Day 2

[NewOne]

Day 2

well, you didn't get falling down drunk so why beat yourself up? My god man...you ALMOST made it. You got pretty close.

Now tomorrow, pick up some B vitamins that has a good dose of niacin in them & start taking that. It will take a few days, but keep taking them. Every week, you'll feel a little better. (hopefully, as it seems to be my majick formula)

Next time, order the pizza & have them deliver...lol

I have forgiven you already (I'm easy)...so forgive yourself.

LookingAhead;860786 wrote: I did pick up the keys. My son wanted pizza so I went and got it for him. But was the perfect excuse to pick up some AL. I got the four pack so I wouldn't drink as much. I drank 3 but threw the other away. I don't know if that is failure, but I feel so mad at myself. I threw the 3 empty bottles....and one full in the dumpster. I don't know how this quiting thing works. It is much less than I normally drink, I took a Benadryl and hope I will go to sleep soon.....before I want more. I didn't make 48 hours. Why can't I do that? I am not falling over drunk, but I still had alcohol. How do I do this? I see all your posts and think I can do the same. But I didn't! I want to do this so bad! so why don't I? I feel bad that everyone was so nice to respond, and I still didn't do even 2 days without. How do I change? What makes you get through night number 2?

[LookingAhead]

Day 2

I didn't make it to day 3. But I won't give up. I made it till around 8pm last night, then just couldn't make it further.....yes I could have!! But I CHOSE not to. I didn't drink nearly as much, then threw the rest out. I hope that is progress. So I am starting over today at day one. A little discouraging, but I am going to do this. Thanks NewOne for talking with me last night. And thanks to the WF and PA in the chatroom. My plan for tonight is to get anything I need for tonight so I will have no excuse to go get my keys. I am packing my clothes and going straight to the gym after work. I am going to get vit B and start it this morning. I am going to think positive thoughts today. I am not going to dwell on last night.

Here is a favorite quote of mine from a book I read,

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities have crept in. Forget them as soon as you can. Today is a new day. You shall begin it with serenity and growing respect for yourself"

[K9Lover]

Day 2

Hi LookingAhead!
It's good that you have a plan for tonight (the gym). I found that in my first week of being alcohol free I had to have something planned for every single night that didn't (couldn't) involve alcohol, like going to the movies, hanging around the library, staying at the dog park until sundown, etc. I also found that I was going to bed very early the first week, not necessarily sleeping at first, but anything to not drink. I don't know what your interests are, but I have found that reading really keeps my mind from wandering to alcohol, and I have used my extra free time to pamper myself in the evenings. It's not easy at first, but it CAN be done, and it DOES get easier once you get past the first 3-4 nights. Let us know how you are doing, we are here to offer support and encouragement!
xoxo
K9

[NewOne]

Day 2

Hey, get this...last night I was watching an addict show about this little dude that made it thru his cravings by saying.."not right now". He held firm to that. Pretty cool for a kid, huh?

Have you ever heard of Ho'opon'opono? It's kind of like healing thru forgiveness.

The short version for a drunk is like this...say for instance you wake up, feeling like crap & remembering the silly crap you did (that nobody really holds against you but yourself)...so you kind of just allow all of these nasty painful emotions & memories come up and to each one you say..."I'm sorry, please forgive me, I love you"....

Usually drinkers try to avoid these feelings at all costs, they push them down, lock them down, distract themselves...then they just fester & grow.

LookingAhead;860933 wrote: I didn't make it to day 3. But I won't give up. I made it till around 8pm last night, then just couldn't make it further.....yes I could have!! But I CHOSE not to. I didn't drink nearly as much, then threw the rest out. I hope that is progress. So I am starting over today at day one. A little discouraging, but I am going to do this. Thanks NewOne for talking with me last night. And thanks to the WF and PA in the chatroom. My plan for tonight is to get anything I need for tonight so I will have no excuse to go get my keys. I am packing my clothes and going straight to the gym after work. I am going to get vit B and start it this morning. I am going to think positive thoughts today. I am not going to dwell on last night.

Here is a favorite quote of mine from a book I read,

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities have crept in. Forget them as soon as you can. Today is a new day. You shall begin it with serenity and growing respect for yourself"

[spuddleduck]

Day 2

lookingahead, i love your attitude. you really are looking ahead. its great that you are aware of things coming up that may tempt you to go out and get some booze. just get through these cravings... one minute at a time if thats what you need. if you can get through a few days it should get easier. it really is worth it. you are looking in the right directon, now just go for it

[LookingAhead]

Day 2

Thanks K, spuddleduck and NW. It is funny...I got myself busy making my home look better with my son. We hung pictures that have been hanging around for A LONG TIME. I didn't even think about drinking. I guess I just need to change my routine, if I change the fact that I come home and drink immediately, things go smother. You guys rock for support. No AL tonight, too tired from working so hard, but wow my house looks great! I love it!! And I love that my son saw me productive and not drunk....he has waited long enough. Now for day 2 AGAIN! Hope all is well with you all!

[NewOne]

Day 2

yay you! You did it!

Keep lining up projects for you & your son to do together. Go to a movie, take a bike ride, fix dinner together, do yard work, go to a book store,...the possibilities are endless.

LookingAhead;861460 wrote: Thanks K, spuddleduck and NW. It is funny...I got myself busy making my home look better with my son. We hung pictures that have been hanging around for A LONG TIME. I didn't even think about drinking. I guess I just need to change my routine, if I change the fact that I come home and drink immediately, things go smother. You guys rock for support. No AL tonight, too tired from working so hard, but wow my house looks great! I love it!! And I love that my son saw me productive and not drunk....he has waited long enough. Now for day 2 AGAIN! Hope all is well with you all!

[Farm Girl]

Day 2

Looking Ahead - great job on finding other things to do and not think about AL. That's the tough part - just stay busy and you will feel really good about yourself in time. I went thru the same thing, over and over and it takes some time to settle down and get used to evenings without AL. You will do it - I know it! Stay strong and we are here for you!

[daybyday]

Day 2

:goodjob:Looking Ahead, hang in there. It took me about 3 weeks to get my sleep back to normal. My drinking pattern was exact to you. One bottle wine, two bottle wine.....everynight for years.
For me to distract mself and not wear a hole in the floor pacing I rented ton's of old release movies and used the 2 or 3 hours I usually would drink myself into oblivion watching old movies. Funny looking back, my recovery time took up more of my life than my drinking time. I drank to get drunk so I drank fast and furious.....but my hangovers could last for 2 days.
Take good care of yourself right now, keep posting and lots of support here for you. :l

[LookingAhead]

Day 2

I haven't been able to get past day 2. I wonder if I can do this. I am feeling very discouragaed. I look at all your posts. To start with, they made me feel like I can do it like you did. But now, I read them and feel like such a failure. I am an alcoholic. They say the first step is admitting it, but how do I stop. I hate that anything has such control over me.

[LookingAhead]

Day 2

I'm sorry, that post is such a pity party. I really appreciate and respect everyone here. Just feeling really down and really pissed at myself today. I will keep going and will keep trying.

[NewOne]

Day 2

Well, I drank a six pack last night, so I guess we both suck. But it doesn't matter. What matters is to keep going forward, somehow some way.

I'm still with ya though... flailing...but with you.

I seemed to have turned a corner. I am out of the constant telling myself that I'm a piece of crap & that life sucks. That does nothing for my self esteem nor my outlook.

It is what it is, we just have to deal & do what we can.

[Road to Recovery]

Day 2

Looking,
Baclofen changed my life, u should really consider it. I have 3 months AF and I dint struggle at all.