Glamorizing

[twosox40]

64 days today, it's funny how physically I don't crave the alcohol but mentally I still do. It's the glamorization of it all I believe that gets me. I see myself with a glass of wine sitting at the end of my dock, just relaxing and sipping my glass of chardonnay or sitting by the fire at night chillin with a beer and laughing with my husband, brother, friends. It is ridiculous how my alcoholic mind twists things around. In reality I start off with a glass of wine, which turns into a bottle of wine, or that one beer that turns into a 12 pack, not so glamorous then. This is what I have to constantly remind myself that it's not all that glamourous when I can't stop at one. I have to remind myself I can have just as much fun with a bottle of water in hand or I can relax just as much with nothing in my hand, just have to keep remembering it's the alcoholic part of my brain that is telling me such nonsense. The good thing is so far I believe the better half of me is gaining strength with everyday that I go AF and the alcoholic part of me is getting weaker and weaker, therefore, latley it (the alcoholic in me) seems to be really giving me all it has. This site and all of you are part of my weapons that I know will defeat this beast.

Thanks,
Twosox :l

[mama bear]

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great job on 64 days!!!

[Guest]

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64 days well done!

Did you EVER sit there with just one glass of wine looking glam?I can't remember doing that and these days I can be glam without a glass in my hand. Few weeks ago I walked through a city centre on a Saturday night, there were people outside trendy cocktail bars, spilling out of functions at very nice hotels. They all had very glamourous outfits on but the sad part was that the people in the outfits were staggering, faces drooping, red noses, girls falling off their hi-heels. Men in smart suits urinating in the street.

Kinda destroys the whole 'image' thing.

[mario]

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64 days is great, keep the 64 days of positive progress in your mind, well done

[techie]

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Hi Two. The mental part is still very tough for me as well. I often do fantasize about the cocktail after work, the beer after a workout, wine with a good dinner. All of these scenarios were never realities for me. I always abused it. I still play those head games with myself about controlling it. I understand it for what it is. Delusional thinking.

[mayday]

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Hi twosox...I totally 100% relate the the glamerizing thing! I visualize that lovely cold Savignon blanc in a lovely big wine glass and cant imagine anything else looking or tasting that good, but I can't remember (it was so long ago) when I poured a third of a glass, which is a standard drink in those big glasses, and sipped a glass slowly over 20 minutes. Somewhere along the line it changed to filling up the glass (so you're like drinking out of a bucket...) and drinking the first 2 quite quickly to get the 'buzz'.
Its over a month now since a last had any wine (which is my drink of choice, I have drunk spirits) and I have to say there isn't a day goes by that there isn'T some part of the day I fantasize about having a glass of wine!!

But I will not be drinking today, and I am just going to get into my gear now and go off for a long bike ride with a friend...the daily exercise is helping... but God I'm sick of my mind glamerizing this disease!
All the best

[Pride before Fall]

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I'm sticking to the cran-grape juice in a wine glass at dinner and it's working fine for me. Doesn't turn my teeth purple, either! Just another perk.

[twosox40]

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Mayday, I would do the same thing with those giant wine glasses, fill it to the rim. I would have about four of those and think it's really not that bad, but actually it is more like eight glasses.

Like the cran-grape idea, at the moment I have become addictied to diet tonic water and lime. I have read the stuff in the tonic water in large quantities is not that great for you, but it is better than the alcohol, so I will stick to with it.

Techie, I used to go for a 4 mile run then do the same thing get home and down a water, then grab a beer or glass of wine how sad, after doing my body good, I would then poision it.

Ukblonde, now that I am not drinking, it's funny how much you realize everyone else you use to drink with really drink alot. I guess I was always just as buzzed if not drunk to realize how much they were. It's nice not to be the one making a fool of myself or waking up feeling crappy.

Thank you all for your encouragment it means a lot.

Twosox

[mayday]

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Hi Twosox,

Funny you should say that about the run, I am trying to 'up' my exercise (thinking it may help with cravings)
Went to the gym yesterday, then did a 45 km bike ride, came home and all afternoon and into the evening I craved alcohol..how can that be possible??
I didn't drink..but it would have to have been one of the hardest days! I guess its what Techie calls 'delusional thinking '

Hope todays goin well for all,
P.S forgot to say..awesome effort on 64 days!!

[Guest]

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mayday;930966 wrote: Hi Twosox,

Funny you should say that about the run, I am trying to 'up' my exercise (thinking it may help with cravings)
Went to the gym yesterday, then did a 45 km bike ride, came home and all afternoon and into the evening I craved alcohol..how can that be possible??
I didn't drink..but it would have to have been one of the hardest days! I guess its what Techie calls 'delusional thinking '

Hope todays goin well for all,
P.S forgot to say..awesome effort on 64 days!!

HALT, T standing for tired. That's how you can crave after lots of exercise. I try to be careful not to overdo things, as well as make sure I'm eating enough so you can avoid H too.