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[big mo]

I just cant stop drinking, I have tried everything over the last number of years but always slip back to drinking, I drink a 70cl bottle of vodka every day and no matter how hungover i feel each morning and full of good intentions by 7.00 pm i justify having a drink and promising tomorrow i will stop, my drinking has progressively got worse and i recently moved house which was very stressful and i justified drinking every night telling my family and myself that i would cut down when we were sorted and moved in. I have been to my doctor and he has refered me to the community addictions team but they cant see me for at least a month, my daily promises to go back to AA meetings never happen, My problem is in the past any time i have managed to stay off drink for 2-3 days after a binge lasting several weeks i tell myself i can control my drinking and i enjoy a drink and then slip back to my normal drinking daily. the frustating thing is i was illhealth retired from my job 6 years ago owing to heart problems caused by alcohol abuse and i know in my heart it is going to end my life sooner rather than later , I dont do anything i lie about the house most days , My life would be good if i could stop drinking as i have a great family who put up with my drinking and moods, my wife does'nt drink and my daughters are grown up and dont bring drink in the house, Any helpful advice would be appriciated although i have been drinking and trying to stop and failed that many times i really have given up, in my head i am going to go to bed some night and just not wake up, I really have given up on life because of my drinking.

[hawaii]

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Hi big mo,
I read your post and didn't want you feel alone.Do you take medication and supps to help you?Also if you have ever tried it,acupuncture and hypnotherapy are very good.Is there anyone you could talk to while you are waiting on your appt to say how you feel and you might open up and relay your fears?It's terrible when you are afraid and you have no one to confide these fears in.Your family sound wonderful but if that was me i might be afraid to say to them how afraid i was for my health in case they said it was my own fault for drinking.They mighn't but i would already second guess them and then drink more to allay fears.There is always an excuse to drink!Why not change it and find an excuse to show your family how much you love them?Ask them for support in trying to stop and use everything at your disposal to help you.I'm only learning myself but i find supps,sleep,relaxation measures,exercise,prayer,good diet and the company of those who truly love us(not a bottle) to be infinately better than any alcoholic drink.Why?Because it lasts and lasts and never goes away!(unlike alcohol)Take care,
love,Hawaii.xx.

[Marshy]

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Hi big mo,

You say you've tried everything but it sounds as though you give up when you don't get instant results. You say you'll go to AA but you don't go, you've been on this site for over three years but how often do you visit? You promise your family that you'll stop tomorrow but tomorrow never comes.

Giving up drinking is hard work. It doesn't just magically happen for people like us, we have to work at it every day.

Think about what you can do differently. How are you going to distract yourself when you want to drink? What are you going to drink instead of alcohol? You need to make big changes to your habits and your life. How are you going to do that?

Read this fantastic post and get a plan together. https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...ing-43990.html

[big mo]

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Thanks for your replies i appreciate you taking the time, tonight i am not drinking thank god so a descent nights sleep ahead hopefully, I spent time reading other peoples stories and can relate to so many, not worrying about tomorrow until it comes as need to get through today , hopefully this will be the turning point and i will finally get it right, thanks Mo:thanks:

[hawaii]

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Goodnite and sleep well Mo.Never give up.
take care,
hawaii.

[big mo]

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Morning all and special hi to Hawaii and Marshy and thank you again for your kind words, First day AF over and although no hangover still feel rough as it will take a few days for the effects of the alcohol to ease, To be honest im scared as i have failed so many times before after the first day or so however i found reading other peoples stories and info on here helps so guess the sensible thing is to keep reading, im working tonight to 11pm and the norm was to come home and start drinking until the early hours but going to take a chill pil and go straight to bed (hopefully). If i do get the urge to drink im going to come back on here and hopefully get another good nights sleep and another day AF. I found the "How to stop drinking" post very good reading and am going to make a big effort to try and change my whole life style . Well i will go for now hopefully be back later in fact not hopefully i will be back later. good luck and thank you all

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hello Big Mo, sounds like you really want this to stop, good on you. Do keep coming back, read and post, you can do this.

[Zeppie2]

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Hiya Big Mo, KT is right and you do sound like this time you really want to stop. Get the idea of moderation out of your head, some people (me included) just can't do it. I tried after 5 months AF and ended back right where I started again. You will feel like crud for a few days, that's to be expected but believe me it just keeps getting better and better.
good luck

[Panno]

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Hi Big Mo

Nice to meet you, I'm not at a stage in my journey to give wise advice but I have copied below a thought of the day I read yesterday which I hope helps you, take care and well done on being AF yesterday

Changing

The old saying is true: You can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink. It's the same with addiction and recovery. People can take away our drugs and put us in treatment, but no one can make us clean and sober.

When it hurts enough, when we're scared enough, when we're sick and tired enough, when we've lost enough, then we'll begin to change. But we have to want to change. It's the key.

What am I willing to do to recover?

Higher Power, help me to want what I need; to want what is best for me.

[hawaii]

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good morning big mo

Hiya big mo,
thinking of you and sending you as much support and strength as i can.you sound very like my youngest brother in your drinking.he has heart problem,liver damage and pancreatitis,high blood pressure,and got a tear in his gut a coupla months ago which was agony,all from drink and he is only 34.He drinks vodka too.At least a bottle straight.He has been fine for 4 weeks now and goes to alcohol counsellor,hynotherapy,acupuncture,takes campral,goes to AA.the times he slipped were when he stopped doing these as he thought he'd be fine.I suppose it would be like a diabetic not taking their insulin and expecting to be fine.I'm not as bad(yet!).I have to be very careful myself which is why i am on this journey.I headed down a very bad road a coupla years ago but i found a side road leading back and i'm keeping going down it.I might accidently take a slip road but i'll get back pretty quick(with the help of god).Do whatever it takes tonight not to succumb to the devil drink.Take care,
luv,Hawaii.PEACE.:l

[Marshy]

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Hi big mo,

I used to do that - finish work at 11pm some nights, then go home and drink until 2am. Ugg, horrible. I think reading posts here does help - to see how other people deal with the desire to drink and how they have changed their lives. And you can read at any time of night to distract you from drinking.

Have you found the toolbox thread yet? https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html
There are practical ideas about how to make progress.

Keep posting to let us know how you're getting on.

[big mo]

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Hi all the apointment for the addictions team came today, 25 of this month which is brilliant as i was'nt expecting to get it until next month at the earliest. I,m well pleased

[hawaii]

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Hi Mo,
Thats great!i sent you a message earlier but i accidently put it on my own post so if you want to look there you'll see it!Obviously i have damaged my brain somewhat:H.though thats not really that funny!
Good luck and take care,
Hawaii.xx

[big mo]

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Hi all still hanging in there this is coming to the end of my 3rd day and at the minute feeling good, got a craving around teatime which is when i would get my drinking planned but got through it so going to take the wee dog for a walk and then go to bed and thats 3 days AF wow im chuffed but still scared as tomorrows friday and not going to get to over confidant, hope every is keeping well .
:thanks:

[big mo]

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:thanks:Hello to all, day 5 today and dont know if its just the habit of drinking every day or my body is still dealing with the symptions of withdrawl as i feel like crap, not the usual hungover numb brain crap but upset stomach on a downer crap, Yesterday morning was great and felt on top the world and really confidant , was worried about wanting to drink last night as its the weekend so rang the doctor and got some librium but when 7pm, my drinking time came i had really bad cravings, how or why i didnt drink i really dont know, for about 3 hours i sat like a zombie not talking to anyone just feeling sorry for myself, i went through all the excuses in my head to justify drinking however as i said thankfully i didnt, Nobody said this would be easy and i really am thankful i didnt drink but scared tonight i will give in to the urges, Has anyone else experianced these feelings , i know good advice is to have a plan and something else to do but if drinks in my head its hard to get it out. Thanks for reading and as my title says moaning again but i suspose i should be thankful i didnt drink Mo