Hi.

[Ayuria]

Hi. I was diagnosed with PTSD 2 years ago and went through major major depression because of it. I started drinking alot in my early 20s (Im now 28) and it got worse in ups and downs over the past two years. I decided to take control as I know its not helping my depression.

My father is an alcoholic, and has been for 40 years. I have seen him drink himself to death and ailinate himself from the rest of the world. I do not want to become him. I decided to take this into my own hands.

I have gone through the worst terror and fear and deepest sadness and despair and now I feel worthlessness and hopelessness and I know it drove me to drink alcohol to numb it. But now I dont, and Im on my 8th day of not drinking. Even though I want to.

I am married but no children (2 cats) and my husband is supportive.

I just lost my job due to my major depression and ptsd, though i hate admitting that is why. I have always been high functioning and performing and losing that battle has hit me hard.

I am taking topomax and naltraxon for alcohol and my GP is helping me (she sent me here). I will not ever become my father. I am stronger and have control. I will not allow alcohol to beat me.

Ayuria.

[woywoyboy]

Hi.

Hi and welcome Ayuria. I'm also new around here but you sure will find lots of support and some great info.

[Guest]

Hi.

You've got a smart GP, two cats and a supportive husband. With those credentials you can't lose.
Once you've been here for a while you will realise this is a winnable battle and all the strategies and tactics are here. Not only that, the people who make up MWO will help you every step of the way.
Look forward to seeing you around. All the best.

[hillsidetime]

Hi.

Hi Ayuria and welcome. Blue Heeler has hit the nail on the head. I hope that you start to feel better, and I hope that you remain af. Read and write lots in here. All the best to you,
Hill

[Guitarista]

Hi.

Hi Ayuria, and welcome.

Alcohol is the absolute worst thing we can put into our bodies if we suffer depression, as i'm sure you know. It will make us even more depressed, and very anxious. Good move taking control, and moving to take your life back. Your self worth, and sense of hope will dramatically improve.
Go for it. You can do it!

[rebirth]

Hi.

Hi Ayuria,
Just intoducing myself as I have recently given up alcohol after 15 years of very heavy drinking. Its been day 13 so far so we have given up around the same time. Lets support each other and beat this. I dont want to drink anymore. Its gonna be tough but I believe that we can beat this if we believe in ourselves.
x

[Panno]

Hi.

Hi Auyria just adding my hello and :welcome: good luck on your journey and well done on 8days AF what a fantastic start.

[techie]

Hi.

Welcome Auyria. I too suffer from PTSD. Hope to hear much more from you. My best wishes on the start of your journey here!

[K9Lover]

Hi.

Welcome Auyria!
We're glad to have you here. You'll find lots of support, advice and encouragement. Keep reading and posting. What a great start you've made already with your 8 days AF. Keep up the good work. I look forward to getting to know you!
K9

[Road to Recovery]

Hi.

Hi Auyria,
We talked this morning a bit in Chat. I just wanted to say welcome and say that I am glad that your GP is helping you. Take this time that you are not working and give your mind and your body a rest. Once you are feeling stronger, than you can seek out the job that you were meant to have.
Take care. Keep posting.