Never Giving Up

[K9Lover]

Never Giving Up

Hi Gaia! I ran out of my Antabuse about 2 weeks ago. I should have immediately refilled it, but I stupidly became overconfident. I will not let that happen again.

Something just hit me like a ton of bricks (as I am doing a lot of thinking today, and not much working. ha) I really need to jump back into my Faith. I don't want to bring up religion or beliefs here, but it just became so clear. I have tons of people there that support and love me, and I stupidly haven't taken advantage of it. My family all are strong members and it would just draw us closer. I think I just had my lightbulb moment. My daughter is going to be thrilled...she's already involved and just loves it.

[spuddleduck]

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well done k9, thats the attitude. im so pleased... now get that antabuse and get back where you belong.... sober and happy.

[not tonight]

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K9 - there is the voice that gave me so much support when I first joined. I am so glad to read such confident posts. Just brillant!

[enja]

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Just wanted to add my voice to the others encouraging you here. I'm at 2 weeks AF and suspect that it's still very much the "honeymoon" phase - you did a wonderful job staying AF for so long and I'm very happy to see that you've climbed back on the wagon. Someone once told me that everyone has the desire to stop (drinking, smoking, etc.) but what one really needs is the motivation - it sounds like you have found that again. Stay strong, and motivated! :l

[choice]

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Hi K9,
I was worried about you last night and I'm glad to wake up and see your post. I always feel strength when reading your posts and the last few days I've really felt for you. I'm glad that you are getting antibuse again because it seams to really help. Also I think it's cool that you are considering getting back into your faith. I think soul work is a real positive and beautiful direction to enjoying sobriety. Eventually I'll figure out what kind of direction I'll go with that myself. I think it's great that you already have a place to worship where family is there with open arms! Take care of yourself today and look forward to the upcoming days as the AL leaves your system and you can be free again. :h
-choice

[mollyka]

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I never doubted that you were a ballsy lady K9. Good on you girl, and you will stay with it this time - maybe we all need to go back and just remember how awful it all is, I know it made me stronger - never again!
Well done
Molly

[neart]

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Hi K9, I just wanted to add my tuppence - I'm so glad you're still here, you know yourself how some people's posts resonate? Well, yours always have for me, and what happened to you has made me think a bit more about where I am at and what my own attitudes are towards AL - I think I got to a certain point and stopped working on building a proper life for myself away from AL, and your experience has reminded me that I need to do that. I also think that for me, a faith or belief system and the support that goes with it is really important - everybody is different and to each their own, but I know it gives me a better focus in my life.

I always try to look on events in my life like they happen for a reason, maybe finding your faith is the good thing that will come out of this experience for you?

I'm so happy that you're here, and I am inspired by your courage and determination xxx

[K9Lover]

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Hi Neart,
Thank you for the thoughtful post. I want to believe something positive will come out of this, and I agree with you that finding my faith may just be it. I sent my dad an email this morning kind of along the lines of "time to get serious". Both of my parents are very strong in their beliefs, one thing I can always count on is that they will NEVER waiver, and that is something to admire. My dad was very happy and said he would do whatever he can to help, he's a great listener and a very loving man. I know that they will support me in this, and for that I am thankful. Both my parents knew I hadn't drank in a long time, but I kinda played it off like "well I'm trying to get in shape"....but I know deep down they know the truth, they're aware of my past (2 DUI's...)

I am getting through my slightly-hungover day, had the required greasy sandwich and fries for lunch...ugh. Now I am about to take a small dose of Ativan because I do feel a bit shaky....

[OverIt2007]

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Theres our Girl getting back up again.

I just posted to you in the "ASAP" section. I really do understand what your feeling and going through. You have been there SO many times for me. I remember you spent pretty much all afternoon comforting me when I was having one of those horrible horrible hangover days. You pretty much talked me through until I saw a glimmer of light at the end of that tunnel. I know your shaky still, but I know your seeing your glimmer shining too! There is a light at the end of this tunnel for you!!

Dont you ever forget what a force you have been to others on here Dear Girl. That is why so many people on here care about you and love you. Cyber world or not, feelings are felt here and are very real.

I know your going to be just fine. And for the days that you are not, you know you always have many friends on here to pour your heart out to.

Love Ya and YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!

[Ringing Cedars]

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Hey K9...so good to see you back and on track again! I, like everyone else, was worried about you. Keep that fighting spirit up!

[FancyC]

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Couldn't possibly discourage anyone, you are too busy inspiring! Sending good thoughts your way. Take care of yourself.

[Doggygirl]

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Right on K9. Unfortunately, it seems that many of us just have to get our asses kicked one more time before we finally "get it" 100%. That was certainly true for me. And I know that feeling of not being able to put it down once you start again. Fight hard to stay on the wagon. Don't do what I did and muck around in AL's mud for another 8 months.

YOU CAN DO THIS. Have you modifed your plan yet?

DG

[papmom3]

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Yea K9er!! Stay strong girl!!

:l

[Popeye]

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So good to hear K9.
You'll look back on this as one of those defining moments.
Well done!

[symbols]

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Hey, it was so easy no one would be here. Your gutsy and have your priorities straight!

No one here doubts your strength!

Stay strong!

OOORAHHHHH!!!