Hanging on by a thread

[angel77]

Hanging on by a thread

Accountable for me, thank you

[choice]

Hanging on by a thread

Hang in there it gets better. I think around day ten I completely freaked out. I'm at day 18af and my thinking is much clearer. Week one and two were really challenging. I didn't have physical cravings but serious mental ones. Like, "who am I kidding I'm really not that bad"... "I don't have to do this"..."I can always start this later"....

The 30 day AF plan is what kept me from just caving in and buying a bottle, and sometimes just remembering that I'll regret breaking up my days in the morning. I don't want to start over... :h

[angel77]

Hanging on by a thread

Hey Choice, yes I must say a few thoughts similar to those have certainly crossed my mind! The thought of starting over I think is def enough to keep me going...thanks

Angel

[dorsetdude]

Hanging on by a thread

Had a small vodak cranberry last night, feel a little let down that i did that, feel worse that i had a blazing row with the b/f, i feel quite freaked out and irratable at the moment? brain feels quite spacey and have had 2 sleepless nights? all part of the course i suppose?

[taytayhi5]

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Angel,
Keep at it. This sucks. We all know it. We all wish we didn't have this illness. It sucks to drink and it sucks to be sober, but only at first...so I hear. It will get easier and you will get stronger. Keep ip the fight. Lean on MWO. Keep yourself busy.
Sending you all my postive energy from MN
~t.

[angel77]

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hey dude, mind if I can you dude? haha. Oh that isn't good to hear! Look on the brightside, at least it didn't turn into three or four. I think it's good you stopped at one. (something I find hard to do...) Were you drinking while fighting with the b/f? Yes, I felt like a real space cadet in the first week. Also I haven't been sleeping that well but it is better now then when I first started. I know it sounds kind of weird, but try buying a insomnia hypnosis cd. I listen to mine all the time.

P.s have you been taking the vitamins?

Angel

[angel77]

Hanging on by a thread

hi t, thank you so much.. yes it does suck just a little I have to say... thanks for the positive energy too!!

Angel

[Peacefull]

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Hi Angel,

Fairly new here myself, Day 13...we can totally understand what you are going through. Yesterday was a tough one for me with the mental cravings....made it through and feel stronger today. One day at a time, when I think about never drinking again I freak and the thoughts start, so I am really taking it one day at a time and today I am not drinking.

Hang in there, there will be lots of bumps but in addition lots of wonderful feelings.

Peace

[angel77]

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Hi Peace, I think my craving's are more leaning towards mental then physical as well. I am craving sweet thing's a lot though. Maybe as AL has heaps of sugar and my body is adjusting. Yeah, NEVER drinking again... that is so crazy. Congratulation's on day 13!!! Whooo hooo Thanks for your post..keep posting.

Angel

[dorsetdude]

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Hi Angel, cool to call me Dude! For once i wasn't drinking when we had the fight, all is ok now though. Yep started the vits yesterday afternoon, then forgot to take mid morning supply so have just doubled up on the lunchtime round (is that wise?). I have got the hypno cd's on order from here, not sure how long they will take to get delivered from the states, head is still fuzzy, prickly, tense if that makes sense.
I'm so glad to have you to chat with and all the other great people on here, its such a comfort and help x

[angel77]

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Sup Dude, haha Well that's good then! Oh, hmmm I don't think you should have doubled maybe waited, until the next dose but meh. I don't think you will die or anything Hopefully the cds will arrive soon, and then you can get yourself into a routine. Yes I have seriously never spent so much time on my comp but you are right it is really comforting talking to others who know exactly what you are going through!