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[Mary Anne]

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there is a book called "My Way Out" by Roberta Jewel, you can download it from the website or buy it on line from Ebay or somewhere like that.......that is what I did , I read it literally in one afternoon!! I would recommend getting topamax ASAP, can you get it from your doc?? I found a doc I work with who gives my samples now like candy!!! I love it, he says he doesn't give it to anyone, so it just sits around on his sample shelves, that was music to my ears, I just told him I get migraines, and he gives me bottles and bottles....I have a lifetime supply, I know I told a lie, but who has to know (?! )

Anyway, I have heard that at 175-200mg, your craving for alcohol goes way down......just got to175, so I will keep you posted, have never gotten that high yet!
Get the supplements in the book, they really do help too......you can read all over the website about the supplements too before you receive the book and go out an get them or order them off the website......

please private message me or just keep me posted as to how all you gals (or guys??) are doing!!

I really care!:h

Love,

Mary Anne

[Dar]

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Depression

Hi JMOSE,

You mentioned the loss of your mother at Christmas, and how the holidays are tough for you. We both have that in common, except it was my brother who died at Christmas. It took me a long time to get over his loss and I really felt for a long time that the wind would never blow my sails again. I went for greivance counselling and my counsellor helped me understand the process of grieving which is like climbing a hill, sometimes sliding backwards, and climbing back up. For some people, the process can take years and cause depression until they find a way to come to terms with it. Instead of missing my brother at Christmas now, I have a tradition that makes me feel like I am sharing the occasion with him, only he is in death and I am in life.

As for my drinking, I think joining this site yesterday gave me the strength to begin changing my pattern of behavior when I get home from work and do something construction. I did some yard clean up and then had a drink atl 9:00 p.m. and I only had 2, so was still sober when I went to bed. Hope this will be Day 1 of me being in control of it.

I think Maryanne is right, that sometimes depression will cause us to be out of control with alcohol. It does numb the emotional pain, but it is only temporary.

Reading everyone's experiences on this message board has been really helpful and has taken away some of the lonliness I've felt being a closet drinker. Some of you are ever so brave, opening up and sharing your experiences and I admire you all for that.:l

[Mary Anne]

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How are you all doing!?

I just wanted this to get booted to the top to check and see how you all were doing today? Titania, Dar,Annie, Jmose, Change?? I am sorry if I missed anyone!! I have just had the busiest day and couldn't get on at all today, and wanted to let you know I was thinking about you, but it is about 8 PM EST , so maybe you are out and about....if you are drinking don't feel bad, I have alot too in the not too far past, and who knows will again possibly soon, will come back and if I do will moderate...........this prgram works, just want to let you all know that, stick around!! :l

Hang in there!!!

MA:h

[Dar]

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The book

Hi everyone,

Thanks for responding Mary Anne. I will download the book this weekend, will give me something to do other than thinking about the drink. I am always most afraid of the weekends, but have taken some positive steps today. Going for hypnotherapy tomorrow, includes 4 sessions for smoking and problem drinking and c.d.'s to further brainwash myself. Will let you all know how that works. Hope I am not too stupid to be hypnotized. Have never done that before, but at this age, I don't have another day to wast.

[Dar]

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HELP

i AM NOT DOING WELL, ABOUT TO MAKE A VERY SERIOUS CHANGE IN MY LIFE AND I CAN'T HANDLE IT ALONE, HELP, HELP NEED SOMEBODY TO PUSH ME FORWARD. ALWAYS WAS SO STRONG FOR EVERYONE ELSE, BUT NOBODY EVER SAW WHEN I WAS WEAK. hELP, HELP. SOMEONE GIVE ME SOME STRENGTH AND IT WILL SURELY COME BACK TO YOU:upset:

[Dar]

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i CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE, I AM SO AFRAID

[tawnyfrog]

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Dar, talk to us .... what is happening?

Tawny

[WaitingToExhale]

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DAR ... I am here! Hold on! We dont know know each other .. but I have an ear!!

[mojomuppet]

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dar we are waiting for you in chat just keep trying the bottom box is where you type ok.

[Dar]

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the storm has passed

Hi Tawny and Waiting,

I went into such a panic last night about tomorrow, that I ended up having a few drinks last night. But tomorrow is today and today is the day I go for hypnotherapy. I was panicing about giving up years of addiction, but today I realize I should be more afraid of not giving up my addictions. To all the people in chat last night, thank you for helping me through the night. At present, I can barely walk around the block with my puppy without getting breathless from years of smoking, so seeing a clinical psychologist who specializes in treating addictions through behavior modification at 5:00 p.m. today. I am sure my puppy would love it if I could take her for longer walks.

My choice caused me to panic, but now I welcome the choice I have made. Thanks so much for being here for me :h :l

[southernbelle47]

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Dar,
Let us know how it goes today..

Gald that chat was a help!

NAncy:l