I have been missing him terribly, so I would drink to forget.
My job is stressful, I have other things going on (family illnesses etc) all great excuses for feeling sorry for myself and hiding with a bottle for comfort.
But do you know what? I think the pity party is finally over. I did drink at the weekend, but thinking about it I didn't really want to and it was more from habit than any mad cravings, and I didn't drink half as much as normal.
Today for the first time in a long time I feel strong and positive. I am taking steps today to take control of those aspects of my life that I can control and as for the others, well I?ll just have to take it as it comes. I am not going to drink today and if I do not make it through the week then there is only one person to blame?ME. I know I need to stop making excuses and start living again.
Sorry for the rant, but I am so sick of feeling sorry for myself and it has to stop NOW.
Day 1 (again!) but I know I'll make it through today, as for tomorrow, I'll worry about that when I get there.
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