Like so many, I am new here as well. I think I have discovered that a problem that I have denied having for a long time is something that is truly an issue. I?ve tried kicking it?s butt but I just keep failing. I?m curious if what I am experiencing is typical or atypical from others here. Right now I am on R&C #3 thinking of making #4.
1) I love Bacardi Rum with diet Coke.
2) In the morning,
a. I am not throwing up or anything like that. I usually just feel that I didn?t sleep well and end up dragging the first part of the morning.
b. I?ve pretty much lost interest and motivation in stuff I used to like to do.
c. I get very hot in the mornings and sweat a lot. The room is usually around 75F.
d. I think that life would be so much better if I never saw a rum and coke again
e. I think about how much weight I can lose if I stop (I did a year ago and dropped 50 pounds in 4 months)
f. I am very optimistic about not drinking.
3) About 3PM,
a. I start getting depressed because I feel that I am denying myself something that I want
b. I think that I could only have a little (which I really know won?t work)
c. I think that ?just tonight then I will start fresh tomorrow? ?or-
d. Something will come up that will justify drinking
e. My mood suddenly changes to very positive and happy
4) Around 6:30,
a. I pour my first drink
b. It taste better than any one before
c. I start to really feel good
d. What?s one more going to hurt ? besides I?m about to watch a movie and a drink would be nice with it.
e. Move is half over and glass is empty. Gone this far, might as well have another
f. Off to bed ? thinking Tomorrow will be different!
I?m tired of this! The entire summer I have lived in a Bacardi bottle. One week out of the year my wife and I go on a big time vacation and there is lots of alcohol involved. Other than this week, I?d love to kick AL?s butt. I have nothing to be depressed about at all. I just don?t understand how I ended up here.
Its Just Me?.
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