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Hi there I am new too. Yesterday was my first day sober and I started with the Clearing Cd, then slept to the Sleep Learning. This morning I hooked up to this site. I did not do much yesterday just tried to stay calm. My partner is away in England for 2 months and he is always skeptical when I say "tomorrow I am stopping". So I did not need any negativity, not that I blame him. When I was young I was the youngest member in the band (17) and I just drank to be cool and did not even like the taste. I hardly remember my teen years but I could always play. My twenties I held great jobs and had heaps of friends so to keep in touch with all the different ones I was drinking almost every night. I forget when I stopped asking visitors if they wanted a cup of tea and offered a glass of wine instead. But that must have been the start.
I kept drinking and found cocaine kept me sober and I could drink more. It was easy for me to give up cocaine and smoking but alcohol was always a struggle. At present, before yesterday that is, I found I was starting to argue with myself an hour or two before I finished work, will I, wont I, please God dont let me stop for a bottle of wine, on the way home it would be I will just buy one, then closer to the bottle shop - I had better but two incase I want extra and I can't drive after I have drunk one bottle.
I did not find the Kudzu any help but I did not have the CDs then, My Doctor gave me valium one at night but they make me feel strange and I drive now for a living. I was very cleaver I knew when to stop drinking so I would show a clear reading for work. But work suffers, relationships suffer etc.
I am not taking Topiramate because I drive a lot but m ay get it on line if I think I need it. Anyway wish me luck and I wish you luck with your first steps
(E);64012 wrote: I'm new here. I have a drinking problem and the worst part of it all is that I'm sitting across from my wife right now, I've been drinking all night and I dont feel like I can talk to her. I've battled with depression for quite a while, she knows about that, but I cant really talk with her about that either. Every time it comes up she gets weird, and I dont blame her I have a very close friend that killed himself earlier this year, and I think shes afraid that I'll do something like that. But I wont! I dont want to! I just need someone to talk to, to help me work out some things, and help me get off alcohol. Can anyone help? Thanks!
I kept drinking and found cocaine kept me sober and I could drink more. It was easy for me to give up cocaine and smoking but alcohol was always a struggle. At present, before yesterday that is, I found I was starting to argue with myself an hour or two before I finished work, will I, wont I, please God dont let me stop for a bottle of wine, on the way home it would be I will just buy one, then closer to the bottle shop - I had better but two incase I want extra and I can't drive after I have drunk one bottle.
I did not find the Kudzu any help but I did not have the CDs then, My Doctor gave me valium one at night but they make me feel strange and I drive now for a living. I was very cleaver I knew when to stop drinking so I would show a clear reading for work. But work suffers, relationships suffer etc.
I am not taking Topiramate because I drive a lot but m ay get it on line if I think I need it. Anyway wish me luck and I wish you luck with your first steps
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