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    Hi All,
    Basically, after 6 weeks AF I went out on the lash with my mates on Saturday. No one's fault but my own I instigated the whole thing, no one put pressure on me etc cos my friends had accepted I was AF. Didn't plan days in advance or anything just sitting at home and sent out the texts etc - I was thinking to my self your off the sauce 6 weeks, so what-feeling a tad sorry for myself? Is life that much better?

    Lessons Learned
    (1) I didn't really enjoy myself when out boozing.
    (2) I prefer being AF.
    (3) Sunday is a horrible day hung over.
    (4) I am wrecked tired in work today (Monday) - and very busy.
    (5) I won't be able to go to the gym until tomorrow (too tired)


    Anyway, I am going to remain positive as I will mark this weekend as a point of note and reflection.
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    Ian - we have all done it so many times but I think we have to go through all these times to finally finally get it. Great that you see the lessons to be learned instead of wallowing in self pity. As they say pick yourself up, dust yourself down and start all over again....
    "In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer ."
    AF - JAN 1st 2010
    NF - May 1996

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      Hiya Ian
      Great post
      Really like those lessons learnt... and learning is what its all about..
      take care
      Patrice

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        Hello Ian, glad you came back and posted. If we are not honest here we may as well not bother.
        Sometimes it takes an episode like yours to make us realise just why we came here in the first place. In my case it was because AL was infringing on every part of my daily life and controlling my thoughts and deeds a lot of the time. Sometimes it takes many of these episodes but sooner or later the day will come come when a person finally comes to the place when enough is enough. Only then can the true work begin. I wish I had of come to that conclusion years back and saved myself a lot of heartbreak and soul searching. I hope your reflections do you justice.
        Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?

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          IanRankin;915245 wrote: (2) I prefer being AF.
          Excellent! It is a learning process.
          sigpic
          AF since December 22nd 2008
          Real change is difficult, and slow, and messy - Oliver Burkeman

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            Ian you twit!!!!

            Joking concern aside. Yes these feeling creep up on us BUT they do get lesser the longer you are sober. I'm lucky in that my true friends don't or wouldn't take me out on the lash.

            Just get back on here.

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              UK,
              Difference is my friends and family don't really see any issues with me and AL. However that's irelevant to me as I know where I want to be (sort of)

              What's killing me is that today I don't that little spark and self confidence Ive had the last few weeks.

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                Glad you posted that Ian. Its another reminder that I will regret my decision to drink when I suddenly think I need to.
                At least you know how to regain that spark and self confidence again.
                Be strong-
                We define ourselves by the best that is in us, not the worse that has been done to us.
                Be constructive. Clear the word of CAN'T

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                  It's exactly what alcohol does.............we can do without it!

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                    Did my first gym session since Thurs last night (Tues) it was seriously tough but did it through gritted teeth.

                    Another lesson llearned:
                    Progress in the gym is seriously hampered by regular AL abuse.

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                      Ian- I can really appreciate that lesson learned! I try to get to the gym 5 days a week and have had quite a few lackluster workouts because of the alcohol I consumed the night before. This will be another key motivator for me to stick with sobriety.

                      Nice to have you back!
                      John
                      AF since 7/13/2010

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                        Hi Ian, thank you for sharing your lessons learned with us. You are right about working out. I find an improved recovery time and better muscle mass build up when sober. I hope that you soon get back to feeling good, and living sober. All the best,
                        Hill
                        Sober since Feb 7, 2010.

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