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[1Susan]

I came across this website today after driving drunk over to my sister's house last night. I do not drink every night, but when I do drink, I always get completely wasted and pass out. I hate asking the people I was with "what happened last night" It is so embarrassing! Alcoholism runs heavy through my family. My dad has struggled with this my whole life. I seperated from my boyfriend of 6 years this past May. We drank alot (almost every night) and it runied our relationship! We own a house together that we are currently remodeling, so on top of seperating, we are also trying to work on finishing the house so we can sell it. I think I have a bad habit of holding everything inside and dealing with things myself. I do not know why because I have 2 sisters and 1 brother that are very supportive and understanding. They are helping me open up and lean on them when I need to. Most of the time I drink alone and at home. Although unfortuntely, I do manage to make public drunk jack ass appearances to. I have not ordered the book or supplements yet. I am wondering how people are liking them. I like many of you wake up with a hang over mad at myself and swear I am done drinking, but most of the time drink that night. It is my goal to be able to have a few drinks in social situations without getting wasted.

[grevillea]

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1Susan, I am another Susan! Hang in there. I read the book, I found it when I was looking on Amazon for some book or something to help me (so came to this terrific site in a roundabout way). I got it, and it was a revelation. True. I had hope. I've ordered the supps and one CD (all too exp.). I really think that there's an end to this now...See a Dr tomorrow, not my usual one, but can't wait till next year. I'm hoping for a topamax prescription. Download the book, or get hold of it somehow, read it and have a think. Read the posts too, there's so much support & info out there. We're here for you 1Susan.

[WaitingToExhale]

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Hi Susan,

This will be Day Five for me in trying to moderate. So far pretty good ...

I downloaded to book and have gotten through only about 1/3 of it so far ..

Ordered the Supps and CDs but have yet to reccieve them ...

So I am going credit my "baby steps" on this forum and the people here! Amazing support.

Coming here a couple of times a day keeps me focused on my goals for the day. I am a daily drinker, still am ... you know the "buzz all day type" .... but I am drinking FAR less than before.

Besides the encouragement, this is an amazing place for information and other's stories you can realate to .. and others successes And a place to be honest about the stuff you care to cahnge ...

Stick around and post and read and post andthen read more ... it really does you aware. Hope to see you around!

WaitingToExhale

[losethebooze]

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Today's A Little Better

Hi all,
I posted yesterday when I found this site, I was freaking out. But because I am new (I hope that's why!) I can't find the thread from yesterday so I am just going to start over. Seems like i am good at that. 1Susan, I had to totally laugh because I related to you!!!! The drinking alone at night is a dead ringer for me as well as the "occasional drunken jack ass public appearance." That's one hell of a way to put it. Sh***y that things like that have to happen to us before we start taking a good look at ourselves and try to get a handle. I have been struggling very seriously for probably the last 3 years and spend a lot of time alone at night because, dang it, I can't be parted with my bottle. The occassional drunk phone conversation with my on and off boyfriend of 7 years often ends up with me not remembering what we talked about and him calling me inthe morning asking me if I was drunk or something. Yeah, I hide it from him as mush as possible, but how much can you hide drunk when you are just butt faced. He doesn't drink with me so the nights that I'm going to see him, I know that I can stay sober. In fact, last night was the first time in a long time that I didn't have anything to drink. I slept better, my eyes are clear, but I dreamt about the dreaded Capt. Morgan believe it or not. I am just going to try to get through today without turning to my favorite crutch. It's ruining my personal life. It's already ruined my figure. I have tried to reach out for counseling, but it's just so damn embarrassing. Well, I'll check back during the day. I am grateful to have found this site and know that I can speak candidly without being judged because so many of you know exactly how I feel. :new:

[celia ray]

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just starting out

Hi ,I'm from England and have had a problem with alcohol for at least two years .Its got much worse recently.I'm off work at the moment with stress but its really the alcohol.
i've starting wanting a drink in the mornings.My kids now know I have a problem and I'm so ashamed and guilty.Is it possible for me to get better?I'm reluctant to go to AA meetings as I'm scared of meeting someone I know.I need help.Celia ray I'm not drinking today

[Lorelei]

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Welcome both of you. I just joined yesterday but have spent alot of time reading posts and learning that I'm not alone. I too would like to be a moderate drinker.

It takes courage to come here, but once you get here everyone is so supportive and great.

Good luck to both of you!

-Lorelei

[Breez]

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Hi & Welcome!

Start of by getting the book. Everyone here has tweaked the program by going either the supps route/meds route/cds or all ~followed by reading & posting here. What you get is what you put in. 126 AF days for me. Glad you found us.

[WilliamTheFree]

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Welcome to both of you...I've been lurking and posting on and off on this site for a little over a year. From what I've seen it IS possible to get better and to get control. I'm working on that myself right now. If you haven't read the book get it and read it...visit this community often and read the posts and post when you have questions...there are a lot of friendly folks here who can relate and are willing to assist in any way they can.

[betty boop]

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Hi & :welcome:

Celia, I was like you, suffering with stress and thinking that having a drink would take it away, but it doesn't ......

This place really really can help, all the best xx

[toughintexas]

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Just started yesterday too...

:new:
I feel your pain, and its so great to be here on this site! The support I've felt in just the past 24hrs. has been great! I too, just want to drink socially like I used to. I'm going to start today, and only have 2 glasses of wine, I think I can do that much! I HATE THAT WHAT DID I DO, SAY, HURT, ETC....It's so nuts, and embarrasing, and makes you feel like such a idiot, loser, dumbass, weak, whatever.....and when you feel that way, then your self-esteem is always worse...vicious cycle! I'm going to read the book as much as I can tonight, go to the Y and exercise, and just try to have 2 glasses tonight. I haven't gotten my other supp's or CD's yet, hoping soon...will keep the Kudzu and the baclofen up today and tonight! Hang in there, we will all help each other, and its great, cuz we've all "been there, done that, and barfed on the t-shirt"!!!

[Released]

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Hi! I can totally relate to your post. I would always drink to relieve the stress but then I would do or say something, while loaded, that would put the topping on my plate already full of stress. I finally realize that it is not helping at all, pretty stupid that it has taken me 25 years to realize that I, mixed with alcohol, make most of the problems in my life.

I ordered the book, still waiting for it. I just read "Drinking, A love Story by Caroline Knapp" and it really opened my eyes.

Welcome, we can all do this!

[raoul]

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Hi, It seems like this thread has thrown up (pardon the expression) a few new members and I just want to say "Welcome!":welcome:

I've been here almost two weeks and the site, and especially the people who use it, have given me wonderful support, advice and friendship. Already it has done wonders for my initial goal of achieving 30 days AF (11 now).

Look forward to seeing you around the boards

Raoul

[morrison]

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Welcome

:welcome: Just take advice from the "pros" on here, and you'll do all right. It's a fantastic place. It all starts with education, and you can get your Masters on here. So many teachers with so many degrees in the "How to stop drinking" genre. I learned a lot, and I'm doing great. :goodjob: on the first step.

[SqueakyClean]

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Just Found MWO...

Hello

:new:

I just found this site today and feel at home right away! I have been a binge drinker for 20 years, but recently I have noticed that the binges have got closer so that there isn't even a hangover/recovery day inbetween. By binge I mean one bottle of wine, usually two and occasionally a third. One or two embarrasing incidents recently have frightened me into doing something about my drinking before it's too late. My children need their Mummy back and not the cranky zombie I am becoming.
So here I am. Last week I abstained Mon-Fri then had the usual blow out at the weekend. This week I am on track and hope to avoid the madness at the weekend. Not setting myself any real targets (so I can't fail!) except to minimise damage to myself.

Tomorrow is my 5th consecutive no-booze day and I'm feeling fab, but tired, tired, tired. Not used to sleeping naturally I guess.

Thanks for listening
Squeaky

[sri]

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Wow -- welcome to all of you who are NEW -- a whole bunch! Do use the tools -- the meds, supps, CDs, website, exercise -- it all does help. Your stories are all too familiar to those of us who've been there too -- I didn't think I could make it two days without a drink (or a couple of bottles of wine each day) three months ago -- and I've been mostly AF since starting. Take it a day at a time and keep checking in. We can do this!