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[Mstall]

I had 4 months alcohol free last Fall and then fell off the wagon during the holidays.

Since February i've only been drinking on Fridays (for the most part), thinking that by moderating that way i was at least making progress. But I'm tired of losing Friday night and most of Saturday (recovering) of each week.

I've come to realize that I used to think I was missing out by not drinking when in reality, I'm missing out on life but even allowing myself the one night a week. Half a weekend either totally drunk or recovering from it is stealing time, energy and self worth.

I am an alcoholic, I cannot have one or two drinks ever. It only takes one drink to start the whole ball rolling. I am ready to commit myself to getting help here, in AA, and whatever else it takes to remain sober.

Thanks for listening, I look forward to being part of this great place again.

Mstall
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[JackieClaire]

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Hi Mstall,
Welcome back. I wondered what you had been up to. So very sorry the moderation thing didn't work for you. I tried many many times down that road and also failed many many times.
I'm so pleased to see you.

J x
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[Meech]

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Mstall,

I'm the same. One's too many and 100 is not enough (or 6-7 beers for me anyway = hangover and wasted next day).

I have been telling myself lately that although it's hard to fight off the first drink, the 2nd, 3rd, 4th is even harder because you have already started and have the initial buzz emerging.

Fight off the first one. Moderation is not an option for me. I am 28AF today and I know if I give in after this much sober time, I will DEFINITELY BINGE. No question.

I have a feeling you are going to have a wonderful fullfilling AF life. We miss out when we drink not the other way around.
Meech

[Guest]

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Welcome and yes, so many do find modding is just not an option. I was more or less a binge drinker although some of those binges would last weeks sometimes, but I found even if they only lasted 24 hours they would still affect you for the majority of the week ahead. So just not worth it.

I'm sure you will find your own way here.

[techie]

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Mstall Welcome back and I hope you achieve your goal. i too tried to moderate, but soon realized that I cannot drink alcohol without abusing it. So I'm here round two for me, 17 days AF and going strong thus far. Best of luck...john

[Doggygirl]

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Welcome back Mstall. I too really struggled after a short stint of AF when this journey first started. It wasn't until I totally, 100% accepted that I just cannot drink safely, ever, that this started to get easier. Sounds like you have taken a very important step in a good direction.

DG

[sk8punk]

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Welcome back. Like Doggygirl I've accepted that I can't have even one drink. It's no longer an option. That has made things alot easier. I don't even think about drinking anymore.
I agree drinking only makes you miss out on life.

[dancelot]

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Welcome back Mstall, glad to see you back. I think once we accept 100% we cannot drink, it is so much easier. That's when we are really ready to let go of it for good. Good luck this time around.

[Stargazerlily]

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Mstall, good to see you back. I too thought maybe I could drink, but the after effects are not worth it. This is a good place to be and I am hoping that June will be AF. But I am taking it ODAT. Sending you strength and hope.

[KatieB]

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Hi and welcome back,
I have tried moderation too many times to count.. but always end up binging.. I have fallen off the wagon time and again, but always come back, as I never want to give up trying! At least you are out of denial and know you cannot moderate, and are fed up of weekly hangovers.. same as me.. though I am back to Day 3 again, I have had many AF days - more than I have had in my adult life since finding this place! Let us help you anyway we can.. I find ODAT is the best way for me..
take care,
Katie xx

[Quit Quitting]

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Welcome back and ditto - I am trying moderation and finding it does not work. Today is the 1st June so lets all do it together - New Month New Start.

What do you all think?

QQ

[K9Lover]

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Hi MStall,
Welcome back! You'll find lots of support and encouragement here. We're glad to have you!
K9

[Farm Girl]

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Welcome back! We are here to support you - Moderation did not work for me...one drink for me and I'm right back where I started - drinking myself numb every night!