starting out again for the millionth time

[prancy]

starting out again for the millionth time

anon,
as they say, just pick yourself back up....and try again.
You didn't lose the 8 AF days. They are still there as a reminder of how you CAN feel without the headache, remorse and guilt. I used to do that - drink after everyone had gone home. Then everyone would reconnect and say how they had gone running, or hiking or whatever, and I have to remind myself constantly that they don't have the problem that I do. Good luck with Day 1! It can still be a great AF day!
prancy

[anon]

starting out again for the millionth time

Prancy-- Thank you stops me feeling as though it is just me that does those self destructive behaviours-- Sorry abot the spelling I am English.Off running tommorrow so have to behave today.

[gertrude mcfuzz]

starting out again for the millionth time

Hi Anon - my battle is won as far as I am on Day 10 today, but I'm not taking it for granted. There is a very fine line to cross and it could be me back on Day 1. But am thankful if today that line doesn't get crossed. From reading from yourself and other threads, the truth to me is that I never drink for one drink. One wine is not what I want, its 2 bottles. (It is the depression and remorse the next day that kills me).

Anyway on a more positive note, hope your run went well. I was thinking of you on the treadmill today. Today I did 4 lots of 2 mins and 2 lots of 3.30 mins running in between my walking. I realise that probably makes no sense at all??!! But by the end of this week I am going to see how long I can run for without having to stop. Today was the first time I got in to a zone with running, felt great, but didn't last...

Have a great day

[anon]

starting out again for the millionth time

Well done Gertrude on reaching double figures. I completely understand your running regime. Running has been my salvation throughout the last 10 years
I started the fight again last night dreadful cravings poured myself a drink drank it but managed to resist the urge to carry on, it was so hard.
So today I am going to plan like I did last week as that worked so well.

[mollyka]

starting out again for the millionth time

thats the attitude Anon, get your Day 1 under your belt and you'll feel grand again tomorrow, every day sober is a VICTORY!!!
Well done Gertrude you sure are well on the way!
Prancy well done on the event yesterday - it is hard when partners are drinking and the way you described how the 'thought' flashed thro your head is so true, that's what makes it so dangerous, it just comes in from nowhere and if we're not prepared at all times, thats when disaster can hit!
Have a lovely sober day all
Molly

[alicia in trouble]

starting out again for the millionth time

Well guys. it is back to day 1 for me too. Nearly two bottles of red on Friday night. Funny thing is I felt fine all day Saturday, did a lot of gardening and thinking and had a couple of g&t's at the end of it.

A bottle of white last night and it seems I am right back where I started. I can do fine during the week, but weekends are a killer for me. I need to change the way I think and be more determined to break that old Friday to Sunday habit. I feel really bad as last week right up to Thursday I was so positive I could do it. Turns out I couldn't.

[prancy]

starting out again for the millionth time

The weekends really are difficult because that's when everyone is joining in the drinking. This whole week and the following weekend are going to be so hard as we have event after event and one of them is a serious drinking event and I will be the only one not drinking. I try to just get along but it does tend to make you feel a bit isolated. Just had a talk with my husband about how when he "leads the charge" about drinking, it makes it so much harder for me. And he definitely wants me to quit. He got quite defensive and said that after all, he doesn't drink when it is just the two of us. I don't know where he got that! He doesn't drink much at home with just the two of us but when we got out, he definitely drinks. But so far I have survived through 2 family drinking events - a graduation and a birthday! And I am on Day 20 so I am doing my best. Feels to good to wake up without a hangover and remorse. But I will acknowledge that it is very hard! Good luck to all. Stay strong. As someone already said, every sober day is another sober day! And that is something!