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[partygirl]

I have been binge drinking for 20 years now. It started innocently as a teenager, then into my 20's I would drink 3-4 nights aweek but so did all my friends, I was just more excessive. I am now happliy married have 2 beautiful kids, but still cant not stop when I start. I know I have a problem because I blackout all the time and it scares the crap out of me. I have lost hours and hours because of my drinking, wake with bruises that I have no idea how I got. I have tried to have just one or two and sometimes i can do that, but most of the time when I drink I get wasted. This happens atleast 2-3 times a month now. I only drink socailly on weekends, but my weekends always end up messy. I hate myself for it, I am so embarrassed and I wish I could just stop, but although i loath myself when I drink (and have done for years) I still find away to forget about the last time and do it again. I have a drinking problem. I dont want to be the party girl anymore, I know I dont want to, I just dont know how. How to say no at socail events and break this hell that is going to destroy my life......:new:

[southernbelle47]

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Welcome Party no more girl!

Good job on taking the first step.. Read all you can here about this disease and start to make your plan.
You will find support here.

I too am a "binge" drinker.
Don't be afraid to share your heart here.

Belle

[Jewels83]

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partygirl;934075 wrote: I have been binge drinking for 20 years now. It started innocently as a teenager, then into my 20's I would drink 3-4 nights aweek but so did all my friends, I was just more excessive. I am now happliy married have 2 beautiful kids, but still cant not stop when I start. I know I have a problem because I blackout all the time and it scares the crap out of me. I have lost hours and hours because of my drinking, wake with bruises that I have no idea how I got. I have tried to have just one or two and sometimes i can do that, but most of the time when I drink I get wasted. This happens atleast 2-3 times a month now. I only drink socailly on weekends, but my weekends always end up messy. I hate myself for it, I am so embarrassed and I wish I could just stop, but although i loath myself when I drink (and have done for years) I still find away to forget about the last time and do it again. I have a drinking problem. I dont want to be the party girl anymore, I know I dont want to, I just dont know how. How to say no at socail events and break this hell that is going to destroy my life......:new:

You're life sounds like mine.....99%......since I'm not married or have kids......probably due to my alcohol problem....

Hang in there girl....try your hardest.....I've read so many stories of people losing their husband and kids due to their AL problem.....don't let it go that far...make a choice....alcohol or your family....

Much love. xxx PM if you want.

[mama bear]

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welcome partygirl
this is a warm,supportive family that is here for you....
order the book and supplements...then decide if u want to try meds...
in the meantime...post.vent.cry here.....tell us about yourself

[bear73]

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I identify with that too - except for kids! I am 37 and have drank socially since 15 - too muc - prevously every night minimum 4 pints - last few years stopped week drinking/socialising and now it's weekends when i binge drink(planned not to drink last sat - 4 pints later...)

It's false confidence for me and I'm working on finding real confidence - I have depression and anxiety/low self esteem / workign on it BUT sad thing is i started social drinking to lessen these problems- think it actually increased/caused them!

Keep reading - it's one day at a time for me at the moment - i work/am healthy(so far) BUT need to change to feel better physically and mentally,trying to think of booze as the poison it is.

good to have you here - monthly abs also has a daily af thread which i have found massively supportive/inspiring - lots of long time af people there as well as newbies

[neart]

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:welcome: partynomore,
sounds quite like me, except for the hubbie and kids
Binge drinking, every Friday and Saturday. I used to drink now and again during the week, but I had cut that back cause i just couldn't get out of bed in teh mornings. Like you were saying, I just don't like who I am when I'm drunk - I'm a pain and a loudmouth. The hangovers were an absolute killer, and I had landed myself in hospital last year with concussion. Took me a long, long time to accept that I had a problem (still coming to terms with that) but I do know that although life hasn''t suddenly turned into a bed of roses since I stopped about a month ago, I do feel more even, the guilt in the mornings is gone, I don't have to worry what I said, the list of benefits keeps going on. I just have to remember all that... I hope you stick around and read some threads, pop into newbies nest maybe - find somewhere you feel comfortable - I couldn't have stayed sober this long (today is my 5th sober Saturday in a row - unheard of before! - without the support I've found here. Wishing you the best of luck and fair play for taking this step x