I have Time. Time to do all the things I didn't have the time to do when I was so busy nursing a bottle. Time to think, time to write, time to talk..... What a fabulous gift!
Also, my creativity seems heightened. I'm a writer and an artist and I always thought AL boosted my creativity but now I can see how I was so wrong, and that if it did in anyway inspire me, it was only in that short space between Tipsy and drunk, which knowing my habits would probably last an hour max. Hardly a very productive activity.
I am learning so much on this journey. Everyday I'm amazed by something new.
Its as if I never knew myself before, I only knew the numb, drunk/hungover/drunk... self that floated from day to day in a haze, wishing the day away at the sound of the morning alarm.
I've been drinking for the whole of my twenties in this self destructive way, never pausing to see who I was or where I was headed. I realise now, that the me I was pre-booze at 18/19 and the me I am now at 30 are two completely different people a whole decade apart. For some reason this has surprised me.
I'm learning who I am and I'm liking it. I feel productive. I feel motivated and I feel like I'm living.
I want this to be me from now on.
This forum is an inspiration to so many, I'm so happy I found it. It might just have changed my life.
X x :thanks:
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