I have spent most of my adult life on the other side of the fence...I even started an Alanon group in our city. How ironic, here I am, devoured in the clutches of this cunning, baffleing beast. It has happened slowly over the last 10-12 yrs....I love the taste of wine and a couple glases led to 3 or 4, than a bottle and now a bottle & 1/2 most evenings. I am a very sneaky drinker and most people don't know I drink to excess. I can go a couple days and not drink - swear I will never touch it again and then it has me. I have been in counseling since March.....have many books, even the MWO book and do tons of research on alcoholism. The dr gave me an Rx for Campral and I haven't been able to be AF for at least 3 days to start it. I despise myself the next day, swearing never again.
Today is DAY 1 for me..again. I know if I continue drinking I will destroy my health and die from this disease. I have made a plan, something I have never followed through and done before. I am going to come here daily and read posts and share. I feel a committment I never have before-I pray for strength.
Thank you for listening and I appreciate any support.
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