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[Lillypond059]

Well I've messed up, binge drank friday night and yesterday. No AL today so I'm back on day 1 again, feeling so angry and upset with myself,I had'nt taken the L-Glut for a few days, back taking it again. so heres hoping I do better this time. Lilly x

[beagle]

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ah lilly - bugger. i'm not one for much comfort - but i'll have an attempt at af tomorrow.
drinking really sucks doesn't it!
:l

[Pride before Fall]

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Hi Lilly,

You got through a whole month AF, you know you can do this. Just dust yourself off and get back on the horse. It's understandable to feel angry and upset, but there's something to think about in that. If alcohol genuinely made people happy, drinkers would never be unhappy. And the only sound on this message board would be crickets chirping (ditto if everyone who had a slip left).

Hang in there,
xoxo Pride

[sapphire1]

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Lillypond059;962724 wrote: Well I've messed up, binge drank friday night and yesterday. No AL today so I'm back on day 1 again, feeling so angry and upset with myself,I had'nt taken the L-Glut for a few days, back taking it again. so heres hoping I do better this time. Lilly x

Gday Lilly,

My sentiments from the others as well. Dont beat yourself up.....just pick yourself up and get back on the horse. Look at it like this....when you got yourself the first bike...you didnt get straight on it and ride....you probably fell off many times. Then there were times when you could stay on for a little bit more, maybe a bit wobbly....the falls becoming less and less until one day after much hard work, some cuts and bruises to the body and the pride, you took off and just rode that bike straight, confident and proud. That is the way that I see me journey Lilly....becoming sober and staying sober is just like any other new skill......the mastery doesnt come straight away...but with a lot of practice, and a few mishaps along the way....some help from friends when things wobble a bit. You are going well Lilly.....I hope this helps xx

[Lillypond059]

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:thanks: beagle, pride, saph.just home again, hubbie and I went out for a wee drive, poor bloke having to put up with me and my drinking, I'm not drinking today, in fact I feel a wee bit sick. Maybe I need to take bac or topa, I read in here quite a few people take it, think I would feel to embarased to ask my doc for it though, anyone know if I can buy it online without presciption, here in Oz,
my advise to any of you, thinking about having a drink, dont make the mistake I did, because how I feel today it was blody not worth it, I just hope i remember that next time, when the thought hits me again :l to all Lilly x

[byebyebridgetjones]

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You are looking at this the wrong way Lilly.
Think of all the days in the last month that you DIDN'T drink.
Just build on that.
It's a process, not a done deal. OK ?

[Guest]

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Every time AF is practice for the real, big one.

[Chillgirl]

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Hi Lilly
I love Saffs analogy about riding a bike! Yes you had a wobble but the more we practice the better we get and in no time you will be doing wheelies.....

Our mistakes are all necessary to get us to the next level and the only mistakes to regret are those from which we don't learn.

Keep these words "it's not worth it" written done and keep them close, I still carry little phrases in my purse at all times just in case, like "AL is a poison which debilitates each one of you senses" "never forget all the misery!" "there is no such thing as one drink" "I like feeling good!" "this too shall pass..." "I love my body, why trash it". This formed part of my plan and I read then everyday in the beginning.

Wishing you well :l

[sapphire1]

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Gday Chill,

Thanks for the idea of putting the notes to self in purse. I have just done that very thing and will look at it many times a day as I always opening the purse for the fuskin kids:H

[Dewdrop]

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Hang in there Lilly you can do it and we are all rooting for you.

Dewdrop :h

[Guitarista]

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I'm rooting for you here too Lilly!

I hope you're back on track. Don't forget to have a read of the 'Toolbox' thread in the monthly abstinence section. Go for it!

[Mish]

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Hang in there Lily. Don't give up! GET UP!

[Lillypond059]

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A big :thanks: to you all for your words of comfort and support, day 2 af, I have just wached Raining in my heart, made myself sit here and wach the whole 10,all I can say is OMG, so needless to say nothing much else done here. hope you all have a good day Lillyx

[angel77]

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Hi Lilly, I hope you are ok. I felt so sad when I saw your post, but now I am reading you have started a fresh again. Such a brave thing to do. I bet you can do 2 months this time x

[Peacefull]

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Hi Lilly,

IMO - The fact that you came back so soon is an indication that you are ready for the long haul. The two day binge could have kept going. Be thankful you stopped and are back. It's challenging at times, we are here to support each other.

Take care,