Hi everyone

[Johnny]

Just a quick hi. I am on the cusp of taking the plunge I have been thinking about for years and after a particularly heavy binge I feel it is time to move my life forward. I don't know what is going to happen but I don't think I can ignore the fact that I am tired of drinking any more. There are so many reasons why this is going to be hard. The greatest of which will be the effect it will have upon me socially. I am however at a point in life where I feel I can do this and not only that but feel that I have to do this. Bloody hell! this is scary.

My binging can be ridiculously excessive, I usually struggle to know when to stop and sometimes I just go hell for leather. Then when I am reminded how much I drunk I find it truly shocking that I could consume so much alcohol and not pass out? Then comes the severe depression, I've got too much other shit going on to let myself get blindsided by the horrors of sobriety after binge drinking. Yesterday I felt so low and more alone than I have in years.

I need to stop. I want so much from life and booze is getting in the way. I don't know how I'm going to do this!

This is/was day 2.

[hazeleyes]

Hi everyone

Hi Johnny

Welcome, and thanks for sharing some of your story with us. It is great that you have found some insight for yourself about why AL is not good for you. May I suggest you come here every day and read lots and posts lots so that we can support you on your journey.

The things you feel and struggle with are common to us all, but we don't judge anyone. We just want to help you get to a better place, one small step at a time. Depressions is common, regret is common, wondering how you will survive without AL is common, but keep reading as there are many success stories here as well.

With the help of the people here I have been AF for almost 2 months. Life is way better now, and the people here have set out the path for me, very clearly to follow.

Your doing great. Every great accomplishment starts with one small step.
Keep going!
Hazeleyes

[Sharky]

Hi everyone

Johnny -
I'm in the same boat as you. The binge drinking is killing me. Just when I think I can have a normal weekend, I blow it (yesterday). Day 1 for me.

I find myself lurking on this site a lot and it really helps to read about everyone's struggles/journey and plans. I finally wrote down some goals re: AL that I'm going to attempt to stick with. It really helps to write them down (advice I learned on this site).
Best if luck with your journey!

[mollyka]

Hi everyone

Welcome Johnny, and Sharky. Of course its a struggle, come on and give it a go!!!
Molly

[Ringing Cedars]

Hi everyone

I echo Molly Johnny and Sharky. All the best!

[Sharky]

Hi everyone

Thank you.

I just hate the feelings on Monday's after weekends like I had. This is one thing that I should alsdo write down as a constant reminder of why I shouldn't drink all weekend. I find that if I start drinking early I'm in big trouble and can't break the cycle.
Need to stick with my goals~:thanks:

[techie]

Hi everyone

Welcome Johnny I'm happy you are going to join us. I was a binge drinker too. I'm 31 days AF thanks to this community!

[sk8punk]

Hi everyone

Het Johnny, another binge drinker here. I know what you mean by being shocked at the amount of alcohol consumed. I'm amazed I never gave myself alcohol poisoning! I'm now 67 days sober thanks to the great people here and my will to stop and change my life. Good luck to you on your journey. We're here for you.

[Guest]

Hi everyone

G'day Johnny. I came here a month ago. Now 15 days AF. What more can I say?

[Lavande]

Hi everyone

Hello & welcome Johnny & Sharky,

MWO is a great place, glad you found it
Do yourselves a favor, if you haven't already & download the MWO book from the Health Store. It's full of information about the program, supplements, Hypnotherapy CDs, etc.

Take a look in the https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html
for good ideas to help you make your plan! It is very helpful to write down your goals, keep them with you & refer to them often. I highly recommend the Cds, they are very helpful in learning to relax without AL.

Wishing you both the best on your journey!
Lav

[prancy]

Hi everyone

Ditto hello and welcome Johnny and Sharky,
There are lots of us big drinkers right here to help you both on your journeys. Just as you will help us by sharing your struggles and successes. No one here will judge you but everyone joins on to encourage each other. Living with AL is a whole new approach to life and "doing social" is certainly a part of it that we can all relate to. I have made it to Day 28 and in that time have been to about 13 social events -- bad calendaring on my part!! But I have made it and even when I come home feeling a bit weak in my resolve, I jump on here and people encourage me. I wish you the best of luck. Waking up feeling good and remembering what you said and did is pretty great. prancy

[not tonight]

Hi everyone

Hello Johnny & welcome - I also did not have an off bottom once I had that first drink. Every morning waking up in a bed of self loathing, wanting to make it stop, but then picking up right back again in the evening. This forum is great, since joining I have 43 days sober,and I feel amazing. Keep reading posting and sharing. Looking forward to getting to know you!

[Panno]

Hi everyone

Hi Johnny & Starky welcome to MWO and good luck on your journey. This forum is a god send as you will soon find out. Keep posting and reading

[woywoyboy]

Hi everyone

Welcome Johnny and Sharky. I new too and the folks here are great.

[johnnyh]

Hi everyone

Welcome Johnny!!!

I'll call you JJ to avoid confusion. that fine with you?! Also, once you decide to choose an avatar please make sure it's nothin pig related. that might just really confuse me. I might not know anymore whether you or I have posted :H:H:H

Jokes aside. Welcome on board mate!! This is such a fantastic place Johnny, seriously. The resources are vast and you will find friends here that will help you stay clear from trouble.

I wish you all the best on your journey and please stick around

Johnnyh.