Angry and depressed
Hi Katie, haven't been on here for a few days but read your post right away as you've always been there for me from day one. For 9 years I worked out of my house as a single mom too. Very lonely and painful at times. I too had no support near by and it made me move closer to my family recently. I can feel for your pain the past while and loneliness.
I am in the process of getting out of a volitile relationship right now as I struggle to stay AF. 4 years of being called a "c", having just about everything I owned broken or destroyed, having lighter fluid thrown at me and threatened to be lit.....there is no limit to the humiliation I have known. This person should be in jail but knows because I am so ashamed that I would never tell anyone. I have a great career, children, home and immediate family. I guess the typical situation of secret shame.
I don't care why he did all the things he did to me. He will never have the joy of seeing me angry or upset again in his life. It is exactly what he loves. I refuse to be the victim either. Staying AF is the reason I can finally get out of this 4 year nightmare.
These people for some reason come into our path in life. I know from experience that everything that has happend to me up til now has made sense one day and this will too. If we don't let it consume us with anger we can grow stronger from it. No one can take our spirit unless we give it away. Again, god only gives us what we can handle. Some of us get a lot but I think it's because one day we will really need that strength and these times will have prepared us.
I am in your corner today and always, be strong :l
Hi Katie, haven't been on here for a few days but read your post right away as you've always been there for me from day one. For 9 years I worked out of my house as a single mom too. Very lonely and painful at times. I too had no support near by and it made me move closer to my family recently. I can feel for your pain the past while and loneliness.
I am in the process of getting out of a volitile relationship right now as I struggle to stay AF. 4 years of being called a "c", having just about everything I owned broken or destroyed, having lighter fluid thrown at me and threatened to be lit.....there is no limit to the humiliation I have known. This person should be in jail but knows because I am so ashamed that I would never tell anyone. I have a great career, children, home and immediate family. I guess the typical situation of secret shame.
I don't care why he did all the things he did to me. He will never have the joy of seeing me angry or upset again in his life. It is exactly what he loves. I refuse to be the victim either. Staying AF is the reason I can finally get out of this 4 year nightmare.
These people for some reason come into our path in life. I know from experience that everything that has happend to me up til now has made sense one day and this will too. If we don't let it consume us with anger we can grow stronger from it. No one can take our spirit unless we give it away. Again, god only gives us what we can handle. Some of us get a lot but I think it's because one day we will really need that strength and these times will have prepared us.
I am in your corner today and always, be strong :l
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