Hello !
Where to start? I often look at the non drinkers in admiration and wonder, why I cannot abstain or at least control the drinking. I don't want to get pissed every night, but night after night the habit continues.........weird!
Anyway, I've been doing the nightly drinking for twenty years or more which started out light, and now has grown to be about 15 oz or more. This does not change from night to night and I never drink in the day time. I wake up with the morning after malaise, work through it and by mid day I'm good to go, not many can keep up with me. Funny thing is I am very energetic, have good eating habits and I'm in good health
for the most part. At 45 I look and feel healty, most think I'm in my mid thirties . This drinking habit has to
go ! Where do I start ?
I guess I should add a quick histroy on myself and I don't offer this as an excuse, but it doesn't help for sure. I'll keep it very brief but this is my life.
Good lower middle class life, tho father was an alcoholic. He tried AA but later in life gave in to the booze again. I leave the nest at 22 to get married and my father dies at the reception. Three years later my first child is born, life starts to move forward again , but I've begun the nightly habit. 10 months later my wifes mother is diagnosed with breast cancer, and a 2 year battle ensues before she dies. My wife has our second son in the middle of all of this then leaves to be with her mother in Boston for months on end. Son no. 2 is enjoying a trip in Flordia with his family, where he slips into a coma on the day of his third birthday.
2 months later we are told to go home, to be with family because he is going to die. Boy no 2 is now 16, a
very healhy and talanted kid. Forgot to mention that daughter no.3 child was born and with us on the trip to Flordia , she was almost 2 at the time.Life after the ordeal was good until boy No. 1 was diagnosed with
Leukemia in 2002 . A 2 year battle ensued until the disease took his life just short of his 17th birthday .
Two years later I'm here posting for help, and that about sums it up.
Thanks!!
Robert
Where to start? I often look at the non drinkers in admiration and wonder, why I cannot abstain or at least control the drinking. I don't want to get pissed every night, but night after night the habit continues.........weird!
Anyway, I've been doing the nightly drinking for twenty years or more which started out light, and now has grown to be about 15 oz or more. This does not change from night to night and I never drink in the day time. I wake up with the morning after malaise, work through it and by mid day I'm good to go, not many can keep up with me. Funny thing is I am very energetic, have good eating habits and I'm in good health
for the most part. At 45 I look and feel healty, most think I'm in my mid thirties . This drinking habit has to
go ! Where do I start ?
I guess I should add a quick histroy on myself and I don't offer this as an excuse, but it doesn't help for sure. I'll keep it very brief but this is my life.
Good lower middle class life, tho father was an alcoholic. He tried AA but later in life gave in to the booze again. I leave the nest at 22 to get married and my father dies at the reception. Three years later my first child is born, life starts to move forward again , but I've begun the nightly habit. 10 months later my wifes mother is diagnosed with breast cancer, and a 2 year battle ensues before she dies. My wife has our second son in the middle of all of this then leaves to be with her mother in Boston for months on end. Son no. 2 is enjoying a trip in Flordia with his family, where he slips into a coma on the day of his third birthday.
2 months later we are told to go home, to be with family because he is going to die. Boy no 2 is now 16, a
very healhy and talanted kid. Forgot to mention that daughter no.3 child was born and with us on the trip to Flordia , she was almost 2 at the time.Life after the ordeal was good until boy No. 1 was diagnosed with
Leukemia in 2002 . A 2 year battle ensued until the disease took his life just short of his 17th birthday .
Two years later I'm here posting for help, and that about sums it up.
Thanks!!
Robert
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