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[jodiex]

Its been a wonderful day today, kids had dinner, walked with my daughters and grandson for 2 hours in the lovely weather,my baby (age 9) is home from holidays and in bed sleeping, braids in her hair and a lovely colour bless her.

Had a "moment" this evening, i thought what a lovely day wouldn't it be nice to have a beer, thought it through and didn't, but the head space it got was for about 3 hours, (will i wont i,think of the last few days,is it worth it) the lot, the battle that went on in my head was terrible.

So grateful to be here

thanks:thanks:

[Doggygirl]

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We're glad you are here too Jodiex. Just know that everyone goes through this. They don't call AL "cunning, baffling and powerful" for nothin'. It does get easier eventually! Keep taking it one day (or hour or minute) at a time. Together we can do this.

DG

[not tonight]

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Great job! Glad you are here too!

[sunray]

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Hi jodiex, well done for not giving in- am a newby and on day 7 (which is almost over) and ye weather was nice today and like you- for a couple of hours i was doing - will i - won't i- maybe just few glasses wine and start back tomorrow- anyway made a stong coffee instead and i certainly feel the better for it now but gosh- all that running commentry in your head!! it just wears ya out, anyway well done again xx

[jodiex]

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divine insperation

I find it so strange that these thoughts can go through your head and then lo and behold...........i had to bring my sister to the swift at 7.30pm this evening, in my head it was oh my god how long will she be the of-licence shuts at 10pm, went into the clinic and met a man from AA whom id known 3 years ago,we chatted and he said"come back carol we miss you"

I just thought, people are put in your path for a reason??? anyone else ever find that???

[Chillgirl]

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Jodie - Great job in fighting the voice in the head! As time goes on you will become skilled at this and be able to dismiss the "monster" talk quite quickly. When he starts just remember all the reasons why you dont want to drink and that there is no such thing as "just one". Its poison that distorts your brain.....

Keep up the good work, and Sunray! Congrats on day 7 :wd:

[techie]

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jodiex;941445 wrote: I find it so strange that these thoughts can go through your head and then lo and behold...........i had to bring my sister to the swift at 7.30pm this evening, in my head it was oh my god how long will she be the of-licence shuts at 10pm, went into the clinic and met a man from AA whom id known 3 years ago,we chatted and he said"come back carol we miss you"

I just thought, people are put in your path for a reason??? anyone else ever find that???

Wow. Amazing how things happen. I expect you will be going back to the meetings?

[Chillgirl]

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jodiex;941445 wrote:
I just thought, people are put in your path for a reason??? anyone else ever find that???

ABSOLUTELY!!!
After a particularly heavy 3 day binge last year I thought to myself I need to give the booze a break... My biggest concern at the time was what to tell my friends (duh!) so I thought I'd make up some fictitious ailment that would render me unable to drink, I googled something about alcohol and low and behold I found MWO! The rest as the say is history

[Lillypond059]

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Hi jodiex
I know what you mean with mind battles, the al was always

[Lillypond059]

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Hi jodiex
I know what you mean with mind battles, the al was always winning with me, utilll the last week, this is my 9th day al free, and I'm hoping I can stay strong, and say no go away I don't need you,[ that is al I mean]Things are getting better between my daughter and me, so thats a good thing.
So pleased you had a good day yesterday.
Lillypond x

[Lillypond059]

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Hi
sorry about the 2 posts, my little dog sat on the keyboard and must of pressed the send button before I was finished, even I don't know the shortcut on how to send, Clever doggie.
Love
Lillypond x

[mojo73]

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Well done

Hi, know exactly what you mean and love the way you've put it. I'm on day 3 and have just cooked a meal without a big glass of wine to accompany me - a first in many years. Have cups of tea just about coming out my pores and constant mind chat about it.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Lilly,
I'm laughing at your doggie sitting on the keyboard...my dog sticks to me like velcro so I do all my posting from work :H
Congratulations on your 9 days AF. I completely understand what you are saying about the mind battles. Have you ever considered taking Antabuse? When I started taking it, my "inner struggle" came to a complete stop, drinking just was NOT an option anymore, so why even think about it? If you need any more information on it, I'll be glad to help as much as I can.
Again, congrats on 9 days, and keep up the good work!
K9

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Hi jodiex,

Your thoughts on AL will get less intense as time goes by. Wait and see. I had a bath today while reading a book. After five minutes I realised that I had not thought about AL. I had "forgotten" to note that I did not have a glass of wine in my hand while having a bath. Now two months ago a bath and a chilled glass of cava went hand in hand. Otherwise what was the point in having a bath? I may as well have had a shower! It's just the addiction fooling you. x

[rebirth]

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Aww K9 your dog is sooo cute!