Hiya all
Well I haven't posted for a while because I have been drinking rather a lot.. just to recap I had 42 days AF during July/August.. then drank for 2 weeks and then AF for 10 days. I was going well..... I thought
Then the holidays came around and I met someone I knew already and liked but had never wanted to go any further because I knew he was, like me, a heavy drinker. But sometimes in the life loneliness and boredom take over and before I knew it we were drinking heavily for 5 days... those days consisted of drinking, listening to loud music, hardly eating, not taking any supplements, minimal water, talking bullshit and not remembering.... but it was fun and despite feeling like shit I enjoyed it.
I woke up today, couldn't take my son to school because of the hangover and didn't want the other mums in their jogging jear to see me looking so bad.
I decided I can no longer see this person, despite having a great rapport with him, because I fear falling into that pattern of binge drinking... I felt very sad about that because I now realise that as a single person there will always be people I will not be able to hook up with because they have the same alcohol related problems as me and it is not healthy. ( We would have only ever been filling in time anyway because we are both leaving Asia at the end of the year and going to different places... but I had thoughts of a fun last 3 months here)
But I feel my AF must come first at this time at the expense of loneliness and boredom, I think??.
It would be so so difficult not to have mad binges with this man and I want to get back on track.....and I know I can again do that.
Oh sometimes the choices we must make can be so difficult
Take Care
Patrice
Well I haven't posted for a while because I have been drinking rather a lot.. just to recap I had 42 days AF during July/August.. then drank for 2 weeks and then AF for 10 days. I was going well..... I thought
Then the holidays came around and I met someone I knew already and liked but had never wanted to go any further because I knew he was, like me, a heavy drinker. But sometimes in the life loneliness and boredom take over and before I knew it we were drinking heavily for 5 days... those days consisted of drinking, listening to loud music, hardly eating, not taking any supplements, minimal water, talking bullshit and not remembering.... but it was fun and despite feeling like shit I enjoyed it.
I woke up today, couldn't take my son to school because of the hangover and didn't want the other mums in their jogging jear to see me looking so bad.
I decided I can no longer see this person, despite having a great rapport with him, because I fear falling into that pattern of binge drinking... I felt very sad about that because I now realise that as a single person there will always be people I will not be able to hook up with because they have the same alcohol related problems as me and it is not healthy. ( We would have only ever been filling in time anyway because we are both leaving Asia at the end of the year and going to different places... but I had thoughts of a fun last 3 months here)
But I feel my AF must come first at this time at the expense of loneliness and boredom, I think??.
It would be so so difficult not to have mad binges with this man and I want to get back on track.....and I know I can again do that.
Oh sometimes the choices we must make can be so difficult
Take Care
Patrice
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