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[wannachange]

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@ BH, RC - you are right you know, but coming here while sober is much better, speaking from experience.
Back at day 1 today and will remember last night as the worst in my life, if it does that to me, if AL does that to me then its certainly time to nip the bud for good, I will be coming here for help and support as this will be my lifeline now. I would like to forget everything, but that's impossible, but I am back on the wagon and intend to stay that way.
Thanks for the message BH, much appreciated and will certainly remember the geese

[hippie37]

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Morning Blue.

First and foremost do not trivialize or discredit your problems with alcohol due to comparing yourself with others here on the forum. Look for similarities rather than the differences. I was told very early on that if alcohol is costing you more than just money then you need to do something about it.

I went through many phases of drinking in my career but the last few years were mainly spent in isolation drinking alone. My drinking career spanned over 20 years and lead me into using all kinds of substances to change the way I felt.

Honesty is ALWAYS the best policy and if you can't be honest with yourself, who can you be honest with? Reading the posts and lurking is all very well and good but if no one can 'see' you and understand where you're coming from, no one can help you.

My advice would be to get stuck in and just let it all out. I'm very drawn to people's honesty however that comes out. When people sit there and just tell you "I'm FINE!" with a big plastic smile on their face, arms crossed etc. it kind of says a lot don't you think? I'd rather them be shouting and screaming or crying their eyes out than sitting there with a grin on their faces looking at me like I'm an idiot!!

It'll come with time Blue. Great to see you're taking the first steps towards a better life.

Many Blessings
Phil

[Guest]

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On this thread I'll explain a couple of things. First off I was a Cop until my 40's. I had a wife and kids and a mortgage...the full catastrophe. One day I was called to one crime scene too many and decided to change my life. I came to Australia, everything, including dog and cat. I have never regretted it. I always drank too much but I was tough and could handle it. When I came here I bought a small business. Did a lot of driving out in the heat. Although I drank plenty of water and soft drinks I couldn't pee until I'd downed a 6 pack before dinner. I have continued to drink at the same rate I always did but now it's time to change. I am a very hard-hearted man...you need to be when you've been a Cop. I know a fair bit about the troubles booze can cause. If there's anything I can do here to help, I will.

[Hippy Chick]

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Hey Bluey. Glad to see you are sticking around. Like everyone says, it is good to read but I find it very cathartic when i actually do open up and speak (Hey Hippy37, I think you were talking about me - I am always FINE! yeah right. that's why I need AL to talk).
Anyway stick around, plenty of help here.
HC
(PS I got married on Noosa beach five years ago... beautiful place)

[mollyka]

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Hipc, is that you and a monkey?

[Hippy Chick]

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Molly. It is a gorilla or as i like to tell people, it is my wedding photo! LOL