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[hdb]

I have been away for ages (didn?t feel worthy of being here) :upset: What the heck is wrong with me???? I am ashamed that I cannot stop shovelling a liquid down my throat - it was supposed to be the last drink last night but I have had two at lunch. My stomach is so bloated and I am so very worried that that is my liver and I know I won't get a second chance there. I am permanently tired and nauseous what the hell will it take??? I don?t want to do this anymore soooo soooo tired :upset:

[tlrgs]

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well hdb glad to see you arent giveing up and by coming and post shows you want change and just keep on doing it small steps and you will get to where you want to be in life but one day at a time

[Guest]

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There is a simple solution, it's just getting there that's the difficult bit. Slow down and have a read around, then decide what's the best way for you.

[hdb]

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Thank you ukblonde and tlrgs, sick of fighting with the horrible thing, I have been through the MYO program (book and supps only) and did really well but then seem to fall flat on my face! I am going to sort it this time it takesover my life

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hi hdb, welcome back. Just pick up and start again is all you can do. Remember what worked for you before and write a list of how you are feeling right now, it will be useful to look back on in a couple of days when, if you are anything like me, you will feel grand and the cravings will come calling. Take it ODAT and try not to look too far ahead, read, post and come and ask for help if you are struggling. You can do this.
Keep safe
KTAB

[Doggygirl]

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Welcome back hdb. Make a plan and go for it. If the plan doesn't work, change it. Be willing to do whatever it takes. Will power and wishing to stop don't work for most of us - it takes more. You can do it!

DG

[ItsJustMe]

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Hi hdb –

Folks much wiser than me have given you some great advise already. Just curious, you went AF for a while. What was your trigger than made you fall? Wondering if it was stress, environment, wrong place at the wrong time? I think that it’s important that you reflect on that and see if you can ID what made you start drinking again.

Good Luck to you!!!

ItsJustMe
AF since 8/21/10

[hdb]

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Hi Itsjustme

Thanks for the good luck I managed to moderate for a couple of months after my AF (the AF period was using the vitamins and supplements recommended in the book from this site). Since then I have been good, bad and now very bad :upset: I would say that the very bad could be attributed to some changes I made career wise but then again I am aware that that is no excuse for falling back into dreadful habits.

I think what I have learnt is that when I completed my period of AF I thought I had regained control and that alcohol was no longer controlling me ... hmmmm now that was a big fat stinking mistake!!!! I think I will always have to be wary around alcohol and have set in concrete rules for when and how much I can consume once the AF period is complete. I hope that I can achieve that, I have to or else it will have to be total abstinence.

AF since the 21/8/2010 that?s great itsjustme!! well done and good luck with your journey.

Thank you KTAB, Sheri & Doggygirl for your support ? can I just say how much I admire your commitment to this site and all the people like me you have helped along the way... and how you still open your arms even when we disappear and then come back hanging our heads in shame..

[dorsetdude]

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Hi hdb, i understand what you are saying, i joined here 3 years ago because of my binge drinking, i went af for 3 months, but here i am again worse than ever, i wish you every strength in reaching your goal. I downloaded the book yesterday and bought the vitamins today (excluding topamax) how did you get on with the vitamins, did they help?

[hdb]

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Hi Dorsetdude

The first time (this will be my second time) I bought all that was recommended in the book and they have since updated what is in the book here:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f7...-faq-3968.html

I found the All One Original powder vile but stuck with it because its so important, this time I have ordered the All One travel tablets instead but I would recommend the power rather than these (having spoken to some members on MWO) as I think they have more vits n sups in them. Its OK takin the tablets and I definately think that they helped me. Are you now AF? I messed up again lastnight, I really am pathetic :upset:

Monday is AF day 1!

[dorsetdude]

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Hi hdb, where did you get the All One from? I drank a vodka cranberry last night to take the edge off, but feel ok, am still looking to moderate but think thats a way off yet. Don't be to hard on yourself, its just going to take time, you know that. Everytime you mess up try and remember how you feel and hopefully that will give you more strength for the next day.

[gyco]

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willing

hdb;952739 wrote: I have been away for ages (didn?t feel worthy of being here) :upset: What the heck is wrong with me???? I am ashamed that I cannot stop shovelling a liquid down my throat - it was supposed to be the last drink last night but I have had two at lunch. My stomach is so bloated and I am so very worried that that is my liver and I know I won't get a second chance there. I am permanently tired and nauseous what the hell will it take??? I don?t want to do this anymore soooo soooo tired :upset:

hi hdb,:welcome:youve made the 1st step,:goodjob:committment,i wont lecture you,if youvebeen here b4,you no you belong here,and this site could save your life,or maybe make it longer,one way or the other,toayal sobriety or lerning how to drink[moderation]for many is not an option,iwish you well gyco:thanks:

[hdb]

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Thank you very much for welcoming me back gyco, yes I do belong here and it certainly was a mistake to leave here and to not give this HUGE problem the attention and respect (if thats the right word ... I hate it don't respect it) it deserves. Well I do now thats for sure...... I thought I had cracked it but now I know its just not that easy and will be a life long commitment

[hdb]

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Hi thanks dorsetdude, I got the All One from vitacost, I think they were the cheapest at the time - there is a voucher code in the back of the book which gives you a discount from the All One website - have you got that? Good luck with your journey, I am on day 1 today ... onwards and upwards