a time. I've found it way easier to live that way. So how are you girls doing?

[K9Lover]

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I like your attitude Sk8! I'm doing really good, I'm just really happy right now Like you, I'm taking it one day at a time. Still trying to give up those ciggies, so that's one minute at a time! Good luck with your new job and your new "friend"....keep us posted on how everything works out!
K9

p.s. Give Aaron a hug from all his "aunties" that he's never met :H

[sk8punk]

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I will....I'm looking forward to this job. Oh and I get Aaron on Sunday this week which is halloween and trick r treatin...so I'm really excited about that! As for any girls in my life my fan club here is really it. I'm not ready to get into any relationship...my life is still in too much transition...but when I meet the right one I will know.

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Hi Sk8 and K9
I drank yesterday!!! Dont know what to say except that I knew what I was doing. I guess I had something to prove but I am not sure what? Sounds crazy but thats how my head has been the past month.
I just feel very lucky that I only drank enough to make me feel sleepy. I feel luckier that I dont have a desire to drink today. I was shit scared that that was it for me..that I was going to disappear and reappear on this site next year.

I dont know... It'something I had to do I guess. I definitely prefere living life sober but I admit I do miss the odd drink. But I cant go there so it's back to day one.

But glad to hear that you are both doing good!

[OverIt2007]

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You OK Rebirth???

It doesnt sound like you went off the deep end or anything, which is great. Not great that you drank, but you do sound ok in your post. How you doing today????

I was in a funk pretty much all of October. Something I couldnt seem to shake, but I feel like I am coming out of it now. Are you in a funk too? Sometimes it happens.

Hope to see your pretty smiling face posting soon!!!

:l