slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

[mayday]

I have kept away from this site for nearly a week as I felt so ashamed...I had got to day 8 alcohol free (which was pretty big for me), was feeling really great, did not even have the craving for it, then got home from a particularly busy/stressful 12 hour day at work, and what should be waiting for me (from a thoughtful person)...a cold bottle of wine in the fridge. The dialouge that went on in my head didn't take long as I was alone inthe house, I actually told myself (and whats more ...believed it) that I had actually been mistaken and I didn't really have a problem with drink, I had just simply got into a bad habit...and that I could quite happily have 2 glasses of this wine and then go dack to no drinking tommorrow.
So the bottle was opened, the wine was drunk, and 7 days later I find myself at day 1 again...

I still cannot believe I blew it after 8 days, ...but today is a new day, the script is unwritten, so by writting this in black and white the committment is made, I know I got such support and comfort from everyone at this site I must come back, I will have to stay close again and soak up the positive vibes and support...to be strong,

Day1..here we go!!

[bugz]

slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

that's the reason I don't keep any in the house anymore, you tell yourself just 1 or 2
then a week later it's back to square one.

[Doggygirl]

slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

mayday, I had to go through that same conversation in my head a LOT before I finally learned that I cannot believe it. For many of us, this is all part of the process.

It took me many years to finally accept my alcohol problem and decide to take action. What took years to establish could not be "fixed" in a matter of days. Just learn from it and move forward.

DG

[Johnny]

slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

Mayday, you can do it. I am sticking to this website like glue simply because it has helped me so much. I am rooting for you my friend. One day at a time and give it your best, I know you can do it.

Johnny.

[techie]

slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

Oh yeah I've done that too many times. Good for you for calling a quick time out and getting back on track!

[mayday]

slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

Thanks Bugz and Doggygirl I am on the learning curve just need to not get too disheartened as you say "just learn from it and move forward...'....keep the AL out of the house

[mayday]

slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

Thanks Johnny and techie already feeling stronger

[dlw]

slid off the side but didn't hit the bottom

its like riding a horse, you have to get back on when you fall off. It happened to me this weekend too A long time of sobriety, and the bottle of tequila was sitting in the cabinet, calling my name- so I caved and Saturday nursed a hangover and a non forgiving spouse (who drinks himself)
Sunday I woke up and said time to start day 1 again!!!
Everyone hang in there! We can Do IT!