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[kslc2001]

Now is the time I want that drink. To sink my aching heart and spirit that hurts so much for others into a bottle of wine and lose the pain that I can do nothing about. I have a great boss that I get on really well with, and found out last night how much hell she has been thro in the last year and a half along with another colleague that has had an emotional crisis due to something one of our colloborators said to him. I feel like a mother whose children are being bullied at school. Wanting to help and knowing there is nothing I can do about it....

I also went to the physical therapist this morning as well as the dentist Yet despite feeling worn out and wanting some wine, another part of me is wanting my milky relaxing chai tea and my hypnotterapy tape more.

Yay....14 days AF

[Doggygirl]

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Congratulations on 14 AF days! That is wonderful. You raise an important point, too. It's been critical for me to WANT SOBRIETY MORE than I want to drink. Even after 2 years sober an occassional thought of drinking passes by. But I want my sobriety WAY more and so it's really not an issue.

I also was one to worry about all sorts of things going on around me that are outside of my control. I have had to learn to stop doing that - or at least vastly reduce the amount of negative frantic energy I spend on things I can't do a thing about.

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.

I CAN not drink. I CANNOT change other people and their circumstances. I CAN stay focused on my own business and keep my nose out of everyone else's. I CAN stay focused on today and not dwell in the past or project into the future.

These are my "peace of mind" tools. FWIW..

Strength and hope to you!! Keep on truckin' AF. Beats the alternative.

DG

[Ringing Cedars]

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There is pain all around us and unfortunately it's not going to get any better 2001. 2001 was the year all hell broke lose in my life. We can't change that only our reaction to it. You did very well going for the chai tea! Good for you!!

[K9Lover]

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14 days is awesome, keep it up! Stay strong, you CAN beat those drinking thoughts. I still have them occasionally too, but then I envision (or fast forward as some on here call it) the "morning after". Waking up dizzy, dehydrated and with fuzz on my teeth, wondering who I called, texted, emailed or was generally an ass to. On the flip side, how great is it to wake up rested with full knowledge of your previous actions? Now that's great!
Keep up your good work, enjoy your tea and tapes!
K9

[Anjicia]

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At 23 days sober the thought of a few beers or glasses of wine comes into m head but then i remember how ill and hungover i wud feel and losings days because i cudn't function with a sick stomach bleary eyes and thumping headache. yes sobriety is more importent to me its a gift and alcohism is a lonely place to be. Well done on ur af days and keep drinking your favourite drinks fruit juices and water with lemon. Keep posting and stay focosed wish the best.:l

[hillsidetime]

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KS, congrats on your two weeks af. Even more so, congrats on not drinking, after a day that was very hard for you. Like the saying goes, some days are diamond and some days are stone. I hope that you feel better soon. Keep adding those days together.
Hill

[kslc2001]

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Thanks for all the support and to DG for the reminder of what I used to live by when at university.

"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference."

I have a good instinct and if I listen to it i find the answers

[Doggygirl]

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kslc2001;890030 wrote: I have a good instinct and if I listen to it i find the answers

That will be an asset in your recovery!

DG