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[TRUCKER13]

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Hi Cinders Your 100% correct it does get much worse i don't understand ppl's reply to your post DAMM your telling it like it is it never gets better just worse.trucker123 ..i dont know how i ended up with this new screen name trucker13... i have told MYO TO CHANGE ME BACK TO TRUCKER123 KEEP TELLING IT LIKE IT IS CINDERS AGAIN TRUCKER123

[sapphire1]

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i am with you cinders, keep telling it like it is cinders, we cant sugar coat this illness, it will take us to the grave. my story is just like yours and i am sure just like so many others who so desperatley and honestly need help. please do not aplogise for having the guts and caring enough to tell it like it is, its the only way to ram home the message that this is no walk in the park folks, this is for real. love and grace to all who are looking for a better way

[sapphire1]

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Guys is there anyway that we can report MAJOR BALLS TO MWO, i am appalled!!!! This is not what we are here for. We are not on this site to be abused and harassed. We are here to support each other in an honest and respectful and caring way. This behaviour should not be tolerated.

[Panno]

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Hi Its Just Me and :welcome:

Cinders thank you for sharing, we really do need to listen to how bad it can get, I posted a couple of days ago that I realise I am in denial, just because there is no morning drinks, afternoon drinks, drunk texting etc does not mean I could not be there and its reading stories like yours that really helps my journey and kicks my arse :thanks:

[Cinders]

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Panno,

Thank you. I can only hope when I post these things that one person can be saved from the hell that others and I have have lived. I have been to rehab twice and believe me, many of us just do not make it. As a matter of fact, 40% of us die from this disease and the death is very grim.

It is worth it to put it out there even if some do not like to hear the truth, if I can help just one person avoid this fate, I feel grateful.

Cindi

[K9Lover]

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Thank you Cinders for your honesty. I need to hear how bad it can get. After a while you can get complacent, and that's when you are most vulnerable. So when I read posts like Cinders, it reinforces the place I never want to go back to or a point I never want to reach.

And to the newbies, I'd like to apologize for this "MajorBalls" person, that kind of behavior is not acceptable here! We want you to feel safe, not threatened.

K9

[patrice]

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Cinders... another one who will say 'thank you' - your post struck me right in the guts and thats what is necessary.. it hurts, its harsh but it true and we need reality here. Like a bitter pill, all of us need that reinforcement - that was me, could be me, still is me, never was me.. whatever.. I commend your honesty and keep telling it like it is... Because it is just as you descibed.
Take Care
Patrice

[Doggygirl]

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Pink Angel;931377 wrote: very very harsh.

The truth about alcoholism, which I have, and many people here at this site have, IS harsh. Very harsh. It's life and death harsh.

I applaud every new person that comes here knowthing they have a problem with alcohol, and reaching out for the truth, for others "just like them", and for help. Some are ready to hear the truth and some are not. But the truth still needs to be spoken, IMO.

Maybe some people can get sober with a soft touch. Not me.

DG

[Ringing Cedars]

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I agree. I want to hear the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. It allows me a barometer to assess the depths of my problem, progress and make plans accordingly.
Thank you all.

[mollyka]

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I also applaud you Cinders, everything you said and more is the reality of alcoholism. The raw truth of it is nasty, awful and yes like DG says it is in MANY cases life and death. The fact is the failure rate of this disease is very high and anyone coming on here should be very very aware of that fact. The humour and fun is fantastic and to most of us cathartic, but underneath we really should be very clear that this is a potentially fatal disease unless we do the hard yards, and yes it can be hard - fact.
Molly

[ItsJustMe]

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Hi All –

Thanks for the well wishes. I really appreciate it. Cindi – Thanks very much for your slap of reality. That really drives home why I need to do something now. No, I am not at the point you painted yet but now I see where this can go. I thought I was at the bottom. I read and reread your post several times this morning. I sat back in my chair, did some soul searching, and read it again. You scared the crap out of me – which is exactly what I needed. I keep rationalizing that I’m not that bad off, I can control it.

So, where am I now? Well, last night I finished the last of my Bacardi bottle. I do not plan on replacing it this week. This morning, in between dropping kids off at school and before going to work, I went to the grocery and bought food for a slightly complex dinner this evening. I figure that will take my mind off hitting the couch with an R&C. I know that any time I eat dinner that I am never in the mood to drink afterwards. So, we will see if I can get from 8PM last evening until Wed morning AL free…… It’s 11:30am now and this sounds pretty easy. I’m afraid at around 3PM my plans may change….

We will see…

ItsJustMe

[greeneyes]

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ItsJustMe;936595 wrote: It?s 11:30am now and this sounds pretty easy. I?m afraid at around 3PM my plans may change?.

Don't leave that door open even a teeny crack!! Speak with determination. Send willfulness and commitment coursing through your being. You may change your plans for cooking dinner only to take a brisk walk to change up your enviornment but WILL NOT DRINK! Say it like you mean it. Out loud!! No more "I hope, I might, etc." It is "I CAN, I WILL"!!

[K9Lover]

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3:00pm was always my "weak" moment...even though I work until 5:00. But I'd start planning which liquor store to stop at, gotta go to different ones so as not to appear alcoholic right? IJM, what can you do to "plan" for 3pm when the thoughts start? I ended up on Antabuse, and I still take it daily at 3. Please stay strong...you CAN do this!

[Quit Quitting]

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Wow

This thread really took the bull by the horns. If you can't handle the truth then why are you here? Honesty is what motivates and drives us on to continue our battle with AL. Thankyou a million times Cinders for posting the truth in black and white and not polishing it around the edges. I have a problem with AL, we all have a problem with AL otherwise we would not be here. I missed out on the major wotsit post but sounds like it was offensive.

Please please please do not let anyone ruin what this site gives to me and lots of others.

QQ

[Guest]

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K9

I was the same - I'd plan ahead and once I'd decided I was drinking, then I was even if it wasn't until 10pm that evening it was set in stone. These days I have to make sure I don't DECIDE.