I have been on MWO for at least 6 months in which time i managed 1 month AF. But then i tried to moderate and slipped back in to the spiral (downward).
I have been drinking anything from 1 to 2 bottles of wine every night. Not spending the time I could with my kids after school as would prefer to drink. I have laid awake in the middle of the night feeling like shit and said to myself "ok thats it, no more" so so many times. Then by 4pm next day i am drinking again.
I have gained weight, i have no energy and i want my old life back. I want to be fit and healthy and take my boys fishing and bike riding. I have hit rock bottom and its time for THE CHANGE.
So guess what??? YES i have started it!!!
I am on day 5 completely AF! I have been walking hills everyday, and i am eating healthy, drinking loads of water and telling my brain to shut the hell up!
Mind over matter i guess. I really want this and im going to try with all of my being to get it.
I already have more energy and i am starting to sleep like a log!
But it is early days and I guess im asking for your help and support in this journey as i know i have failed before.
Anyone who wants to join me would be fantastic. I am going to carry on posting on this thread daily to hold myself accountable.
I am going to be the best mum i can be and i WILL wear a bikini this summer!
Thanks for listening to my honesty, it was overdue!
Lots of love,
Pink Angel xxoo:h
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