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[spuddleduck]

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hi dewdrop. you're going into this with a great attitude. youve got 4 days off work so make them important ones. you can rest when you need to and have plenty of ME time. keep us posted on how youre doing

[Chillgirl]

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Dewdrop you are really doing a fantastic job. :goodjob:
You are thinking things through and putting a plan in place is half the battle with AL. Make sure you have ideas about what to do when these thought arise, go for a walk, call a friend, come on here, anything but listen to that voice in your head.

Your healthy eating and meditation will be a great help and your sleep pattern will improve quickly. You could try some herbal sleep tablets, I took nytol for a couple of weeks.

Its lovely to have you on board (I'm a fellow Scot) and I wish you much strength on your journey....:l

[mama bear]

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Good Job Dewdrop...
Like Jackie...I like the idea of a buddhist centre and may have to google for one in my area....
Keep going girl......

[Sunbeam]

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Dewdrop,
It helped me to get serious when I made a list of all the things I hated about drinking to exxess. Others have made lists of things they want to accomplish. Post it on your computer or refrigerator, share with your spouse or a trusted friend, or just post it here with your friends who have been where you are. You can do it, you want to do it, you have to enbrace that thought.

[Dewdrop]

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Up and Down

Well evening of Day 3 and still here but it?s been a bit of a bumpy road today. Couldn?t sleep again last night and found the relaxation tape irritating, finally gave in and got up at 4am, read, made tea, paced up and down so glad there was no poison in the house. Eventually went back to bed at 8.30am and slept till noon and felt a bit better when I woke and the sun was shining. Just don?t know what to do with myself.

Physically I still have a headache, still have a dry mouth and feel dehydrated, tired and weary; and emotionally I am all over the place and weepy ? what a wreck!! So glad I took the time off work or I would have definitely caved in on the way home and bought a bottle (who am I kidding ? 2 bottles) for the start of the weekend. Guess there will be a few feeling like that tonight? :sigh:

I went out for a walk this afternoon and it lifted my spirits for a while so that was good and I went and got some more supplements that I wasn?t able to get yesterday. I?m waiting for the Kuduzu to arrive just hope it doesn?t take too long however know that it?s not a miracle, I need to have the will power. I also bought some Nytol as you suggested Chill so maybe with some sleep I?ll start to feel better.

I?m going to cook some vegetarian food tonight for the meditation day tomorrow but at the moment am in 2 minds whether to go or not as I?m not sure I?m anywhere near in the right frame of mind to deal with it. On the other hand it will fill the whole day and may be the distraction I need. Anyhow I?ll check in later and see how others are doing, it seems to help reading other posts and I'm printing off lots to keep in a folder so that can use it when ofline.

Lots of love to everyone tonight.

[Chillgirl]

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Dewdrop - I also think you should go, its when you're not in the right frame of mind that you need it the most :l

[JackieClaire]

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I'm with Chill on this one, Dewdrop. Give it a go. As my old Granny says it'll get you out of the house. She's still alive and kicking at 96 and hardly ever in.
J x
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[Dewdrop]

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End of Day 5 !

Well it?s Sunday evening and I am nearly at the end of Day 5 AF ? can?t quite believe it myself. I was really worried about the weekend and feeling very shaky on Friday evening, followed the advice of Zenstyle, Chillgirl and JackieClaire though and went to the meditation day on Saturday which was the best thing I could have done. I spent Friday evening busily cooking far too much food but have freezed some so I?ll eat healthily for the next few days, and checking in on the site to keep up with how others are progressing. Still didn?t sleep well even with the Nytol but I think that?s something I?ll just have to put up with for a while and set off early on Saturday.

The day was simply brilliant and just what I needed, the people were all so welcoming and friendly, the setting was beautiful and I loved the meditation. We did the Mindfulness of Breathing, Loving Kindness, a walking meditation and a chanting meditation this was alongside some Buddhist teaching and discussion which really resonated with me. Talk about being in the right place at the right time. :happyheart:

I kept myself busy today by babysitting two of my grandchildren and we made gingerbread men, cookies and made some jellies then packed up a picnic and spent the day at a local beach and play park. We were rained off a couple of times but took refuge in the car till it passed, life is just a big adventure to kids. When I got home after dropping them off I realised that I?d passed a couple of my usual wine shops and hadn?t even thought about booze!

My head was a bit dull and fuzzy this morning but I took some painkillers and haven?t had a headache today and my mood is better. I don?t feel dehydrated anymore and actually think my skin looks better. I am really hoping for a good sleep tonight as I am tired from all that running about today after a 4 year old and a 1 year old. If I can keep this up I?m going to join Sunbeam?s September Challenge, there seem to be a few of us Newbie?s at the same stage at the moment and it would be great to support each other.

Apologies for another long update but it's helpful to me to put it all down.

Dewdrop :h

[Chillgirl]

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Dewdrops - Wow you are doing fantastic! You have made such a great effort to keep yourself busy and not allow time to dwell on drinking. You should be very proud and I'm glad you are seeing how quickly your body benefits from abstaining. Your Buddhist day sounds wonderful, I love days like that.

As for Sunbeams September challenge, tell yourself you CAN keep this up! It would be great for you to join this thread and check in with everyone there to support each other. You can do this Dewdrop, you have the determination and all the reasons in the world to want to. :l

[Pride before Fall]

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Hi Dew,

You really came out swinging! Good for you! :goodjob:

You might want to try the MWO Drink Tracker. It's kind of pathetic how excited I get typing in a "zero" each morning, and it's motivating (for me, anyway) to watch the string of abstinent days get longer and longer.

Welcome to My Way Out

This is my favorite thread for reminding me why I'm doing this:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...ing-22609.html

Nice to meet you!

Pride

[JackieClaire]

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Dewdrops, this is fantastic to read. Doing exactly what's recommended. Busy, busy is good.

A little hint about the Nytol, it used to make me feel a bit groggy and dry mouthed in the morning, so I switched to the Boots own brand. Not only is it cheaper but I don't feel so wooly headed in the morning.

Now a question for you. Did you ring the Buddhist place before you went?

J x
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[Dewdrop]

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Day 6

Evening everyone, Day 6 coming to a close and I?m feeling good today!

Thanks Chill, you are right (how did you become so wise?) and I have joined Sunbeam and the others for the September Challenge. Attitude is key for me in being successful and I am now starting to believe that I actually can do this.

Pride before Fall I haven?t looked at the Drink Tracker so far as I was assuming that was for those moderating but will check it out, I've printed off the info on Things I Hate...About Drink, thanks for the advice.

JackieClaire thanks for your continued support, I did ring to check things out but they said just to turn up anyway so I didn?t need to book. I have tried meditation before but never kept it up but this time I am determined that it becomes a regular practice.

Feel very positive tonight as I have now accepted that moderation is not for me, the sense of freedom lifts my spirits and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. I have a long way to go but know that I am now on the right path.

Dewdrop :h

[Chillgirl]

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Dewdrop I see myself in the so many starting out here and I get so excited to think they can have what I now have. I KNOW you can change your life, you have the attitude to do it :l

[JackieClaire]

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Dewdrop,
Thanks for the info, I've passed the door to the centre here many times and have never plucked up the courage to go in. It's now defo on my to do list.
J x
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[rebirth]

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Dew how exciting to read your posts. I remember my first AL free week. I was so proud of myself ( still am now but the first week was unforgettable). I suffered from sleepless nights, headaches, severe cravings, extreme highs and lows too. But just tell the craving to F...off! Everyone told me that it would get easier and they are right! I dont have cravings anymore and I am living life without drinking.

You can do it!! x