another problem is, i have so many bottle shops around me. It is almost impossible to give up living here... (my concern is that if i lived away from alcohol, i would end up drink driving to find it, or buy it in bulk anyway)..
I dunno... I know i need to stop (cognitively, in my "mind"), but i cannot... And, in some ways, i don't want to. Alcohol is my only friend. It doesn't let me down like other people do (i know you will probably say it does, but it doesn't feel that way...).
Sorry for ranting, i know it's very irresponsible of me to post here. I wonder what withdrawal will feel like? Today i went to the cinema and at about 3pm, felt nausious... I figured it was the beginnings of withdrawal.
Comment