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    Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

    My confession is that I called in sick to work (again) because I felt so awful this morning after last night's vodka binge. Today I claimed to have a fever. Last week I stayed home 2 days with my "bad back."

    This has got to end. I am lying to my boss. I am lying to my kids. My family. Myself.

    As I lay there in my bed hating myself and feeling like there was no way out....I remembered reading MWO about 2 years ago and decided to re-read it. And, so, here I am.

    I have read some of the posts here and notice that people are posting about feeling really sick as they stop drinking. I'm worried about that. Does everyone get sick when they stop drinking?

    #2
    Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

    Hi Lisi, Welcome back. I was a very heavy drinker but didnt get sick when I stopped. ..my sleep patterns were odd and I always woke up thinking I had a hangover. Otherwise I didnt get the shakes etc.
    I use to drink about a bottle of wine per night during the week and weekends I drank nonstop whenever I could. I always had a hangover at the weekends and sometimes during the week. When it was affecting work I knew I had to stop. Best of luck to you. The guys on here are great. x
    Be strong-
    We define ourselves by the best that is in us, not the worse that has been done to us.
    Be constructive. Clear the word of CAN'T

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      #3
      Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

      :welcome:LISIMI, you have made a good start by coming on here, every one is so friendly and helpfull, take the supps, read the posts, I spend a lot of time on here, its helped me greatly,I'm on day 25AF, with thanks to the folks here, there will be others along soon, that will be more helpfull to you, and give you good advice. I've been taking one day at a time, as I don;t want to think think too far ahead,
      All the very best Lilly x

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        #4
        Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

        Thank you, rebirth. I realize that feeling crappy during withdrawel is better than the umpteen hangovers I have endured. But I was worried it would affect my work. Which sounds so stupid, as the drinking affects my work now...

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          #5
          Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

          LISIMI;955734 wrote: My confession is that I called in sick to work (again) because I felt so awful this morning after last night's vodka binge. Today I claimed to have a fever. Last week I stayed home 2 days with my "bad back."

          This has got to end. I am lying to my boss. I am lying to my kids. My family. Myself.

          As I lay there in my bed hating myself and feeling like there was no way out....I remembered reading MWO about 2 years ago and decided to re-read it. And, so, here I am.

          I have read some of the posts here and notice that people are posting about feeling really sick as they stop drinking. I'm worried about that. Does everyone get sick when they stop drinking?
          HI Lisimi:welcome:

          Your story sounds so much like my own. You say that you are lying in your bed feeling like there is no way out...well the good news is that there most definitely is I was calling in sick from work all the time and using all the excuses under the sun...bad back.the flu, you name-I had it. We have all been through the same things - lying to family, kids to ourselves. Dont beat yourself up about it you have come to the right place.

          Your question about getting sick when stopping drinking, well that depends on how much you have been drinking, for how long and what you have been drinking. If you would like to share that information then we would have a better idea about whether you would suffer withdrawals or not. Some people need medically assisted detox with drugs like librium or valium and others can do it by themselves by using supplements and keeping themselves properly hydrated. Have you tried to give up before? Can you ask your doctor for help? It varies a lot from person to person as to how they cope with withdrawal, some others have to taper off the alcohol over a period of time and not go "cold turkey"...can you tell me a bit more about your drinking pattern?
          I am a part of the family of humanity. Not one person on this earth is a stranger to me. Rev. Ted Noffs

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            #6
            Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

            I need a quick lesson. AF I presume is Alcohol Free. Any other acronyms I should be aware of?

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              #7
              Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

              It varies a lot from person to person as to how they cope with withdrawal, some others have to taper off the alcohol over a period of time and not go "cold turkey"...can you tell me a bit more about your drinking pattern?

              Sapphire1, my pattern is to pour the first drink as soon as I walk in the door after work. Every day. Usually wine, but I am no stranger to vodka or beer. I always finish the bottle and sometimes open a second bottle but don't finish that one. Last night I drank most of a 750ml bottle of vodka. On Saturday I drank 9 beers outside in my garage while claiming to be detailing my car. My "moderation button" is broken. Once I start, I cannot stop. I don't think about alcohol at all during the workday. But I'm planning that first drink on my drive home. Walk through the door... and pour. I can't tell you how many times I've gone to work with a hangover. I am surprised on the days I wake up feeling good. How sad is that? Surprised?!?!?

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                #8
                Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                Lisi that sounds exactly like me. I am described as a functioning alcoholic cause I still had a career, the house, the kids. On the outside world I looked fine ( except when they see me at some social event where they is drinking involved) but on the inside I was screaming. I never drank first thing in the morning before work , nor during work. But it would be the first priority once work was over. When I didnt work I noticed that I would drink throughout the day. There was no stop button.
                I am just about understanding the lingo on here too. ..AF means alcohol free, AL means alcohol, happy hump day is wednesday, Happy unhung dauy is opposite of hungover...There's more but I cant remmeber
                Be strong-
                We define ourselves by the best that is in us, not the worse that has been done to us.
                Be constructive. Clear the word of CAN'T

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                  #9
                  Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                  Hi sapphire too.
                  oh. It's late so I am off to sleep.Catch up later Lisi. Take it one day at a time. Thats how I started and I never thought I would get this far.
                  Be strong-
                  We define ourselves by the best that is in us, not the worse that has been done to us.
                  Be constructive. Clear the word of CAN'T

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                    #10
                    Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                    The first thing that you need to do is decide if you want to stop right now. If you make that decision, then have a plan in place to make that happen. Go to the tool box thread on this site and you will find a huge list of things to help you get started and on your journey. When I give up, I get fluid replacement drinks such as gatorade (water isnt enough due to electrolyte loss), magnesium, vitamin C, Vitamin B complex, VItamin B3 and a multi vitamin. I also take A liver cleansing powder by Dr. Sandra Cabot called Liver Tone mixed up in fruit or vegetable juice twice a day to help the detox. If you do stop drinking suddenly it is best to stop on a weekend and plan to rest completely, drink a lot of fluid; have warm baths; listen to calming music; eat small nutritious meals and really take a lot of loving care of yourself. It may take up to ten days to detox or as little as three or four as everyone is different but it is so worth it. I used to drink wine and vodka and like you, lost the moderation button...would sneak off and drink and couldnt stop...its a terrrible way to live and very lonely...but you arent on your own and you can get over it.
                    I am a part of the family of humanity. Not one person on this earth is a stranger to me. Rev. Ted Noffs

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                      #11
                      Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                      Hi Lisimi, I am doing a course right now and I would have a binge one night and seriously have to miss two day's to recover from it. The guilt and stress that comes from A. Lying to my teacher B. missing work and having to catch up is horrible. I have more times then I want to admit, "Oh, I have just have a really bad fever." So you are not alone there. I am currently 11 days AF and hope to keep going. Goodluck with everything.

                      Angel
                      Courage is not the absence of fear, it's acting in spite of it.

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                        #12
                        Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                        Lisi, you are so welcome:welcome: Sapphire and Rebirth have pretty much covered all bases so you are armed with knowledge from them. My tuppence worth, when I started stopping I was so overawed by the whole thing that even the tiniest thing could seem insurmountable. Yes the vitamins and supplements are great but if needs be you can leave them for a week or so until your brain unmuddles - do drink plenty of water, lemon squeezed in is good. People who drink an awful lot and stop dead CAN get seizures and DTs - IMHO I wouldn't imagine your drinking would lead to that, but what would I know. Like Sapphire says maybe start at the weekend and with someone around you can call on - personally I would always advise going to the doc first, if for nothing else but moral support, but they can give you meds that really help the first week or so.
                        The first three days I stopped I couldn't eat at work, my hands shook so much I couldn't risk anyone seeing me trying to get anything from the table to my mouth. After 3 days I started feeling better and better and WOW life is still out there waiting for you - and it's great!
                        Molly
                        Contentedly sober since 27/12/2011
                        contentedly NF since 8/04/14

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                          #13
                          Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                          Oh yes! Life is great without the misery of drink!
                          Be strong-
                          We define ourselves by the best that is in us, not the worse that has been done to us.
                          Be constructive. Clear the word of CAN'T

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                            #14
                            Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                            Welcome to MWO,

                            I went through extreme anxiety and insomnia the first couple of days. Oh ya, not to mention an out of control appetite. I think it was from the anxiety and also my body was getting use to all the AL calories that it's not getting anymore.

                            Day 13 for me, after a week I was on top of the world and now I am going through the mental cravings...There are lots of ups and downs but I know from quitting in the past the downs get farther and fewer between.

                            Peace

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                              #15
                              Brand new here...just starting out...confession time

                              Hi Lisimi and Welcome!
                              I can sure relate to what you're going through. I used to call in sick to work all the time, I had every possible malady known to man. Then I'd come in the next day and just laugh it off and say "Well I guess I'm a Lemon" (you know, like a car that always has something wrong with it).
                              I recently just had a "slip" after a LONG period of being alcohol free. All I can say is it was NOT worth it. Do whatever it takes to get some AF time under your belt. You will notice a huge difference in how you feel (both mentally and physically).
                              Again, welcome...and keep us posted on how you are doing!
                              K9
                              :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

                              Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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