Hi...time for me to get real.

[vikesfan]

I know I'm a alcoholic....my journey has been long and rough....three detoxes...two stints in rehab and a time in jail from a DUI...here I am on a Monday morning figuring out why I can't stop drinking. I have tried everything....I don't know what to do anymore...AA didn't work...meds didn't work....what is next for me....I don't want to die...I am too young to let this kill me....I've had enough of this...maybe I finally reached the bottom...I woke-up early today...the trembling feeling inside was the worst I have ever had. I just am sick of alcohol....maybe I have finally seen the light. Thank you to anyone who listened to this.

[mario]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Hi & welcome vikesfan to mwo, you have come to a great community with lots of good support and advice from people who are/were there,share your thoughts & feelings and check into the newbies thread were you will get a great welcome,give yourself a chance as you are certainly not alone.goodluck

[Mstall]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Welcome VikesFan! i'm a vikings fan too

This is a great place with lots of non-judgmental support. Download the book, read the toolbox and begin your journey.

:welcome:

[vikesfan]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Thank you

Thank you mario! Ready to get to work on this......thanks

[vikesfan]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Thank you Mstall

Good to see another vikes fan! I will take your advice and download the book and get started. I finally feel like I'm getting honest about my addiction to alcohol. Have a great day!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Hello Vikesfan and welcome to a great place, full of support and advice from people who know what it is like to caught in the vicious cycle. Just take it slowly ODAT, one hour or five minutes if needs be. Read lots and ask any questions you may have. As was said the https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html is a good place to start and I would recommend reading the book also.
Keep safe
KTAB

[mario]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Dont forget to come back & lets us know how your getting on and well done on taking this first giant step in beating and unlocking this chain around your neck, way to go :-)

[mollyka]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Hi Vikesfan. It is tough to get started. You need to want this more than anything or you are on a hiding to nothing. The first few days are the hardest - but if you are determined you can do it. Just don't take the first drink - everything else will look after itself. So quickly you will start feeling better, and when you do the rewards just keep coming in droves. Just ODAT or as the wise old heads say here, one minute at a time if necessary. Keep checking in here, and good luck - you are not alone, we've all been where you are at this moment
Molly:welcome:

[vikesfan]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Thank you everyone and mollyka for your kind words. I spent 7 months sober after my DUI arrest and thought I GOT IT. Well I wrong on that. Spend this whole weekend drinking and felt soo horrible this morning I could not take it anymore. Life is soo much better than this. I am sick of feeling alone...scared..and drinking my life away. Those 7 months..although tough at times was the best I felt since I was in high school. I felt confident...happy....energetic...and I was myself again. They say that getting sober is a journey and they are right. Today I will choose to be sober. Tomorrow who knows. But today I will be sober. Thank you everyone!

[mollyka]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Brilliant Vikesfan, yep, just today! But do remember you DID 7 months, so you know you can do it again, and just remember the next time you want a drink how you feel today, I have a day in my past that I was so ill I wanted (truly) to die - I hold that day very close to my heart cos it is the strongest 'tool' I have in staying sober
Molly

[vikesfan]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Thanks Molly! I woke up wanting to die....I feel sick right now i can hardly stand it...but...i have been threw this before..I know the next few days are going to SUCK! But it will get better. I am not sure where to go from here...how do I maintain this for good. We will soon see...I guess all alcoholics ask themselves there question everyday. Maybe that is what I need to do. Ask myself everyday...every minute How am I going to stay sober today?

[girly wirly]

Hi...time for me to get real.

welcome vikesfan

thge answers to your questions are right there in the tool box thread, lots of motivation, ideas, thoughts there to help you on your way. good luck on being sober, just for today xxx

[vikesfan]

Hi...time for me to get real.

again thank you everyone....i called my doctor..and i'm going to go detox so i can be watched.....i'll be back here again tomorrow....thank you everyone for your kind thoughts....eventhough i feel like crap right now....a part of me is at peace...i am turning the corner..although slowly right now

[dancelot]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Welcome, Vikesfan! I like Zenstyle's last line - "Your higher brain is working today. Stick with what it's telling you..."

I was where you are when I found this place. I knew it (I've known for years...), but finally believed it. That made a huge difference. I also keep in my mind where I was, and what the end result will be if I ever go back there.

MWO is a great source of support and information, and between the support and the supplement/nutritional approach was a great fit for me. Alcoholism has so many facets, and I like to approach it from every angle, and it has been working for me since I came here.

I do feel the difference this time is my commitment (100%) - I have had to longish AF stints - of 8 and 10 months - but had no real plan and more important, no commitment. I thought I could just coast, and it would apparently work... for awhile.

I wish you the best on your journey - much love to you! :h

[vikesfan]

Hi...time for me to get real.

Thank you Zenstyle and Dancelots! The doctor gave me a atvian pill to help with withdrawl. I feel very relaxed right now. Drinking alot of water so far today. I will get that book Zen and you are right Dancelots...I need to be all the way in this time...not 50 percent....80 percent or even 90 percent like other times. Thank you all and much love to all of you.