sick and tired of sobriety

[papmom3]

sick and tired of sobriety

KS,
You have gotten some great advice and I think Sherri has hit the nail on a number of heads. the first thing I thought of when you mentioned muscle weakness was an underlying problem that has been masked by years of ALO poisoining.

If you doctor approves, you may want to try the supplements recommended in the MWO book (make sure you print out the Update that is free). They have helped me tremendously with some wicked depression I suffered in Month 2 and my engery is much better. You have the opposite problem as me in that at least you are sleeping better albeit without dreams. I had wicked insomnia for 2 months and when I did dream they were horribly wierd and vivid. Now I am sleeping again and dreams are back to normal. I am starting Month 4.

Please give it more time. I do not expect my body to return to "normal" for at least a year and more now that I've been diagnosed with Diabetes type II and chronic Kidney disease (yep, all those years of drinking kept my BP up which led to the above. Be aware!!). But, I have high hopes that with proper diet and exercise, I will live for a few more decades (I'm 53) and very well too.

Good Luck and please come here first if you get the urge or have doubts again.

[kslc2001]

sick and tired of sobriety

It's great to know that I have friends here that truely understand what is going on.

Blue Heeler, I wouldn't want you to either where the mark of Caine, nor lose credibility for what you suggested, but I stuck to the plan and feel happier today that I did.
To Sheri Thank you for the reminder of the fact that things are a struggle for me too. More so than most. I have to work alot harder mentally to pass exams or physically to get fit

This is what got me here.

I realized I had a problem when I was drinking a box of wine within 3 days (4 bottles) and quite often on the last day, there where only 2-3 glasses left. THAT was when I started to cut down. I then hurt my shoulder, went back to my PT who sent me to the doc due to being in alot more pain than I had previously. After a chat with the doc, he had blood drawn and everything was fine.
He then advised me to stop drinking for 2 months, as alcohol can cause muscle myopathy as well as pain. (there IS medical evidence for this) You should have seen the look on my face!? I said I could cut down, but not cut out completely. I downed a bottle of wine that evening to celebrate. I had 2 glasses of wine with friends on Sat, nothing on Sun or Mon as the stores where closed. Tues I bought a bottle of wine and also downed that. I realized then I had a serious problem. I called the doc, downloded the MYO book, ordered the CDs and started on the supplements. By the time I had my appointment I was down to 2 glasses of wine a day. He still wanted abstenance. I wanted the Topa. We compromised He is no push over, has alot of time for his patients and I have alot of respect for him (not something that comes easily to me) He has noted that I'm very insightful and the last time I saw him I reminded him that the muscle weakness and pain where not due to AL. Once AL free for 2 months, I'm hoping that I have his respect and HE will Listen to ME. I'll push to have other tests done, or get a second opinion, as chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia have also gone through my mind

Thanks all for helping me stick to my target!

[Rusty]

sick and tired of sobriety

KS,

I'm with Sheri. I have hypothyroidism but it went undetected by my doctor for 2 years! I was always tired (on weekends I would take a 2-hr. nap mid-day) and pushed my doctor to test me, and that's what I had. I had also put on 25 lbs. within a matter of months so I knew something was up! I have very little faith in doctors anymore. They have let me down more times than I care to think about.

[seila1]

sick and tired of sobriety

Good for you kslc2001! Love it, "Free to good home". You're worth the effort and when it gets to hard to see how important you are, we'll all be here to remind you. You have a lot to be proud of and don't be so hard on youself - we're none of us perfect nor will we ever be, but we're worth it. Hang in there!

[Johnny]

sick and tired of sobriety

Well done KSLC, I just wanted to say that your dreams will return in time. Your body an mind are just in a stage where they are readjusting and when that settles I am sure your lucidity will return. You will probably find that as you become more settled in your sobriety your life will become enhanced and your dreams will follow suit. Also it will be easier to recall more of their content with a clear head.

The adventures of the sub concious are a particular interest of mine and like you my dreams are vivid. They have also provided me with great insights into my behaviour and acted as good life pointers.