Death by boredom

[Choochie]

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Kaje,

I attribute MWO to being the difference for me. I tried for years to moderate. Finally, I just couldn't take the schizophrenia of one part of my brain swearing off alcohol, the other saying I needed a drink, drinking, not sleeping, waking up with a hangover, swearing off, brain telling me I needed a drink to feel better, starting the cycle again and this going on, and on, and on, for, literally, years. I've been drinking since I was 14 - and for the past 20 years, every single day.

I am 53 days alcohol free today, and believe me when I tell you that freedom is the operative term. I definitely have funky days, but I have made a mental switch (the internalized feeling that I have given up nothing - and gained everything). If you can just keep accumulating days (ODAT) if that works for you, then suddenly you will have a chunk of time under your belt. Then, you'll not want to compromise that time. At least that's how it's worked for me. I spend A LOT of time here but feel it's totally justified if that's what it takes to stay sober.

You've already gotten good advice about food, supplements, water. The L-Glut has definitely helped cravings (mine are now gone but were wicked the first 45 days).

We are here for you - believe me you can do it. I cannot believe I have done this and have NEVER felt better - menatlly and physically. Wish I had figured it out earlier but am really thankful for getting here at all.

A few other tips that work for me:
I read tons of books about addicted people - find it fascinating to hear others' stories - sounds like you're doing that.
I real voraciously (this site and other addiction sites) - here are some good links not on this site (also in the tool box but may be buried):

6 Things that a Recovering Alcoholic Needs to Learn in Order to Stay Sober

51 Things You Should Know About Addiction Recovery

Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS) — Why we don’t get better immediately) ? Digital Dharma

MAKE A GRATITUDE LIST AND FOCUS ON THE THINGS IN YOUR LIFE YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR.........REFER TO IT OFTEN

WRITE YOURSELF A LETTER IN EXCRUCIATING DETAIL OF ALL THE NEGATIVES ABOUT ALCOHOL AND REFER TO IT IF YOU'RE TEMPTED TO DRINK.

Sending you peace and strength,
Choochie:l

[mylife]

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Choochie, Peace and Kaje, thanks for your posts. I am just trying to find what works at this point and you've all been very inspiring and helpful. Thank you!

[Ronker]

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Where can the 'rain in my heart' documentary be viewed /downloaded?

thanks

[one2many]

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It is the first post in the General section Ronker.

[Ronker]

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one2many;1012390 wrote: It is the first post in the General section Ronker.

thaaanx

[kaje]

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Thanks Choochie and mylife - Chooch I've been going nuts on the addiction biogs, read Anthony Kiedis' Scar Tissue, Nikki Sixx's Heroin Diaries and Dry by Augusten Burroughs in the space of the last 2 weeks. Before that was Carrie Fisher's Wishful Drinking and Russell Brand's Bookie Wook 1 and 2. I find it has really helped as they all have been through what I have, and worse, and have very different ways of staying clean and sober.

I'm considering all my options to really get on top of this.

I don't know how realistic it is to try and kick over Xmas-time? I have 3 weeks off from Xmas 'til half way through Jan, and was thinking that would be the perfect time to really go the whole 9 yards and get sober, maybe even with some medical help. Ideally tapering would be optimal as stopping outright leaves me in a really bad way. Some help with that and not having the stress of having to go to work to play nice in that state would be such a releif. Then again, health-wise I should be abstaining completely right now...

I was always against the idea of AA due to what I was told was a religion-based program. I'm reading here and there that isn't the case at all and I need to learn more about it. I'm wanting to attend an AA meeting to see what's up.

Think I might need the support of people around me (meetings) as well as here. As I mentioned, I'm looking into all options. I want to do this properly and not jump in without having a good amount of thought and knowledge behind a decision. I'm afraid of making a mess of it, dissapointing not only myself, but my Daughter (again). I don't handle failure well.