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[lil.michelle]

Well i new this day was coming and it did. As stupid,silly,deadly,pathetic as it was i'm very glad i did it. I was thinking 'stupidly' that the antabuse wasn't working or at most it gave me a rash. I'd been testing the water really for some time as my drinking problem started to rear it's little head again.
Today i did the unthinkable and drank after i'd taken a antabuse. Really i did it to see whether it worked. If it hadn't, i don't know what i would have done but thankfully it did. And oh my didn't it! I'm not going into what happened but it really does do what it says on the label and after all this time of 'testing' it, i finally know.
I don't know why but i'm REALLY happy and excited i can move on now, knowing once i've popped a pill, i can't drink for that day. It's not a long term solution, i'm aware but it'll hopefully get me through this hard stage in my life. I WILL not be doing that again and there is no hiding it either, the effect lasts for a good 7/8 hours. I just needed to know it worked, sad really i know.

[OverIt2007]

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Hey Lil Michelle,

Are you ok??? Did you drink the same day as taking a pill? I have heard that the effects are horrendous, and that knowledge alone keeps me from wanting to test the waters so to speak. I am only two weeks taking it. Good gosh girly, I am glad you did not end up in the hospital!!

Its good to know it works. Now you can stop testing it then right?? I plan to continue taking my Antabuse for as long as it takes to get me some long sober time in. Im hoping that once my life is so used to being AF, I will naturally want to continue on. If that plan does not work, on to next plan I suppose.

And by the way... THANK YOU for posting this because I am sure others think about "testing" it too. By posting this you are most likely helping somebody...your helping ME too!!!

[Ringing Cedars]

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Yes, Michelle, are you really alright? Don't hesitate to get medical help please?

[lil.michelle]

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Im fine!!!! I know it sounds crazy but it was something i needed to do to get me to stop testing. I'll NEVER do it again and to anyone whp may think... does it doesn't... it does work and it lasts a LONG time.

[OverIt2007]

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Ewwww, I can only imagine!!! Well, I believe you when you say this is a good thing for you. Now you know, and now I know through you.

Be blessed Lil Michelle

[greeneyes]

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I totally get that thinking. I applied the same philosophy to my being cured or that I really wasn't an alkie or whatever it was I wanted to tell myself so I could see if I was a normie after all. So I tested it. And now I know for absolute certain I can never safely drink alcohol. It takes all the wondering, musing, speculation, watching, mulling, etc. OFF THE TABLE and it honestly IS a huge relief! It is good to move on, isn't it lil. michelle? Now maybe you can give full attention to developing your plan for when you don't take anatabuse. For now, get some electrolytes back in yourself, right?

[K9Lover]

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Lil Michelle,
I'm glad you're OK! I've been on Antabuse for 103 days and although I've never tested it, I've thought about it. I mean, for all I know, I've been taking a sugar pill for the last 3 months! But the warnings and possible side effects were always enough to convince me not to even take that chance. I am so glad you're ok, and that you found the answer you were looking for. I'm going to continue to take mine indefinitely. It gives me that extra push I need, because unfortunately after a stretch of sobriety, we sometimes become complacent...but with Anatabuse, it's just not an option!
Be safe and let us know how you're progressing!
K9